When I look around, everyone seems to make friends and get into relationships like it's the most natural thing in the world. Meanwhile, I'm stuck fighting my own mind and my avoidant personality disorder. It's like there's an invisible wall between me and everyone else. I want to get close to people, but fear always pulls me back.Even when someone shows interest in me, I can't believe it's real. My brain instantly comes up with excuses. Maybe they just feel sorry for me. Maybe they're only being nice. Maybe they don't really know me yet. The moment someone gets too close, I back away before they get the chance to reject me.The worst part isn't being alone. It's the voice in my head that keeps telling me I'm not good enough. It convinces me I'm ugly, worthless, and that I don't deserve anyone's attention or love. While everyone else seems to move through life building friendships and relationships without thinking twice, I'm stuck fighting a battle no one can see, constantly trying to outrun my own fears and the belief that I'll never be enough.
BbzzZt BzzZzzt i hear a fly anyone else hear that oh wait its a Swedish homo
>>541773080Would it make you feel more comfortable if I told you I don't like you?
Im 30 and feel real fear leaving the house. I relate to you completely, im still a fucking virgin and never had a job. Whenever I leave the house i talk under my breath to myself to keep company in the big world and sometimes i fail at hiding it and catch looks. Then i run back to my bike as soon as possible and get home and cry in my pillow. I wish my story was even interesting enough to talk about, because it isnt, i just never launched i suppose you can say and spent decades in my bedroom. Jerking off even feels bad now because im fooling myself into thinking something that could never happen is happening.
>>541773080>>541773259>>541773274You guys can still enjoy the life in heaven with God for eternity. Don't worry. Today is the day of salvation.
>>541773274I be your fren if you want post contact
>>541773080>>541773274I’m sorry guys but this is really just called being a pussy.You’re telling me you can sit here on /pol/ for over a decade watching decapitations, children dying, mass terror, but you cannot handle a little small talk?You say it “looks so natural” for everyone else, but unless you were raised by the perfect parents in the perfect household, you’re going to have to put the work in YOURSELF to become sociable. It does not come natural.There are a million and one rules to our social interactions and none of us understand them all, but the whole point is to show the other person that you’re comfortable enough with them to show your ignorances and vulnerabilities. Thats how you bond with people. Not by lecturing them or informing them, but by learning about each other mutually and letting your aforementioned invisible wall down.
>>541773080Consider that most of what you see is fake and gay, and that you may be addicted to nihilism like a drug
>>541773080Don't give up bro I met my gf and lost my virginity at 34 you just need the right girlI made friends and my first real job thru her as well
This behavior literally comes from your mom. Either she was too controlling and narcissistic, and could never admit her wrongdoings, or she was too negligent and never encouraged you to do anything except be her most special boy even if you're a NEET. Sometimes it's a combination of both.Basically your inner child is lost, confused and doesn't understand objective truth, wandering around with a guiding beacon, and everything is scary because your mom, your first caregiver who you base all your social relationships around, never encouraged you to be independent until it was too late.The good news is that the brain is very neuroplastic even at age 30. NEETs can become un-timid through social exposure and competition.
>>541774004This is wrong.Your mother should be the one who is there to catch you when you fall, not the one who pushes you forward.Your father is the one who should teach you how to play and be social with others. Ever see those kids who would wrestle with their Mom? And it was always kind of weird and oedipal?Yeah, that shit is wrong.This Anon fell for the gynocracy meme.
>>541773080You Timmies really do deserve extinction Your women are sucking brown cock and committing crimes for them while you sit at home brooding lmfao
>>541774004>Sometimes it's a combination of bothThat’s how I feel.>Your father is the one who should teach you how to play and be social with others.He never did, it was always my mom who did it.
>>541773080Most people don't have friends or relationships. You just see the ones who do. It's like school shootings most schools don't get shot up but the ones that do get all the media attention.
>>541773080.I don't see Swedish people as White, they're animals, scared niggers who are afraid of SD, and now, you realized you were wrong. So wrong.Truly I tell you. Your country has already been cursed.You will beg, but I will not hear you. Final judgment.
Trust no one anon Not even yourself
