i havent cried in about 7 years but now ive been crying on the floor for about an hourim 19, very autistic, 5,4, i wish i could just be a normal person i want to just live a normal life so bad but i just canti feel so lonely, i have no one i can genuinely talk to i just have to play pretend every day i dont know what to do, i cant keep living like this. the only thing keeping me going is that itd feeel like spitting in the face of God to take away the life they gave me sorry for the ramble but i just wanna talk into the void.,.and maybe talk to at least someone or somethign idk
>>84727544>God>theyWhy?
>>84727642hm wdym? i dont get what youre saying..
>>84727544have you tried doing some pushups or something physical anon? sometimes lifting helps me out when I'm stressing
>>84727742uhm i do a bit of exercise each day just to try and stay skinny..Some push ups and sit ups and a walkhavent tried lifting tho
>>84727544omg teh rei
>>84727544>God to take away the life they gave meIt's ugly to believe in fairy tales at our age, anon. We aren't children anymore.
>>84727544> i want to just live a normal life so bad but i just cantwhy do u think u cant anon? and what makes u feel like you aren't already living a normal life? normal is subjective, and I'm sure you'll be able to achieve your idea of normal someday if you put in the work
>>84727544You need to get off of this board, I'm 33 doing just that, haven't been able o cry for myself in years, but I've been finding myself on the floor crying at the state of my life and my inability to just do something about it.I'm begging you, OP, get the fuck off of this board and just do something or you'll end up like me.Seek help, get a career, and pray the rest you're looking for comes.
>>84728107i know i know.. but what else am i supposed to believe in to keep me going.,.. suicide would hurt>>84728173ive tried like socilizing in the past and its been the most miserable ive ever been its horribleidk i just cant handle most people or group settingsim just so tired of feeling lonely but i just cant seem to connect with anyonei feel like ive never had a bond in my entire life
>>84728238>ive tried like socilizing in the past and its been the most miserable ive ever beenI can relate to this, ive also never really been able to manage social situations, i feel like at some point its just better to try to enjoy being alone, make an effort to try and have a few people you can talk to regularly even if its online, but try to enjoy being by urself... pick up a hobby or somethig. ive been baking a lot recently and its helped with my loneliness. dont entirely give up though, still TRY to make connections, but dont put it on a pedestal. its fine to be alone
>>84727544I'm sorry, I know it's difficult to get by when you aren't a normie, but I promise you aren't alone. What do you want to talk about? Do you have discord? We can be friends if you want :DIt's difficult for me to connect with others too, and I also like Ayanami Rei, so at least we have those things in common :p
>>84728266i do quite enjoy my own company, but of course sometimes the loneliness and lack of connection does really get to mei should pick up ahobby other than gaming and watching stuff tho..>>84728267oh nice to hear! well if you wanna add me on discord (or anyone desu) addme! my tag is solanssword
>>84728238>but what else am i supposed to believe in to keep me goingWell, I'm not sure myself but if picrel is right then maybe there's something metaphysical to this world. If it isn't, then I don't know.
why are you crying about your lofe at 19, wah wah wah it hasnt even fuckin started
>>84728363what's a lofe
>>84728363because i can only see it getting worse from here ....no need to be so mean..
>>84728448It will get worse unless you leave places like this and focus on giving yourself a chance at something more.The longer you wait, the harder it'll be to do.
>>84728363For some people it has been over since day 1.
