Femlosers, have you considered finding a guy who will use your body to pleasure himself?
>>84713714Hi, about the biggest femloser you can imagine, and yes if my brain would allow it i would love to have literally anyone, but also i want to say, isn't pleasure like... the whole point of sex apart from reproduction?
>>84713723>pleasure like... the whole point of sex apart from reproduction?In fact it is, but in this case it's about his pleasure. He's agnostic about your pleasure.What makes you such a femloser?
>>84713723Don't let this creep corrupt you... Have some self respect
>>84713731>what makes you such a femloser?I'm extremely mentally ill. I have insanely high intensity neurotic SPD and it basically makes me unnable to exist around people. Even on meds, human contact sends me into almost instant seizure or neurotic outburst, it's insanely painful inside my head like my brain is boiled in fry oil. Being talked to similiar result, voices sound like sirens in my ears, the pain is obviously phantom but very much feels real to me. Because of this i'm on disability since i can't work, Mom left us when i was 12 because she didn't want a daughter she can't touch or talk to, bla bla bla neet doomer lifestyle, neet hygiene, no future etcThink that should paint a good image of an absolute loser. Can't have friends or boyfriend or nothing. Plus i got another bad thing going for me in terms of attraction that i don't really need to discuss. But yeah lonely as fuck, id love to get laid if i could.>>84713751Hard to have self respect in my situation, trust me i'm very much at bottom zero, i'm not on just some girl bullshit here like when girls with bodycount of 500 talk about how no one wants them.
>>84713775That sounds very unpleasant. I'm curious if the human contact thing can be overcome by exposure. But yeah, I'll roughly dick down your mom for abandoning you--she'll hate it.>another bad thing going for me in terms of attractionHow bad are we talking here?
>>84713787>if the human contact thing can be overcome by exposureNope, tested for majority of my life. You see i was obviously ill from as early as a toddler, but my Mom wanted her soap opera sitcom "girl gang" daughter, and so she insisted i was fine, didn't take me to a therapist despite it being recommended by my school, forced me into a normal elementary and highschool, took away any chance of having help. All the way until she left. At that point the thought of getting help was so alien to me that it still didn't happen. Only in second year of high school when i was so mentally fucked i basically starved myself into critical underweight, i had to be hospitalized, where obviously the doctors realized i'm fucked, sent me to a psychiatrist, where i was finally diagnosed. Yeah like until that point, i didn't even know what was wrong with me, and i hated myself for being the way i'm because my Dad lost his wife because of me. So, that is years and years of exposure, and no upside. Also got raped when i was 13, which literally is the kinda sex you are refering to here, for his pleasure only, and i can't imagine it was any pleasure for him, since i was just screaming and flailing my limbs while my brain boiled me alive in the worst seizure of all time inside.>I will fuck your MomGo ahead, i feel nothing for her, never could even develop any feelings of love, she is a stranger whos name i know to me. She left saying she doesn't want to waste what's left of her youth on being my Mom, so by all means go give her the "fun" she seeks.>how bad?Very bad, illegal, generally frowned upon, hate myself for having these feelings.
>>84713815>generally frowned uponDo you think that happened because of the incident at 13?
>>84713815>Very bad, illegal, generally frowned upon, hate myself for having these feelings.No need to be vague. This is 4chan where people express their fucked up ideas all the time. If you want to get it off your chest, just do so. Or don't. No one really cares either way.
>>84713827Nope, because of mental illness and a specific "exception". Fuck it, look it's incest okay, it's incest. I have a huge thing for my Dad. There you go, as if being mentally ill wasn't enough i got that going on for me.Basically, as my therapist explained to me, it's very normal that schizoid people like me attach themselves to 1 person, usually a parent or a sibling, and that person is basically the only person that your SPD just fully excludes. Their voice is soothing, their touch is nice and comforting, basically they are the only person you can tolerate, and have any feelings towards. That's why i couldn't love my Mom, no room for her. Dad is the only person i ever cared about or could be around. And yeah years of loneliness and living with him after Mom left just developed into these feelings, and i fucking hate it. The guy lost his dream marriage, has basically no one, has me on his neck, and on top of all that i have this going on for me, as if the turbo mental illness wasn't enough. As i said, about the biggest femloser you can ever imagine.
>>84713775Hey my favorite mouse is posting. I didn't expect to see you in a thread like this.
>>84713853I was expecting a worse fetish. That makes sense.
>>84713853Don't forget about the fact that you're also dickless and not equipped to fuck, but only able to get fucked in your hole
>>84713815>claims being raped>implies on being a pedo or zoophileYou're laying it too thick. Should've just stuck on whatever your diagnosis is and your larp would've been believable. Also women literally can't be pedophiles in the sense it being bad for the kid, unless she's into toddlers I guess. Any guy would've wanted their sex life jumpstarted as say, 13 year old kid. If they claim otherwise they're virtue signaling either purposefully to gain tiny amount of social status or just parrot mainstream opinions out of npc-ness and lack of critical thinking.
>>84713912Never mind she thinks incest is bad. Lol just fuck your dad he won't say no unless he's a retarded npc. There's literally no rational argument against incest between consenting adults.>uhh inbreedingRetarded take, people have been able to have sex that doesn't result in kids since humans have understood how kids are made. OP posted anal, there's plenty more.
>>84713861Well i wasn't on here for about 2 months, last time i was here i listened and acted up on some very bad advice and spiraled into a very bad hole of depression for about a month.>>84713873It's still bad, because i'm already a turbo burden on him, so this on top of everything doesn't make me feel good.>>84713912Never have i ever implied that i was a zoophile or a pedo, idk where you pulled that out of. Rape i mentioned happened when i was 13, the story is extremely stupid, but it was done by another guy around my age, somewhere in the 15-19 gap.>>84713935Yeah see my Dad unlike me isn't retarded and mentally ill, he is a good Dad who sacrificed his entire life to care for me. Last time i talked on here i was heavily convinced into hitting on him and it caused me to be so fucked up with myself that i depression maxxed for like a month and a half all in all. Anyway even if i made a move, all i will do is hurt him and make him even more dissapointed, and weirded out. And on top of that i would lose some priviliges like sleeping his bed with him sometimes, and i'm not risking that.
>>84713989I'm really sorry to hear that. I missed seeing you post. I hope you're doing better.
>>84714002Well... in my case, "doing better" is just being back to a certain norm and letting the alprazolam washout my brain into a state of half function. I think you were in that thread i'm refering to, if i remember it right at the end of it some weird guy appeared and argued with others about some people from the /mcg/ threads. At that point i was out. But anyway so what i did was i listened to the advice they gave me, and did those things for about a week, and after like a week my Dad asked me if i'm feeling okay while we were watching a movie, and i don't really know what he meant, but it made me just think that he is noticing the weird shit i'm doing, which made me disgusted with myself. I spent like 3 weeks not leaving my room at all, systematically avoiding him, and just doing nothing. Like i'm talking hours a day of just looking at the ceiling. I was an absolute mess, abysmal hygiene, couldn't concentrate on anything for more than a minute, i didn't want him to see me like that. After like a month of not seeing him i finally got out of my room and stuff just kinda returned to "normal". Didn't talk or anything with him about anything, just quietly hoping i didn't fuck up too much.
>>84714025If I remember right he was always understanding with it. I'm sure he doesn't judge you because he knows what's going on. I can see how it would mortify you though. Try not to be too hard on yourself going forward.
>>84713989>Anyway even if i made a move, all i will do is hurt him and make him even more dissapointed, and weirded out.Well we don't know your dad, but why would you automatically assume him being a retarded npc operating entirely by operating system on factory settings that was handed out by surrounding culture? Getting weirded out by incest between consenting adults is about the most reliable npc litmus tests out there, a value assigment based purely on irrational knee jerk.
>>84714132eh i think my Dad is not a "retarded npc", i think he is a very cool guy, but i also don't think he thinks about making a move on his very disabled daughter. And me, i'm so alien to human interaction i don't even know how to flirt properly, so i imagine one day i will just get too retarded, tell him how i feel, and then if he says no i will probably just die or something idk cuz my life basically revolves around him, and without that sun to orbit i basically have nothing. I'm turning 22 soon, and with how my sanity has been going ever since i was taken out of school and put on disability, i imagine by 25 the loneliness and starving for human touch but innability to get it will melt my brain enough to do something stupid.>>84714047Well he is very understanding about my disability, and doesn't blame me for destroying his marriage, and doesn't blame me for being the financial burden that i'm, but still that doesn't mean it's not all true, and tolerating that vs tolerating the fact that i want to replace Mom's slot as his housewife is a world of difference in my opinion, but idk obviously it's all just speculation, finding out is the problem.
>>84714184He seems like a good dad, so I don't think he would take advantage of you and that weakness. It does seem like he loves you and tries his best to take care of you which is good. I wish you had another outlet for your desires.
