Thread for discussions about selfharm and mutual supportgettin warm out there hey >How are you doing today?>Any plans for today?>When was the last time you hurt yourself?>Why did you hurt yourself?>Is there anything bothering you right now?
links :DD> long list of self harm alternatives (thank you muddy):https://imgur.io/a/7Q2zgw7> first aid post cuting:https://www.lifesigns.org.uk/first-aid-for-self-injury-and-self-harm/> wound care guide:https://docs.google.com/document/d/1CsvJs8qNCVkHWHKekMSmCn6qn0GBEcgnq9fIqlA6Uv0/mobilebasic> bpd workbook:https://d-pdf.com/book/1781/read>a bpd Information Book (anon said it's exceptionally good)https://annas-archive.org/md5/1a4f329474320214a120a4d553c6b60c> bdbt (dialectical behavioral therapy)workbook is intended for BPD but can work for anyone:https://cursosdepsicologia.com.ar/wp-content/uploads/2021/05/THEDIA1.pdfPlease don't post any drastic images and if you have to, spoiler them
>>84611348>heyheya cathow are you?>How are you doing today?it was a good dayfirst day after finalsbut it was so tiring, im barely awake and im so hungry gonna eat and sleep ig>Is there anything bothering you right now?just some ugly thoughtsi wanted to talk about cool things happened yesterday but im too tired to do that rn loli also wanted to reply to things you guys sent me last time but gonna do it next time ig
>>84611348heya!!>How are you doing today?Doin quite alright, just lazy again but not sick anymore!>Any plans for today?nope.. maybe gonna go out for another walk, not sure though.>Is there anything bothering you right now?the people in my class. for some unknown reason they all hate me but i guess thats normal
>>84611411hello>how are you?I went on a bike today it was nice ^^>first day after finalsyay :DD do you know ur scores yet?>gonna eat and sleep igwell hope you recover well from the finals and feel a little better >wanted to talk about cool things happened yesterday but im too tiredthat's okay rest well fren >>84611508heyo o/>Doin quite alright, just lazy againthat's okay ^^ good to hear you can relax today >not sick anymore!wooo \o/>maybe gonna go out for another walkhmm how's the weather?is or nice? you should check if it'll stay that way, of not you should go I say>for some unknown reason they all hate methat's mean, hope bad things happen to them
>>84611348>>How are you doing today?hungry, but I shouldn't eat.>>Any plans for today?just job hunting.watched the boys ending. it wasn't as bad as a thought it would be, just disapointing. >>Is there anything bothering you right now?my head mostly. >>84611411hi rem>first day after finalshuray! how do you think you did?>>84611508hi YvKi>the people in my class. for some unknown reason they all hate me but i guess thats normalsorry to hear that. I hope things get better.
>>84611682>hmm how's the weather?almost 10pm here so its a bit cold, but still cozy and chill. its gonna rain in a bit so thats nice
Hello everyone, I hope you're all well on this fine Wednesday.After a lot of thinking I've decided that it's finally time to cut my hair.I'm a little nervous but I'm sure I'll be fine.>>84605689>what pizza do you usually get?Usually just a Margherita. I'm a picky eater and don't like many toppings but it's also usually the cheapest option.>i don't think most people think much about how you act anywayThat's usually true for things that aren't job interviews.>retail kills every shred of good will you might have left towards humanityI can believe that. To be honest I don't think I could ever hold a customer-facing position without cracking under pressure. I'm hesitant to go into teaching after how much students in my undergrad degree complained.>a certain card flashed up in my mind as i was going to draw and it actually ended up being that cardVery Yu-Gi-Oh-esque.Incidentally that story reminded me that the only time I ever played Yu-Gi-Oh with another person was inexplicably in a disabled bathroom in a theatre (actually it might have just been a green room now that I think about it).>worst thing someone tried to send from my shop was a living fish. your not allowed to send vertebratesSomehow I hadn't considered that someone might try to do that. Could you mail a jellyfish or an octopus instead?>>84605946>reading all this makes me glad I'm on the low side of American student loan debtAmerican student loans seem pretty scary, even bankruptcy won't get you out of them. At least with in the UK it just gets deducted from your pay like I've had my wages garnished...Unfortunately for me (and most people, honestly) the principle amount and interest rate is so high that there's basically no chance of paying it off. Fortunately it gets wiped after 30 years. It's also very easy to avoid paying by just moving countries. All they can do is just charge you the highest interest rate.
Forgot my name again>>84611411Congrats on finishing and have a good snooze!What did you end up eating?>>84611508Sorry to hear your classmates suck. Hopefully you can find some you get along with, even if it is difficult with how solitary people are these days.What are you studying?>>84611793Hello cynic. Good luck on the job hunt!
>>84611793hello>hungry, but I shouldn't eat.whu not?>wasn't as bad as a thought it would be, just disapointing.so bad ir couldn't be be bad properly >head mostlybad thoughts or headache?>>84611815hm so are ya gonna go?>>84611903heya>time to cut DDDD; !!!>my hairDD; !!!are you sure about it?how long is it?>little nervous but I'm sure I'll be fine.well it'll grow back hopefully :o>>84611903also sorry for disappearing yesterday i was tirer
>>84611932>What are you studying?im in a school for IT that focuses on networks and development... i work IT from home doing low level coding and reverse engineering.. probs gonna drop out and do somethin medical in a year. didnt have to go to that school anyways, it was optional
>>84612073>hm so are ya gonna go?yup!! probably for just 20 mins or so but its better than nothing
>>84612218hope you see something nice :D
>>84612073Hello /cat/>are you sure about it?Yeah, it's getting kind of unmanageable now. Plus having it shorter will help with the wig I plan on wearing in July.Hopefully it's not a Samson situation where I lose all my strength and get my eyes gouged out by Philistines...>how long is it?A little past shoulder length at this point. It'll still be pretty long post-haircut, just not that long.>>84612213>i work IT from home doing low level coding and reverse engineeringThat's pretty cool. What kind of stuff do you reverse engineer? Do you use Ghidra for it?>probs gonna drop out and do somethin medical in a yearBest of luck with whatever it is you decide to do.
>>84612481>where I lose all my strength and get my eyes gouged out byyou never know :o>little past shoulder lengthwoaw that's longI only once had hair long enough to reach my mouth and it was annoying to sleep
>>84612073>whu not?i'm getting too fat again>headacheidk, my thoughts are all over and I'm just so tired all the time.
I stayed up way too late again and now I need to get up in 5 hours. I'll fix my sleep any day now...>>84612544>I only once had hair long enough to reach my mouth and it was annoying to sleepIt doesn't bother me too much, it's just become hard to make it look presentable now. Putting off shaving for a while usually bothers me more when I'm trying to sleep.
>>84611682>I went on a bike today>it was niceglad to hear that!was it sunny outside?>do you know ur scores yet?no they didnt give us yet>hope you recover well from finalsthanks!>>84611815nice picrel!>>84611793>how do you think you did?hopefully good, i'm waiting to see the results>>84611932>Forgot my name againfor some reason sometimes i know it's you even without the name>Congratsthanks!>What did you end up eating?a sandwich and fried potatoes and other things besidehow are you?
i wanna go out to buy something but the streets are empty and there might be a dog out there..
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>>84615038that was close
good morning guys ^^ hope you guys have a nice day I'm probably going to spend it working on the map and maybe I'll also go to the garage for a bit what r your plans ?
>>84615771>good morning guyshey cat!>garagewhat are you gonna do there?>plans?honestly i dont knowi guess i will just try to have fun on pclol i had a dream that i didnt do the finals yet and that i was planning to study a difficult subject in the break before the finals, then i woke up and realised i finished two days agoi had such dreams in the past too
>>84614028>for some reason sometimes i know it's you even without the nameI wouldn't be surprised if my writing style is more distinct than I thought.>fried potatoesAlways nice to eat >how are you?Sleepy but otherwise fine. How are you doing today?>>84615771Hello /cat/. Keep us posted with the map.I got back from my haircut so I'm going to take it easy now. It doesn't look awful, but I'll see how it is after a shower.
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>>84580967>and too little time to do that and you try so hard you get physically sickyou're right :<>but I don't want you to feel so bad and be so stressed over things you have no control overthank you so much cat :Di really felt better after reading this, even though i'm 5 days latethe thing is, i wanted to feel like i'm good at something, just like when i was a kid and i think i mentioned before how i grew up seeing myself as a student with high grades until it became like everything about me, once i lost it i felt like i'm like nothing soo i wanted to fix things this year. and i actually did fix a lot but you see that biology exam was kinda too muchit's been 5 days since, and i'm not really thinking about it now, cuz like i wasn't able to do anything the headache was unbearable and later i basically wasn't able to study.you're right i think i did my best about it :D>hope you feel better soonthank you so much :D>>84580872>hey rmhey 5/16 officeanon>but don't be hard on yourself.thanks!>>84581369>you'll probably forget about it pretty soon as long as you passnot exactly when like you're kinda competing with other people, but glad i'm not really upset now>and I'd forgotten that even happened until writing this post.lol glad you're okay
>>84583451>hi rem! hey yuanon!>have to put your energy into the stuff that might drag you down instead of the ones you're already good attrue true :/glad things just went normal>you did well.thanks!hope to see you soon in the thread>>84586975>Hallo rmhey togata!>and underperforming makes you feel like you half-assed that show of respectyup maybe this too>and it's not like you bombed the whole course.yup, thanks!>>84615944>writing style is more distinct than I thoughtit is indeed kinda rare i guess>Sleepy but otherwise finedidn't sleep much right?>How are you doing today?i'm fine, chilling right now
>>84612817>getting too fat againmm I see yeah then eating less would be a good habbit to have>I'm just so tired all the time.sorry to hear about that wishing you the best with the job situation and everything it suck it's the way it is, like, everything's getting worse>>8461343>stayed up way too latewell you'll survive maybe not sleeping evolution last will make you go to sleep earlier tonight >Putting off shavingmaybe it depends ho you sleep, I usually sleep on my back or slide so facial hair isn't really a problem >>84614028>glad to hear that!^^>was it sunny outside?yep :>it was nice and warm but not too warm>they didnt give us yetoh well try not to worry about it >>84615802heya>what are you gonna do there?maybe mess around with some bike but I decided to not go today >guess i will just try to have fun on pcthat sounds nice whatcha gonna play?>woke up and realised i finished two days agohope it made you feel good, you can chill now ^^ mostly>>84615944>Keep us posted with the map.not much changed visually, just most added various noises and I'm gonna start working on story sequences >t doesn't look awful, but I'll see how it is after a shower.that's how I always feel after a haircut it feels too short but in like a week or two it's perfect >>84616972>really felt better after reading this,aw I'm happy to hear that ^w^>actually did fix a lotgood job \o/ >biology exam was kinda too muchyep but I'd say it's not your fault >you're right i think i did my best about it :DI'm glad that you can see that fren>thank you so much :Dyou are welcome :3
>>84617285>it was nice and warm but not too warmi like that weather :D>try not to worry about itnah infact i'm excited to see it xD>good jobthanks :D>it's not your faultwell maybe yeah>glad that you can see thatthanks again :D
>>84617472>like that weather :Dtoday is gloomy so I'm not gonna go out>infact i'm excited to see it xD:o>thanks again :Dno problemo ^^what are you going to do with your day now?
>>84617514>today is gloomy so I'm not gonna go outi'd go out even if it was gloomy ngl>what are you going to do with your day now?no idea honestlyi think i know why i do nothing at my free time sometimesi think it's because i have a lot of things i wanna do so i end up doing nothing cuz i couldn't start doing one thing lollike there is a novel i was reading before exams and there are plenty of other things i wanna do but i just feel confused at the endalso i have a question catdo you also feel so tired a lot of times a day?do you feel like you have something bothering you/tiring you physically when you wake up?
>>84617884>go out even if it was gloomy nglI may go out tomorrow >have a lot of things i wanna doI have a similar thing too when I have a lot to do in a short amount of timeor like today I thought about maybe taking a bus somewhere or playing on computer or going to the garage and I kept thinking that I can can't do all those at once so I have to pick one and I just didn't do anything for most of today D;also when I start one thing I get a feeling like I should be doing something else and like a feeling of dread that time is running out hmm Maybe let's pick one of the things we could do and let's try to do it now? >tiring you physically when you wake up?hm most of the days I'm tired when I wake up but I'm okay through the rest of the day When I was very excited to work on the map I would wake up fine tho, I'd open my eyes and decide to get up quick to start working on itwbu?
>>84617966>I may go out tomorrowwaiting for tomorrow's update!>so I have to pick one and I just didn't do anything for most of todayyuuup something similarit's so annoying honestly and it makes us feel like the day was empty or boring :/>I'd open my eyes and decide to get up quick to start working on itohhh what happened to the last map??>wbu?i feel like my days are divided into partsthose parts are when i wash my hands and stuffidk if it's considered ocd but i spend crazy amount of time on the sink, i genuinely get tired only by standing and when i finish i end up feeling lazy and maybe having less energy to be "productive"by "crazy amount of time" i mean that i might spend more than 15-20 doing only one thingwhen i wake up i normally need to go to bathroom and stuff and this is the most tiring way to start my day with. like i might go to bathroom on 12:00 and sometimes i might get out half an hour later or solol my body is already weak and i get tired easily so this just makes things even worse, it even ruins my mood when i get out. been like that for yearsmy back hurts because of it.idk how to fix it
>>84618062>waiting for tomorrow's update!you never know what I'm going to do, who knows I might not go out ^^>feel like the day was empty or boring :/yep but I don't worry about it too much, there's always another day>happened to the last map??oh I was taking about the map I'm working on now :>I'm just not that excited to work on it now which is normal >days are divided into partsinteresting>idk if it's considered ocdhm idk but maybe >tired only by standingthat sounds pretty bad honestly, you should probably do some exercises regularly or maybe eat better?>on 12:00 and sometimes i might get out half an hour lateryou wash your hands for half an hour? or other things too? because maybe that half an hour isn't unreasonable?
>>84618187>who knows i might not go outhehe but you might see a cat if you went outthere is a small black cat that lives nearby i saw it again today>not that excited to work on it which is normalno need to tire yourself out!>exercises yup i wanna do those>maybe eat better?honestly i have no tracking on my diet and i think i eat a lot of unhealthy thingsneed to fix that too>or other things too?i do things that need like 3 minutes or 4 minutes despite washing handssooo nah
>>84618361>you might see a cathm true that's very compelling btw I saw 3 cats yesterday I honestly am considering buying a few cat treats and bringing them on my bikerides so next time I see a cat I may give the little fella a little bite to eat>saw it again today that's nice were you on a walk? Oh that reminds me there a black cat walking around where I live too in the evenings>no need to tire yourself out!no worries :>I'm not forcing it, though sometimes, I noticed, it's good for me to force myself to work on a map a little, it helps me to not abandon it >wanna do thoseyep that's a good idea do you know which you want do?>have no tracking on my dietme too it seems hard but if feel as long as you eat some fruits and vegetables and avoid sugar you should be mostly fine>eat a lot of unhealthy thingswhat do you like to eat?>do things that need like 3 minutes..hmm sorry fren but I don't really understand could you try explaining it a little differently?Like, simple things take your a little of time to do, right?
>>84618444>treatssounds nice! one day a cute little cat wanted food and walked home with meanother one lived next to our door for a whilepoor kittens>were you on a walk?i was getting back home after i bought something>black cat walking around where I livei had a black cat in my house :D>it helps me to not abandon itokay you know better :D>do you know which you want do?stretching and uhh idkmy skinny form is lazy and i feel like i wanna rest for a while after those exams..>fruits and vegetables and avoid sugaryep i need to focus on those :/i get bored easily but i need to work hard on it>what do you like to eat?snacks cuz making healthy or real food is a bit tiring sometimes so i just surrender to unhealthy foods :/but idk if thats the reason why im skinny>I don't really understanduhhh i meant likesome people might need 3 minutes to do things at the sinkbut i might need more than 10 minutes :D(ignore the ":D")
>>84617002>didn't sleep much right?Yeah. Fortunately I slacked off today, so it's not a great loss. I also got a free cola at the hairdresser which kept me awake for a bit.>i'm fine, chilling right nowGood, good>>84617285>I'm gonna start working on story sequencesHammer seems like a huge pain in the ass to use. I'm impressed that you've done so much stuff with it.>that's how I always feel after a haircutTo be honest I don't think I've ever had one and thought "wow, this looks really good" but I think that's a mostly universal experience.
>>84618708>>84618708>little cat wanted food and walked home with meaw cute >poor kittensyep it's sad same with animals in shelters>getting back home after i bought somethingwhat did ya get?>black cat in my house :Dawww I wish I had a cat btw pet ur cat!>wanna rest for a while after those exams..that's understandable and you should probably rest>need to work hard on ityep>but idk if thats the reason why im skinnyhmm I think that usually works the opposite way, people put on weight from it maybe it's not really eating snacks but you eat too little in general?>might need more than 10 minutes :Doo I seeis it because you like don't feel satisfied if you spend less time on it?>(ignore the ":D")hehe okay :D >>84618877>Hammer seems like a huge pain init's not It's actually simple to do things in it, that's why I got into it even though I never was interested in game dev or modeling or whatever I say it's actually very simple to do simple stuff and easy to get started I think where most of peoples complains come from is when you try to do something very detailed and realistic, with shaders and fancy reflections also maybe it's something else, like maybe if you're used to working with modern programs hammer with feel strange because it's from the 90s Also hammer ppl really like to complain I think, saying hammer sucks is sort of a meme>but I think that's a mostly universal experience.maybe but idk I know ppl who got to hairdressers regularly and their hair growing a little means it needs maintenance again
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>>84619051>I say it's actually very simple to do simple stuff and easy to get startedPerhaps I was just too impatient last time I tried it, which would have been about 15 years ago.Have you ever tried making a map for Goldsrc? Your style would fit that pretty well, I think.>I know ppl who got to hairdressers regularly and their hair growing a little means it needs maintenance againMy dad is like that. He'll get it cut really short for some reason and it looks ridiculous.
