Time-wasting blogpost.When I was 16 I'm not sure if it was just naivete, but wasting my time skipping school and being home 24/7 because of depression felt completely fine and not like a big deal. But now that I'm in my 20s, and not really as affected by those issues (somehow I still graduated), I notice just how much time I'm actively wasting. Is it because this has simply become my routine, which is always easy to fall back on? I'm unemployed, I have zero irl friendships, and mooch off my parents. Maybe being underage was what made it seem okay to be that way but now that I'm a grown adult (pretty much) it's just increasingly embarrassing. I don't have wealth to sit back on or think my parents are immortal or anything like hat, but still I can't keep from being frivolous. Despite really wanting to go to college or just have a job, either works, I self-sabotage as much as possible, sometimes even without realizing it, in order to postpone doimg much about those. I've gotten close to landing a job or going to college multiple times now but in the end for one reason or another I seem to miss this or that deadline. How do I get myself straight? I'm on 4chan, so bad start, but this board has so many neurotypical normies someone might just have a proper answer. My mind has been stuck as that of a dumb pre-teen for half a decade now. It's scary to think about the future.
You are foreverially missing out. I, a better person than you, get up at a certain time each day to do things for someone else in exchange for money. That money I then give to people doing things for someone else in order to demonstrate my superiority over the person I give the money I worked for to.
>>84739966Why would you get a job? Don't you know that feels bad and you should only do what feels good? Go eat some grass you cow.
Simply put yourself in a environment where you would suffer consequences and shame(some form of accountability). I found that simply interacting with others made me self conscious about my position in life and forced me to work. Do something to gain momentum(ex: exercise)and if you have to work/study put yourself in a environment specifically for that purpose(cafe or library) where others are also working. Join a study group once in uni/college to make friends(study groups are basically useless and stressful if you're not familiar with the materials beforehand). Don't be afraid to sit with your emotions and figure out whats stressing you out or confusing you.
>>84740549DamnTed Kaczynski was right
>>84740594My heart is softer than my palms yknow
