I haven’t slept, I feel so depressed, my entire body is cold and jittery, I can barely speak. It’s getting better but I can’t see the light
Why were you taking them in the first place? What made you take them before?
smoke weed, I just hit the bong. Bought an ounce for 21 bucks yesterday at the local pot shop in town. (No discount)
>doing over the counter painkillers like drugslol, lmao even. Also 95% of that is from the benzos retard you're supposed to taper
>>546197355I’ve never done weed and for sure I won’t. My parents won’t allow it. And I can’t leave the house now with this crippling anxiety and depression. I can barley walk down the stairs >>546197312I used to take benzodiazepines from my friends for around 2 months and found out the hard way about withdrawal. I was off it for a month but couldn’t handle it anymore so I decided I needed to taper. My friend, by pure coincidence was starting his taper so he didn’t have enough for me. I had enough to taper for another 2 months and it’s been 7-8 days since my last dose. I took Advil and Tylenol for the physical pain the withdrawals was giving me (I was taking like 3000mg of Tylenol a day and 600 mg of Advil a day) I was also taking 400mg of methocarbamol. I’m so ashamed of what I’ve done to my family and I’m in so much withdrawal that I don’t even have the strength to talk to them. I don’t even ask them to get me Advil or Tylenol so I’ve ran out of everything.
>>546197258listing the first two medications was unnecessary anon lmfao>”oh yeah I’m off turkey, ham, and heroin I’m going crazy haha”
>>546197258Magnesium glycinate might help you to relax.
>>546197430Yeah I know it’s from the benzo. I’m aware. I’m just so scared. This is the worse feeling ever. I’m so depressed and anxious. My heart rate is at constant 110 and I’m on the couch all day. I feel so much pain
>>546197608I’m taking valerian root, magnesium and L theanine, and I only take it before bedtime and it helps me sleep if I’m lucky I get 3-4 hours
Don't do drugs. Let this be a lesson to you.
>>546197596I know it’s unnecessary but I was kinda abusing them. At least my entire body is clean
>>546197258It’s getting better. The amount you feel better occurs on an exponential curve. Never forget that. Did you taper of benzos? I have heard that’s one of the worst withdrawals there is. You’re through the physical window of the worst at least. I quite dope 8 years ago. It sucked. The emotional withdrawal symptoms take a bit of time to get back to normal. But you’ll feel a bit better every day that passes. Just remember, next time you want to use remember how bad this shit sucked. Have you gotten any sleep at all?
>>546197258This op from Canada has been on a 4 month long withdrawal He’s like Jordan Peterson but refuses to stop talking
>>546197676It was a huge lesson for me. My entire life I’ve never touched alcohol, never touched any drug in my life. And I just had to take my friends benzo. I felt such a relief. A relief so big. I became so social and felt so loved for 2 months where everyone noticed
>>546197706That’s how relapses work anon. It prolongs withdrawal. And withdrawal sucks bad enough that it causes relapse. It’s like a vicious cycle
>>546197698I managed to get some sleep. I just get so many panic attacks. Every time my parents leave for work I get so scared about their safety. My dad has noticed me not eating for the past 7 days, and they’re all starting to get worried.
>>546197732This is exactly how a junkie explains what happened and why it was necessary to be an addict >>546197785Glad I never tried hard drugs. I haven’t even drank or smoked pot in years
>>546197258>flagPost hand.
>>546197785This and him saying 4 months is inaccurate
>>546197258I did benzos for over a decade before stupid niggers discovered xanax and started rapping about them 20 years ago. Doctors handed them out more freely.
>>546197258Yeah anon addictions a bitch. I had similar experience getting off opiates. You'll suffer from anhedonia for another couple months after the physical symptoms subside, and you'll always want to do em, but you will get to a better place. I genuinely do mean that.
>>546197819Junkie? You’re calling a guy that never drank alcohol or done drugs a junkie? I made a huge mistake taking my friends benzo, but I was unaware of the physical dependence. I was just aware of what they do
>>546197918Alcohol and what you did are both pretty bad. You’re clearly addicted and suffering from your consequences. You won’t learn anything by being in denial
>>546197815Well, the panic attacks will occur less and less as time goes on. Just focus on that. Every single day that goes by the symptoms of the withdrawal get a little better, you’ll feel better tomorrow than you do today. That’s what helped me get through the worst of the dope withdrawals. And also remember that if you relapse you’re just gonna have to start over and go through this all over again >>546197819Never start. They fuck up your life and will set you back years. It took me a while to get back to doing well in life after being an addict loser
>>546197627You're fucked now! Maybe you should have seen a psych or go to the ER like we tell you every time.
>>546197968I have a friend who became a coke fiend. I am well aware of how life destroying it can be. He also talked like op did
>>546197917But I have 4-5 months before I have to get to work and make money.
>>546197918Benzos are one of the gnarliest things you can get on. Doesn’t matter that you didn’t intend it. You were an addict. Until you come to terms with that you’ll never get past it. That doesn’t have to define your life. You can move past it and one day you’ll forget about this period of life and rarely think about, except to cringe. But if you don’t see that you were an addict you won’t have the willpower needed to move past benzos and you’ll continue to relapse
>>546197698Apparently in depends on the particular benzo, with longer-acting ones peak withdrawal can occur beyond the 7 day mark
>>546198022And? You can work with anhedonia.. you're just not going to be able to force yourself to laugh at retarded shit that isn't funny to make the day go by faster.
>>546197968>>546198014I’m not in denial. I’ve been off it 8 days and I have zero supply left. I can’t get anything even if I want to. It was my friend prescribed medication. Now there’s none.
>>546197258Keep at it, dude. It will pass someday and you will be free. You’ve made it 7 days so you can make it through.
>>546198129What happens if you find a new plug? I think 12 step programs are super fucking gay and often counter productive. But the one thing they have right is that you have to recognize that you are/were and addict, otherwise you’ll never move past it and will eventually relapse.
>>546197627Don’t take that other shit. Won’t help you and will likely just make it worse.
>>546198129Sounds like a shitty friend, honestly
>>546198274That’s another thing. OP you gotta drop that friend. If he gets back into benzos you will too. And fuck NA or AA. Tried that. All that shit does is make sure you’re around a bunch of fresh addicts who will make you want to use or will help you find new plugs. And you’ll constantly be reliving/relitigating your addiction and you’ll never move past it
>>546198121Right now I’m in so much physical pain I can’t do anything (and yes it’s from the withdrawal, because when I was on it, I was going to the gym with my friends and had zero anxiety and was very strong). I can’t think of anything, I can’t remember basic words, I can’t do basic task without getting a panic attack. I’m constantly worried about every family member and friend. This withdrawal is nothing compared to my first withdrawal (the big one). And I went 30 days without it and it took 2 weeks for this phase to end.
>>546197516>your parents won’t allow it nigger are you five? You have to be 18 to post here
>>546198359>>546198339>>546198274I first took it without his knowledge. I’m the shitty friend >>546198359I’m 21 and I feel like my life is over. I physically beat up 3 of my friends at the gym and fought my parents. Something I never did in my life.
OP read up on rebound effect so you're prepared for it. I used to work with patients going through BZD withdrawal and one of the biggest challenges with benzodiazepine is that it's not always a linear recovery. you can start to feel better and even back to normal, before symptoms rapidly return and often in increased severity. it's a common "side effect" of your body returning to homeostasis from drugs that have had major impact on your GABA system.
>>546198421I am not even judging your friend and calling him shitty. All I am saying is that if he starts using benzos again, you will too. I lived that. I’ve seen that play out so many times too. You cannot risk tying your sobriety to your friends.
>>546197258Take happiness hormone precursors like Tyrosine (Dopamine) & Tryptophane (Serotonin), and do some push ups (Endorphine).Tongkat Ali, Vitamin D3, Zinc, Borax, Ashwagandha and Creatine are also quite dopaminergic, and bringing up testosterone is known to help with depression type dynamics.Having a healthy amount of carbs daily also helps keep energy up and kicking.Oatmeal with some probiotics is a good feelgood combo.
>>546198504I take d3 and Ashwaganda
>>546198347Pretty normal for benzos anon. The physical pain and panic attacks in particular. When I was withdrawing off opiates, shit like taking a shower felt like I had just ran a marathon. It was so hard and exhausting. It'll pass, and desu you might not even really notice. You'll just be laying there one day, squirming around because you have to go piss for the only time of the day, putting it off because you're gonna die if you sit up.. and then you sit up.. take a few breaths, and then get up.. and say "oh, that wasn't horrible". Then you go take your piss, come back to bed to collapse and realize you aren't completely out of breath and that it wasn't THAT bad.As far as this being worse, yeah. Kindling effect is 100% a real thing. I did the same thing to myself with opiates. The more stop/restart you do, the worse it's gonna be when you finally say enough.
>>546198617No this withdrawal now is better than my initial withdrawal
>>546198617But yeah I felt that for 10 minutes today. I just wished I had enough benzos to properly taper, so I can taper in a way where I feel nothing.
>>546198770You just took feeling good from the future and now is the time you feel bad plus interest, thats all addiction and the interest rate increases every time so good you are getting out early and cheaply
