>>84739360
Yes, I'm too nervous and can't enjoy the moments when they happen.

>>84739360
Elementary school. I rejected her like a dumbass. She cried and I didn't understand why.

in grade 4 a girl came up to me and explained to me that she was manually calculating decimals of pi
i think she was a bit out of my league anyway

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>>84739360
I actually had an decently cute asian chick simping hard for me, giving me presents, flirting, smacking my butt and stuff like that. I was kinda tsun about it, eventually she moved on to my friend. Later I heard stuff from him about him having his first time and nutting in a girl raw.

Needless to say I developed a cuckold fetish.

Two girls were in love with me. I didn't give a fuck because I was in love with another girl. Later I developed feelings for one of that girls who loved me. She liked to tease me and she touched my face with her fingers.

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Nobody here will ever be as pathetic as I am.
>be me, super autistic KHHV in early 20's
>live in a sparsely populated state but somehow meet a girl in an area code thread on /soc/
>she's chubby with humongous milkers, just my type
>we both live with family but still decide to meet despite neither of us having a place to host because we're both that desperate
>the possibility of having sex crossed my mind but didn't want to assume anything since we didn't discuss sexual matters at all
>drive over two hours in the dead of night to meet her, take her to Denny's and decide to get a motel room together
>she goes into the bathroom to change into her pajamas, no bra or panties as I would soon discover
>laughing together at pictures she saved from 4chan on her laptop
>she tickles me after I mention being ticklish, start cuddling
>can feel the warmth radiating from her pussy even through my jeans
>she places my hand directly on one of her tits
>thoughts race, I know what should happen, but convinced myself to end up doing nothing because I didn't bring any condoms
>just laying still there holding her tit
>eventually she takes my hand off her breast and just holds it in hers
>we fall asleep sometime after that
>check out, don't say a thing to each other as I'm driving her home
>she asks me to drop her off in a place much further away than where I picked her up, starts walking home
>send a message apologizing to her as soon as I arrive home
>never see her again
>still a super autistic kissless virgin in my late 30's
I'm reminded of the adage "you can lead a horse to water, but you can't make him drink;" but you should absolutely try to make the horse drink. Grab him by the ears and completely submerge him in the water, drown him if necessary. JUST HAVE SEX WITH HER YOU ABSOLUTELY DENSE SPERG, THIS ISN'T ROCKET SCIENCE WHY DO YOU HAVE TO COMPLICATE EVERY SINGLE LITTLE THING?
If by some impossible chance you ever read this, I'm truly sorry for everything, R.

>>84739360
yes.
multiple

>>84739360
I am Waffen-SS(Self Sabotage)'s strongest soldier

>>84739360
>high school
>have girlfriend, somehow
>hadn't told my parents
>getting heavier each day
>walk her home, invited inside
>we're alone
>before anything happens, dad DRIVES TO HER HOUSE and picks me up
>I face the fact that my parents are incredibly invasive and still control my life
>all the romance in my body drains out of my ears
>break up soon after and coincidentally never date again
>still don't know how he figured anything out

>>84739360
I did it just this week
>meet a girl online
>we talk for a while
>things are going well, lots of shared interests, she doesn't mind listening to me rant about stuff, etc.
>it goes on like this for a while, but it's only ever platonic
>realize I've got to tell her
>so I do
>somehow manage to stammer my way through confessing my feelings
>she tells me she feels the same
>she wants to meet in person
>my heart soars for a few moments
>tell her we can pick a weekend and then we kind of end the call
>next morning it hits me
>what the fuck was I thinking?
>this isn't ever going to work
>we'll meet in person, she'll realize how much of a boring retard I am and I'll just go home humiliated
>even if it somehow worked, am I really going to have sex or be in a relationship?
>no, of course not
>don't be an idiot
>why did I do this?
>why didn't I just keep my stupid mouth shut?
>gotta put a stop to it
>send her a quick message basically saying sorry and that I think it's best we go our separate ways
>not even going to look if she responded
>it's over
That was on Wednesday and I feel terrible about it, but that is the last time I will ever try to have relationship.

>>84740114
I would never mentally recover from this if I were you

>>84739360
Last year
>KV, 27
>live in bumfuck, nowhere and have to drive hour minimum to wage
>wage is nice because I work with qt girl
>we flirt a lot but she has a bf
>she comes in every so often upset because he's bad bf
>ignore it bc I feel its shit test
>"I hate him and we broke up. really."
>???
>we hang out and share music after shift
>she invites me over a random night and I'm panicking bc what do
>get to her place, she's wearing jeans and a low cut
>ok so its just hanging out...me and her
>she turns on spongebob and we pass around a blunt
>making small talk until
>she gives what i can only describe as 'fuck me' eyes
>I froze up bros
>awkwardly sit there until movie finishes
>its near 5am so I leave and go home
>ghosted for a bit
>until I learned she fucked our boss instead
>still got back with the ex bf

I thought about killing myself at least twice a week. I was friends with boss but never talked with him the same after.

>>84739360
No. I've never had an opportunity.

>>84739360
I have done this a handful of times, I even once had a girl literally whisper "I'm horny" into my ear while I was in the psych ward as a teen, she wanted us to mess around in the closet.
I hate myself.

>>84740555
Nice trips AVPD-anon

>>84739360
Kinda not really. Like >>84739372 I had a girl who was interested in me in grade school and I rejected her because I wasn't interested in girls at that time.

But then again considering that women were repelled by me throughout by teenage years and early adulthood, I doubt I could've kept her around.

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>be a KV 25 yo
>My chad friend introduced me to a bpd girl that he fucked a few times and she was into the idea of taking my virginity
>sexted a lot but was always too nervous to go meet with her
>finally made a push to go do it
>watched a movie together and she starts cuddling with me
>we start making out my first kiss
>she pushes my hands under her bra and I grope her tits, end up playing with her pussy too
>she goes to give me head but out of nerves or something I have trouble staying hard
>didn't have a condom ready anyways so we don't end up going all the way
>spend the rest of the night cuddling
>she latches onto another chad 2 weeks later so I never got another chance
I used to be really frustrated that I didn't lose it that night but I'm glad I got some experience and was able to no longer be kissless.
I just hope that was a one time issue and I don't have ED

>>84742071
stop acting like and anime girl your penis has touched a female body before

no KEK
oregano

>>84739360
I might have.
I've been really mentally ill since my teens. At age 17 I should have moved school when I had the opportunity but I had this OCD thing where I couldn't do anything I perceived as good for me and would be extremely passive to the point of self destruction. So I let my parents choose this "productions school" for me where I had to do photoshop/graphic design instead of a real school where I learned valuable things that I wanted to do and that wasn't a sausagefest with like 80% males, a real school where I could maybe get to meet any girl that wasn't taken or much older and fatter than me. I never signed up for the photoshop/graphic design class but I just let it happen and never tried changing it. I should have also hit the gym like I wanted to so I could've been more attractive and utilize my growth pathways at such an early age but again, I purposefully ignored to do anything that would have benefitted me long term.

>>84739360
Yes because at my core I am a deeply insecure and picky and will talk myself out of any sure thing in the belief that some day I might find what I am looking for.

>>84739360
my entire life is the sabotage

c:

>>84739360
i had a cute blonde girl in freshma.year of high school literally throwing herself at me, hugging me, etc etc. she even kissed me on the lips. my brain decided that the optimal course of action was to pretend nothing was happening. like she would be sitting in my lap during breaks and her tits would be against my chest and i sould be sitting there doing my music school homework. she was a real trooper too, she was making attempts for like 2 YEARS, then gave up and got a boyfriend, who was a knockoff version of me. not even joking, he looked like me except uglier and with acne scars on his face, was way shorter than me, also went to music school but eas way worse than me etc. the only thing he beat me at was not being an autistic retard. now they are engaged and i am a mid 20s khhv.

i fucked up other times as well, but they werent as bad as this because this one lasted for years. for exame a few years ago i had a beautiful girl in a red dress come up to me after a concert where i played and asked me if i wanted to go for drinks with her. i replied "NO, I HAVE TO GO DO A PROJECT FOR UNI. BYE"
Or when i was a teenager at the seaside (i am an autistic retard so whemever im at the seaside i just spend all day every day swimming for hours) i had a very pretty tanned french girl my age tell me "you are very good swimmer no" and then when i told her that im not that good she said "you are very cute" so i stood there and said "oh uh thanks y you too" then jumped back into the watee and swam to a nearby small island and waited there for like an hour before swimming back because i was afraid she would still be there

>>84739360
Of course, where do you think we are? 3 different girls in college, but I was too dense to realize what was going on.
One of them I got back to home and realized I just went on a coffee date that she asked me out on. She probably thought I was queerer than a $3 bill. I thought I was just catching up with a friend.
Another Invited me to a Halloween party that was her, her roommates, and (I found out later) her roomates' dates. I thought it was some house party, so instead I popped pills and got drunk alone at home

>>84739503
>Later I heard stuff from him about him having his first time and nutting in a girl raw.
Imagine being able to cum inside on your first time

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>>84744089
My bad for mixing it up those are separate events (actually it could've cum inside that time as well but in the scenario where he came inside he was explicitly told not to so at that time presumably she wasn't on the pill). Regardless his first time story is hot because of how forceful she is

Luckily no as those never did arise for me.

>>84744230
you really are lucky. you dont know how much anguish you get from being an incel who squandered his ONE chance. its like the difference between being poor vs being poor and knowing for the rest of your life that you ripped to pieces a billion dollar winning lottery ticket

>>84739360
>Girl thinks I'm cute and is hitting on me
>Don't do anything because I was both undiagnosed autistic and didn't even start puberty yet so I didn't feel anything for girls
This was when I was 13

>>84744269
Yeah maybe its good that I didn't notice.
It could be even worse I could been your crush giving you a chance and you flunk it.

>>84744307
Hmm, I wonder, I mean sure but even before starting puberty I noticed girls, heck I remember my yellwo fever hitting in first grade.

>>84744157
Do tell anon, I love hearing first time stories

>>84739360
Yes, absolutely avoid women who are interested in me.

>>84744862
I shouldn't go to into detail but the general idea is that she was staying over at his families place they were not dating yet but there must've been some tension but he wasn't making a move. So one day she just walks to his room butt naked (and you know what happened afterwards).

>>84739360
a girl asked me out but I thought it was a prank so I said no
I guess I was attractive back then but I literally had the personality of Butter which is worse than autism

>>84740485
In times like these its almost satisfying to be a loser just to shut up your parents
have they ever asked when youll get married and give them grandkids?

>>84745081
Damn, I don't blame you for developing a cuck fetish after hearing all this

>>84739360
When I was in middle school or early high school hanging out in a public place, a few girls came up to me and asked if I wanted to have sex with them, which was weird so I said no.

Also in middle school, I got a hypersexual gf who I did nothing with; she left me for another dude, and rather than taking advantage of her being a slut I stopped talking to her and resented her for years afterward. We briefly reconnected years later but I still didn't actually want to have sex with her although I could have convinced her to with time.

The girlfriend after her who I broke up with early in highschool reconnected with me in late high school and wanted to get back together, and expressed so in a moment where I could have said yes and had sex with her, but I didn't care for her as much as I once did so I said no.

My friend group in late high school once met up with each other for a small orgy they could have invited me to, but I wanted no part of that.

In late college I got really close with a girl who really turned me on mentally and physically, and she was down to fuck me, but I got turned off once she revealed to me she was long distance with a longterm bf with whom they agreed to be in an open relationship while they were apart in college, which disappointed me so I felt like her turning her down, even though I liked her the most out of all girls I'd known up to that point.

In my early-mid 20s a ghetto coworker single mom in her 30s was into me, but I ultimately didn't want to go out like that despite being determined to finally have sex.

Finally did a few months later with the best girl yet.

It's happened several times. 30 now. I have a handsome face.

>>84745141
Yeah generally being a cuck is an L but like how are you supposed to maintain your ego as a guy after hearing something like that. If I just gave the slightest hint to her I could had that treatment where she does all the heavy lifting relationship wise literally autism proof (well nearly). Guaranteed the sex was amazing too with some girls you can just tell.

>>84745250
Can you read nigga? He's a pathetic faggot who shouldn't be sympathized with. He didn't want her much in the first place and got upset about her moving on after he decided to play coy-bitch.

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>>84745313
That's me desu don't go too hard on me please I was really into another girl at the time

>>84745124
>have they ever asked
No. They always seem hopeful, but I think they both know what they did.
I even lied(indirectly) to my dad about being a virgin to make him feel better, but man, I kinda wish I had just dropped this on him.

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>>84745250
I'm not sure how much of a cuck I am but hearing all about my normie friends sex lives has always been super hot

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>>84745428
I guess how much of a cuck you are depends on what about it makes it hot for you. It's lowkey also a way to bond with the homies unfortunately I don't have that tool in my kit

>>84745477
>bonding with your friends by letting the smash your girl
Sounds kinda nice desu

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>>84745597
I was just talking about sharing stories lel but sharing your girlfriend would certainly win you more points especially if your friend is a virgin. It would be awesome if we both lost our firsts to the same foid.

Also just allows for a bunch of other fun silly play and friendship trio shenanigans

>>84739360
I've never had an opportunity to not be a kissless virgin who's never known love or intimacy. I'm turning 30 this year

>>84745124
My parents kind of gave up when i told them I was a pedo.

>>84745672
>It would be awesome if we both lost our firsts to the same foid.
It would, being Eskimo bros but on a even deeper level

>>84739372
>>84741034
>being given a chance when you're not looking for one
i'm tired of this meme

>>84740485
and let me guess, your dad bitches and moans about you not having a girlfriend?

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Reading a lot of these responses makes me sad, because the girl just moves on to chad after 2 weeks while for the maladjusted incel it's a massive defining moment in their life.
Even if you had sex, it will never mean as much to her as it does to you. She can always just get some D elsewhere.
That's why I think it's better to be a volcel.

>>84739360
that depends on your definition of opportunity.

>>84739360
In elementary I had a girl confess to me. My childhood was bad enough I genuinely I did not believe I could ever be loved, I turned her down thinking it's a prank even as she kept saying she was sincere

>>84746416
giving up does feel good.