It's easier to fall into a hole than it is to climb out of one. I was surrounded by people who loved me, who reached out to me. I rejected them. I was trapped by my own paranoia, convinced that regardless of what they told me, they were all laughing at me behind my back. I used to dream if I had just one more chance, I could get back to normal, do things right. But too little, too late. No one reaches out anymore, and why would they? I won't actually change, and no one would notice if I tried. So might as well keep dreaming.
OP, I think you're autistic
>>84756195OP you are literally me
Lucky you, when I reached out to the people who supposedly wanted to help it often turned out to be either empty lip service or fine print versions of what they promised. Turns out I was merely a schmuck to their own conveniences and schemes and I realized a little too late.
>>84756195what if you jump really high and bounce out of the hole
>>84756210no its a stupid fucking foid 100% men don't have anyone who would bother helping them out
>>84756195They are always laughing; lucky for you that hiding in a hole is an option. I was surrounded by people who loved me, who reached out to meI was surrounded by people who loved me, who reached out to me>I was surrounded by people who loved me, who reached out to me. I rejected them.Do you really think that they did out of pure kindness? And not because of some self-centered belief system?"Oh if I don't help my fuck-up, what would others think?". You must really be retarded to believe that.Closing you eyes to stay dreaming has just opened it to this truth
