From 2009-2014, I went down the esoteric rabbithole. I wanted to find out what the secrets of the so called illuminati were. After years of being down that rabbit hole, and reading countless books filled with jewish schizobabble, my mind was completely fried. I didn't come out of it enlightened. I came out of it more confused than when I first got started, and knew even lessDon't ever go down that rabbit hole. It's a waste of your time.
>>538982484It's just jews.
You didn't go deep enough, or stay there long enough.
>>538982484There is no fruit at the end of those rabbit holes. Thats why its giant waste of time. You're understanding of society and hownit works does not become more clear. Nobody that takes that dive ends up being better for it. Ultimately it is useless information unless you are one of the people that can successfully monetize it on jewtube which is an exceedingly competitive market
What'd you learn?
>>538982484>I tried to drown myself and was surprised I couldn't breatheYou're supposed to go on light swims and build your knowledge over time. I.E become a better swimmer.
>>538986298It would be better to spend that time learning something that can be used or sold
>>538982484All of religion and esoteric cultism is the same. They promise you all the answers to life and the universe then once you ask for proof or some kind of objective validation it all goes *poof*.
Ultimately it just comes down to groups and connections. Mafias and cartels and family ties. You can research kabbalah and freemasonry and all that for decades. There will never be a time where someone appoaches you to accept you into their thing or gives you some kind of reward. The "knowledge" is kind of bullshit and should be treated as entertainment.
To the extent that there are evil rituals, sexual things, violents things these are more like initiation rituals, loyalty rituals. The power doesnt come from the act itself. Its to prove yourself to the powerful group. You could do that shit in isolation and you'd get nothing out of it.
Yeah, all that shit that it doesn't even work, imagine all the elite going through the most fucked up shit like ritual killing and shit just to delude themselves that magic works
>>538986816Yeah I think that's the purpose of all the "elite's" esoteric shit. It's just a bunch of sophistry and they tell you >you're beyond good and evil >you're not bound by conventional morality >you can become an ubermensch >you can become a god But all it amounts to is convincing you to do some evil/degenerate shit so they have blackmail material on you. That's the price of joining their club.Trying to find coherence or actual truth in it is waste of time, it's just a tool of power.
>>538982484>Don't ever go down that rabbit hole. It's a waste of your time.That's what tranny kikes would say
>>538986816>>538987440Even the guys peddling that shit will scoff at you if you take it too seriously, the man that lives for these things is seen as naive even if in his mind he's a truther
Humanity is inherently greedy and selfish and everything we do is in pursuit of those ends. Stoicism is a lie as well as being meek. You are all flawed.There is excellent marketing to package it up as something normal and moral, it's not. Life is inherently dirty, violent and hastily built, the world is built on entropy and destruction is the ultimate goal of natural systems. Everything is built like shit (learn about how houses and cars are constructed) and overvalued. Modern medicine is a scam and can't really do anything more. People need to be controlled because most are retards. Oh and also, Jews and compounding interest as an ancestral way for them to make money.Saves you a ton of reading. That covers it all. I know it looks like schizobabble, but it really is the summary of dozens of esoteric, philosophical, religious, psychological and business aspects.T. Well read Chadcago fren.
>>538982484Wow. In that same time frame I went to college. Two degrees. Salutatorian for biochemistry degree. Mid 30s when I started. You sound like a complete loser.
>>538982484You shoulda known better. Same thing happened to Alex Jones.
>>538982484Its just gang signs for rich people. You knowledge of the esoteric is just proof to other rich people that you care more about profits than morals because, heres the kicker, that knowledge is not available to ANYONE outside of their secret clubs. No matter how much research you do, you will not find it without doing some shady shit in a masonic lodge or on an island somewhere.
>>538982484During COVID I got into Freemason conspiracies. I'm on my phone so I don't have them, but I made the infographics about how MTV is freemasonic and so is Majora's mask. The Freemasons were spies for the British crown, and they do glow nigger shit here in America.
>>538982484>I dove into the most contextually reliant and meaningless part and fried my brain yeah it's not a biology textbook is it
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