a few months-year ago, I said I'd leave r9k. someone responded that id always come back. in that time, i graduated. a day or two ago i came back to check on this place and nothing rlly changed. nothing rlly changed in me either though. in that time i didn't do anything in my life besides focus on my schoolwork. i still had that mindset that i was saving all my activities i wanted to do for my future friends and id have a gf that would put a cigarette out on my neck. and yet i never did anything abt it and i never even tried, i didnt even have social media accounts or buy myself anythign for fun. a part of that is my anxiety disorder but its also cope. all the meaningless blogpost to say im just going to enjoy my future neet life and put my time into socializing with ppl i like (online everyone irl is old and normal) instead of lurking, going outside to take pictures more (i coped i didnt have an expensive enough camera), learning jp so i can try to get into vns, and maybe read bl too. being a terminally online neet is fine but being a husk who does nothing and enjoys nothing only mindlessly scrolling and dreaming is retarded most obvious lesson ever. not wasting ts summer. i hope you all are doing what you want to do.
You are here forever. Drill that into your head. You will always come back eventually
In Spain people don't just go to the bathroom. They instead ask each other person if they need the toilet. It's a subtle way to politely express they are going to make poopoo or peepee, checking to first make sure no one else has a greater immediate need of the facilities before they selfishly excrete waste. As an American I find this practice very strange. When I depart from a semi-public space to utilize a toilet I do not bother to ask about a coworkers immediate perception of their bladder or small intestine's capacity and gauge their desire to void before I go myself. I just go to the bathroom unannounced.
