>>84682589
the only time I was genuinely happy was when I edated some girl I met somewhere, pretty pathetic I know considering it was all lies

>>84682670
Same. I hit peak happiness a long time ago

>>84682670
Maybe it can happen again? Don't lose hope.

>>84682716
funny thing is that I realized I wasn't a happy person when I watched one of the harry potter movies as a kid, in one movie they explain that to use a certain spell you have to focus on your happiest memory and that made me realize I didn't had any. lol
gee no wonder I tried to kill myself when I was 7. life has just gotten worse since then.

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>>84682589
Okay well there was this time I finally convinced my one buddy to come with me to my favorite nightclub and we had fun in the mosh pit and dancing around. Dude even got to eat out some Brittany Venti looking chick.
Other time would be watching MK 1996 with my sister and later watching the new MK 2 in the theaters.
Also all the times my co workers shared Pizza and drinks me at the office. We just talk the shit, man. Gonna miss that co worker when I transfer departments next week.

>>84682743
but what's the point? she is just going to ghost me too, that's what happens 9 out of 10 times from what I've heard.
and where I'm supposed to go meet people irl eh it's better if I just keep being alone.

I was a happy kid. That's all there is to it, really. Then I also remember having a great time at high school, I loved the classes despite being pretty lonely and alienated from the rest.

>>84682670
ditto word for word bro, feels like i'm taking all the good stuff in my life for granted when i only felt truly happy from getting a BPD whore's attention

>>84682771
I don't really have anything good in my life, material stuff doesn't really count since none of it brings me happiness.
>BPD whore
it's always them isn't it? lol

>>84682769
My mom described younger me as a happy kid. Fuck, I really repressed all my despair for years pretty good.

>>84682785
>I don't really have anything good in my life, material stuff doesn't really count since none of it brings me happiness.
yeah i get that, it can always be worse though. i see it as a good thing i'm not with a BPD whore right now for example
>it's always them isn't it? lol
they target autists like us sadly

>>84682881
>i see it as a good thing i'm not with a BPD whore right now for example
good point!
I hate that part of me still misses her though, that part of me is stupid and needs to drown in the ocean.
>they target autists like us sadly
that's evil

>>84682589
I had deluded myself into thinking a girl I met was still single. I know better than that now. There are no more single girls left.

>>84682589
3 months. i was happy for a total of 3 months out of my 32 years of life. for 3 months i had friends, center of my friend group, a hot girlfriend, regular parties, easy classes, getting high every day, still liked video games, it was amazing. then everything went to shit and i found out years later that hot girlfriend cheated on me so now its all meaningless. i hate my life.

>>84682932
i missed her for half a year but she kept coming back to toy with me which eventually pissed me off and then i heard from friends that she was making up random shit about me (not actually malicious stuff like some BPDemons do but just embarassing) so at that point i just started hating her. even then she still lives rent free in my head so i can relate to that, but i feel it's more like i miss the positive feelings we had rather than the person

>>84683115
yeah I'm forcing myself to hate her, which is hard to be honest, well I DO hate her but like I said there is a really dumb part of me that still loves her but I have to suppress those feelings.
>she kept coming back to toy with me which eventually pissed me off
that's pretty shitty of her.

>>84682589
Today I saw bees pollinating the purple flowers then took a quick walk when it was sunny out listening to music I had a good conversation with my coworker and yesterday I laughed at a tractor that was driving in the road I made a new acquaintance with an older man there is more but these are what is most recent