Didn’t bother to shower. Booted up Xbox and visited the kids in Skyrim. Sophie liked the taffy treats. That was nice. Finished off the vodka and yesterday’s Chinese delivery. Thought about scoring and watched the news. Threw on sweats and crossed to the bodega. Min-Jun runs it now and won’t give me credit but at least he doesn’t judge. Bought some Jack and went to the dollar slice. Will probably marathon Bring It On and masturbate. Might try to score later.Tomorrow will be worse.
>>544069789You have to want to help yourself. It starts with you wanting to get help. Talk to a social worker have them sign you up for medicaid. Then talk to a therapist a few times a week. and goto a doctor to get prescribed anxiety pills. The medicaid will help, then maybe go out and socialize more. Get a twice a week job and chill out bro. Build a fucking routine. Have something planned everyday so you are forced to atleast shower and make your bed.
>>544069789woke up this morning, got some gabagool
>>544069789>Wake up>Clean up after cats>6 pack of IPA+1 tall boy>Oven baked lasanga aquired>Play Mount and Blade Warband with mods for 12 hours>Clean up after cats part 2>Fall asleep>RepeatIf I didn't have a 12 hour shift job I'd have been dead like 2 years ago.
>>544070265I tried anon. I tried. I’m so tired now.
>>544069789is skyrim fun?I'm currently in between Morrowind playthroughs. Been kinda thinking maybe I should give the others a try. Morrowind is the only ES game ive played.Heavily considering Unity Daggerfall, but I think I could be convinced for skyrim.or maybe i'm just gonna be hearing "ah yes we've been expecting you" again again again again again
>>544070539sounds like you live in the nyc area that sucks bro lmao
>>544069789Woke up this morning, with a wine glass in my hand
>>544070592No. If you enjoy Daggerfall and Morrowind it's an insane downgrade in terms of lore and roleplaying expression. All you have to know is that there isn't even a Hand-to-Hand skill. It looks pretty though, if you just want to inhabit a cool world it can be good for a short playthrough, but like I said; they gutted all of the roleplaying systems so brutally that it's not even the same genre anymore.
>>544069789I don't get it? Your life seems pretty decent.But I think you're ultimately finding that you need God. The sinful pleasures of your life have left you feeling empty. Give your life to Jesus, find a Bible and start reading a chapter a day beginning from Matthew until Revelation. Find a Christian church on Google maps and go there every Sunday. Find a Calvary Chapel or Baptist church and talk to them there about pursuing God...Now after John had been taken into custody, Jesus came into Galilee, preaching the gospel of God, and saying, “The time is fulfilled, and the kingdom of God is at hand; repent and believe in the gospel.”— Mark 1:14-15And there is salvation in no one else; for there is no other name under heaven that has been given among men by which we must be saved.”— Acts 4:12
>>544071003basically what he said, but find an Orthodox Church instead
>>544070592Arena is neat, but I understand if you don't want to struggle through it.Daggerfall has one of the best character creators in video games, but the level designs and quests are pretty damn weak. It's fun to fuck around in, but don't expect anything truly mind blowing. Definitely play with Daggerfall Unity if you decide you want to try it.Oblivion is one of the most immersive games ever made, but the story and characters are weak, well the main quest is, the factions are actually pretty dope, and the dungeon diving is pretty good too.Skyrim is more of the same of Oblivion, but much weaker quests. If you think of it as a first person Diablo game, you'll have fun with it.
>skyrim Zoombaby dogshit slopGo follow quest markers you fucking inbred animal
How the fuck are you able to live in NYC as a NEET? NYCHA apartment?
>>544070592Oblivion sucks and skyrim sucks more damn TES has been dead for 20 years now
>>544070940DO YOU
>>544071322The series died at arena.
>>544070265>just be normal, bro>talk to a woke roastie therapist and get on meds that will make you fucking kill yourselffuck off normie faggot
>>544070265It is no measure of health to be well-adjusted to a profoundly sick (((society))). He is already doing what is most healthy.
>>544069789based londonfrog
>>544069789It could be worse.
>>544069789>indulged in hedonism>indulged in hedonism>enabled in game child to indulge in hedonism>"That was nice">indulged in hedonism>indulged in hedonism>whining about not being given more gibs>indulged in hedonism>will be indulging in more hedonism>will be indulging in more hedonism>Tomorrow will be worse>t. Wonders why he's depressed, disillusioned, bored, lonely and hopeless but comes to the conclusion that it's all society's/the jew's/the demiurge's fault
>>544069789I also woke up at noonspent 18 USD on two lasagnas and 2 cannoli, wasn't worth itcouldn't muster up the will to leave the couch until 20h30, basically spent the entire day doomscrolling and watching random youtube shit on tvwent to the gymgot back home at 23h, made some protein """ice cream""" and played a bit of ck2will try to sleep at 3 am and hopefully I can wake up at 9 or 10 instead of at noon again
>>544070592Is the best game ever made. And with mods it turns into anything you want, and with ai mods the npcs are the most realistic in any videogame ever made.
>>544070539I don't have any friends.
>>544072965>hedonism is... le bad!all normies do is based around hedonismthey work so they can have money to eat out, travel, get pussy and consume mediaand they're happy because they have friends, family and a partnerwe're miserable because we're socially stunteddoing some ancient warrior larp will only make life even more unbearable and get you nothing in return
>>544071134>Orthodox ChurchI would not recommend this.>>544071003Seek God and His wisdom found in a relationship with Him guided by the Bible and prayer:Wisdom has built her house,She has hewn out her seven pillars;She has prepared her food, she has mixed her wine;She has also set her table;She has sent out her maidens, she callsFrom the tops of the heights of the city:“Whoever is naive, let him turn in here!”To him who lacks understanding she says,“Come, eat of my foodAnd drink of the wine I have mixed.“Forsake your folly and live,And proceed in the way of understanding.”— Proverbs 9:1-6
>>544069789i love the hustle and bustle of a big city
I live like this but am married lol. Don't drink because I'd go full blown alcoholic and that would fuck up me getting my bjj black belt. That should be happening in the next few months and is the only thing I actually want to accomplish. After that the descent is on
>>544074705Uh? Your wife doesn't care? Such freedom is a great resource, you should start meditating so you can then go in a good direction.
>>544069789>Having kidsDamn I'd trade anything for that. All I have is tons of worthless money.
>>544069789epstein was fucking primo white girl puss, making millions and millions of dollars, and living on his own private island where he ran a fucking rotating door of world leaders. *and he still was gooning to five nights at freddies porn*. you aren't doing so bad, anon. being alive is already enough.
>>544069789Had to kick drinking. It was legitimately getting bad.
>>544069789Get on my level normie. Woke up at 2pm, fapped til 3pm, sealed the deal on a van I'm about to move into. I'm opting out and leaving the goyim life behind. I'll wake up when I want, where I want, fap when I want, and whateva I'll do what I want!
>>544069789This meme is so old !
>>544069789Maybe get some sun?
>>544070592Yes it's good. Ignore the pretentious faggots.
