It's late. I'm having trouble sleeping so I grabbed a snack and am just posting here for a minute. The sleep I did get was very light. No rem and no dream. I don't know why it's been like that lately. I'm just up thinking and eating while listening to music. I'm thinking about the things I've done and the things I can do. Time really does go by so fast. I am not special. I have flaws. I am not obligated to anything. I can mope about my past and my embarrassing mistakes or accept them for what they are and create goals to have a future to look forward towards. A year will go by, a decade and before I know it I will be an old man. What life will I look back on what will the world look like then would it even still be recognizable will I make a good impact on other humans will I have made a woman happy with my genes will I have had a child with her will my father still be around if not how will his death change me as a man how does grief change a man what kind of person will I turn into will I stay true to my word will I still enjoy the cold and the rain will I no longer be racist what will the world look like? It feels like just a second ago I just started typing. Weeks will go by and I will forget I made this post, but in the back of mind these thoughts will still linger until they are answered
>>84711647I too have a shit time falling asleep. Getting a new position at my job soon. People say I have a nice personality and I have friends and family that like having me around/invite me over yet despite doing everything right I can't get a gf. Like I have money, a good car, a decent job, and I go out yet I come back home companionless. I don't get it. What am I doing wrong? Am I damaged? Am I broken? I feel like I am eating myself.
>>84711718I have learned recently alot of things in life come down to luck. Upbringing. People. Places. Timing. Genes. The weather. Opportunities. Threats. Getting sick. Traffic. Anon, I don't think you will go decades without meeting someone. I don't want to be like uhhhhh you not put yourself out deeeerr redditor or incel itsss ovvvveeerrrrr but just take things day to day. Take the bus instead of driving. Walk down a trail when it's pretty out. Abruptly stop and make direct eye contact and smile with in front of a girl in the middle sidewalk at night
>>84711773>Take the bus instead of driving. Eh. Buses aren't really that practical where I live>Walk down a trail when it's pretty out. Tried. Usually just run into dudes on horses, couples, or some weird farm.>Abruptly stop and make direct eye contact and smile with in front of a girl in the middle sidewalk at nightCan't. Family complain about me going on walks at night. I wish I could afford my own house.
>>84711854The last one was a joke but dang for the rest. I wish I had a solution or you but I don't. You seem like a very well put together man
>>84711866Solution currently is passing the probationary period of my new position, save up movie, and movie out when it's most optimal.>You seem like a very well put together manEh. Need to lose some weight and put on some muscle. Got to get back to working on that. Local gym shut down on me a week after I got the membership.Thing is, buddy of mine doesn't have his shit together like at all, managed to get himself a loving gf who lives with him(he too lives with his folks).
>>84711920I believe in you that you will achieve your goals. Just keeping focused on the road ahead. Get those epic gainz in and get a wife who can cook you tasty meals for those shoulders. Where do you want to move>Buddy found a wifeGood for him. I hope it works out but it makes me wonder about the kind of woman who wants to be with a man who doesn't have his shit together, not to dog on them I don't know him or anything and hope he is actively trying to better his situation
>>84712048>Where do you want to moveJust want a house of my own. Same general area. Can't move out of state cause of job/job benefits.>Buddy found a wifeYeah. Mofo still calls me over to take care of him while he's sick though. But yeah, his current gf is chill.>I hope it works out but it makes me wonder about the kind of woman who wants to be with a man who doesn't have his shit togetherNo clue. She's nice. Has a job so she's not a parasite. Guess they "match each other's freak". Common sense would dictate that "free housing" and being blue to stay in the same state her friends are in would be a factor but she just seems a bit too bubbly and I wouldn't say innocent is the right word cause the chick is into all the fucked up horror movies I like but a word similar to that. Must be love in the romantic sense. I wouldn't know.She tried setting me up with of one her friends but that didn't go anywhere.She(friend's gf) is bro.
>>84711773>Abruptly stop and make direct eye contact and smile with in front of a girl in the middle sidewalk at nightThis is the most Indian coded advice I've ever read
behind a slave is a tyrantI was thinking about that today
>>84712413he said at night its clearly a joke retardpay attention
>>84712400I believe in you man. Make your house cool. Get a garden growing
