Its such a drag. A fucking uphillbattle everyday. Everything is strange. The loneliness makes me nauseaus sometimes. Im unable to connect, i try i try i try, and im back to zero, even less than zero. I wish i could give up, but i cant just kill that remaining part of hope
>>84744489>i try i try i try, and im back to zero, even less than zeroFucking accurate, I gave up around 3 years ago, it was bliss initially since I no longer had to keep up appearances but now my parents home feels like a prison I can't get myself out of, I can go into the outside world, but I can't deal with the outside world, it's too scary.Autism is a curse, I wonder what I did wrong in my past life to end up like this.
>>84744865any particular incident that got you to give up three years ago? I even moved out twice, but now im stuck at my parents place too, no own car, no social life no nothing. But it was all for naught. how do you even connect with people. Im so far removed, i cant even relate to people even if they want to be friends. All this chatter, all this behaviour. I honestly dont feel human, like a strange observer. But i instinctually long for companionship, you cant just simply turn it off or remove it with copes. Only surpress it for some time, but it still comes back. Do you atleast go for walks or are you staying at home completely hikkomori style
>>84744948>i cant even relate to people even if they want to be friendswhy not exactly? its ridiculous how stuck up people areyou want someone exciting and good looking to make you feel special, whether youre male or female. the people giving you attention arent good enough for youthats literally all it is
I'm also a failure but I've kind of have lost my braincells (think I lost them somewhere) and now I can't really express how sad I am. If I had a shotgun right now I'd blow my brains out. I'm fed up with life I just don't feel sad
