Haven't cleaned my room in several mouth, and I had enough trash to fill 14 kitchen sized bags. Bugs were flying everywhere, there's some black tar sludge on the ground somewhere. Several bananas were completely black, and moldy food was there.The only reason I could get my ass to clean my room, after ~4 months, was to buy myself beer and promise to myself that I can't have a single sip until it's spotless. This is so pathetic but what can I say, I got myself to do it
>>84729412i can't let a single crumb spill or the ants who live in the walls will swarm
>>84729412The law is sunroof #9, Jimmy couldn't keep his hands out of my penis, i shit you not, i took him into my own pants, what was i thinking, you think that suddenly you're my blinds? What a sis
>>84729412Good for you, anon. Progress.
Going to yap a little more because blogposting feels great and I'm practically throwing these words into the abyss.I work full time, with varying shift times, and I'm so burnt out the second I get back that I lie on my phone until I take my insomnia meds to fall asleep. Depression + severe ADHD is such a tough thing to navigate, and with having functionally zero impulse control, I'd be blowing $30 each night on random shit from Uber Eats. I've lost 35 pounds in the last half year, and I've gained 10 of them back in an extremely quick time. My skin is breaking out, probably from the shitty food + everything else, and I feel so stuck. Barely went on my PC, there was a mountain of trash around the chair that I didn't feel like cleaning out. I have no friends and no family for hundreds of miles, and I live in an apartment and rent my own room. Zero external pressure to clean, plus I have congenital hyposmia, so I couldn't really smell the rotting garbage anyway.Almost there, I just need to scrub the floors. Tomorrow, I'm running by the bank to pick up some quarters and doing all of my laundry. Will try my hardest not to have this repeat, but there's been this continuing pattern of going 3-4 months without cleaning, doing a massive clean, and then back to the same old shit because "Oh, I'm tired, I'll just pick it up tomorrow"But hey, 3rd time's the charm, hopefully
>>84729500Much appreciated dude
Replying to myself again, but fuck this shit, I'm exhausted. It's 8 at night, I gotta be up at 4 in the morning and I can't show up to work half drunk again. Actually maybe I could, I'm managing. But I get off at 3 tmrw, so that's enough time to run to the bank, finish the rest of the shit, and truly scrub everything like the mystery black sludge, wrappers with spilled soda hardening into the wood, and the rest of the flies above that corner closet area. Got too much shit to do tomorrow to exhaust myself tonight. I will actually do what I said I've done though, and finish the job. Multiple jobs, I gotta wash my bedding + clothing + whatever else. My lagunitas can wait
Hey anon, good for you. Be proud after you're done and enjoy your space.
>>84729412>>84729508>>84729573Bro is Asmongoldmaxxing. Looks like the rat king has some competition.
>>84729508You can do it anon, don't get downtrodden. It's tough to break habits but if you keekeepp pushing yourself, you can do it. Don't give up
