What keeps you moving forward at this point? If you even are at all.
Obligation to that children I fathered. I would probably kms otherwise. Now I have to live into old age
Music, hope for the future and proving those who doubted me wrong. https://youtu.be/gB9P0kpc1O4
>>84621601Mostly spite, but also hedonism and the hope that I'll eventually be able to leave my current job, apartment, etc and move out of the country permanently. Might start seeing streetwalkers, not sure.
>>84621601The antidepressants, I ran out for 2 weeks and realized how screwed I'd be withouth them.I want to wait until my grandma dies to check out.
University is what makes me move the most because it is the only tasks that are imposed onto me. I'm living for pleasure though, food, anime and reading, games and 4chan. Looking forward to cheap pleasure because its all I can possibly have.
>>84621601I grew into enjoying the suffering life brings, plus I know she would like me to suffer as much as possible before I ctb.
ego and delusion
>>84621601>started learning new skillsThus I started enjoying more of the aspects of life that are out there instead of just acknowledging they are out there.
Spite and not letting the bad guys win, duty and trying to help good guys survive.
Supposedly the earth is moving at immense speeds undaunted by the threats out there.
>>84621601Debt and money problems, once the debt is gone I will have nothing left to live for
>>84621601Somehow, even for just a bit, even after all the mistakes i make, i love myself a bit more after each small win i do. I am better than what i was yesterday, doesn't matter if i am progressing at a snail's pace, i am progressing, and i am content with that.
I used to be able to do it but things out of my control happened that made me stop being able to do it. Currently not feeling so hot. Might end up doing anti depressants after all despite my reservations. I feel like I have no other choice now unless I want to keep wasting what's left of my life
>>84621601im not moving forwards in any meaningful sense. and im alive by inertia and cause my instincts strive to keep me alive
>What keeps you moving forward at this point? If you even are at all.My 'bux. Once it all ends, sui is much more likely than waging.