Any other anons struggle with drugs sometimes? I don't feel like I'm in full blown addiction or anything but I certainly have a hard time saying to no to literally any drugs to try and keep a good time going
>>84756646i started doing meth 2 yrs ago and do it every time im offered. its weird not being a full blown addict and doing drugs socially but it doesnt make ur issues any less bad. what substance do you use?
>>84756646Had to break off a vacation because i couldn't use and my sober self started irritating me. The guilt is increasing, mainly because its not hard stuff at all and im forfeiting everything for the garbage. My liver filters everything out in two hours tops. What a shitty life.
>>84756646No and I wish I had advice for you. I feel bad for drug addicts. It's bad for you
>>84756659Probably booze would be the only one I use regularly but like you if offered something like meth I won't say no, did it the other day and didn't sleep and went to work still the next day. I think I'm still just in a bit of a comedown and feeling a bit guilty.Seems like alcohol is the trigger though, when sober I have no desire to do any drugs but as soon as I have a couple beers the cravings come through
>>84756833alcohol is one of the hardest drugs. it can kill you to go sober. honestly just try cutting down how much you drink every time you drink, its hard to fully stop because of how huge the drinking culture is everywhere
>>84756853You're not wrong! I used to drink everyday and have cut back to at least once or twice a fortnight but I feel like I've probably been going down a dark path by combining it with hard drugs.
>>84756646>Any other anons struggle with drugs sometimes?Yeah. Like right now I currently don't have any.
>>84756646I used to be a homeless crackhead and it exascberated my schizophrenia until the point I now get benefits for it.But I still order some freebase off the darkweb every now and thenNo where in the realm of how I was, but need some form of relief from the suffering
>>84756646I quit alcohol for weed when it became legal in Canada.I realized something, I suffered before I touched drugs, suffered after booze and suffering after weed.These are copes, but the copes can be too much
>>84756646No, because drugs are illegal so I can't acquire them.
>>84757055Well damn, I feel silly for being so wound up about me occasionally touching hard drugs. I guess we can always come back from the edge as long as we're alive hey>>84757076Yeah I feel that, I guess I'd start drinking and that was fun, then I'd pop a few amphetamines because that would make it more fun and then I'd just take whatever to try and keep a good time going.
i don't believe in the dichotomy between addiction and sobriety because i think it catastrophizes things but i do think about drugs and crave them often ; i crave ketamine most because it evaporates my daily traumatic dreams/night terrors, autism + schizoid tendencies, general melancholia, and pmdd ; but i also occasionally crave various stims because i have such little energy and so many things i need to get done to keep from being a homeless wageslave and to maybe start a family some day, the problem is i overdid drugs along with not eating well over the pandemic and ended up in drug induced psychosis from anachanning and giving myself intramuscular ketamine injections super often and then stacking them with adderall and other psychedelics (shrooms, peyote) while in hypomania ; it sucks because until my psychosis i feel like i became an entirely new person, very social, empathetic, thoughtful, loving, imaginative, passionate, energized, even had some mystical experiences and now i just feel completely shut off from the divine and even banal pleasures like friendships, because of some further abuse i faced before and while institutionalized ; it doesn't help that i'm now aware of my baseline of misery and how it could be immediately alleviated with substances... i am completely med free (after being given useless antipsychotics, ssris, gabapentenoids, all of which made me retarded and worse) and (critically, from a psychoanalytic and philosophical perspective, not naively) antipsychiatry but i do envy privileged bourgeois women who can afford to navigate bureacracy and get legal ketamine infusions at home and various spoiled acquaintances like the countless ppl i met at university who have adhd meds because they're coddled adult children and i never will because i'm female and working class and the wrong race so any support i seek will get either downplayed or flagged as drug seeking, even if i still had insurance
7 time convicted felon and basically lifetime IV user of meth and heroin. When it switched to fentanyl I smoked it usually but still shot it a few times. Sober right now btw. 5 weeks or so. So yeah dude I totally understand having an issue with drugs. Most of the time people become aware they're in the danger zone, it's already too late. The time you arrive in the danger zone and the time when you realize it are not the same. I could say stop while you're ahead, it only gets worse, etc etc. None of that worked for me. So go ahead. Do your drugs. Every time you draw a line in the sand and say, "I'll do one thing, but definitely won't go this far," you'll cross that line and draw a new one. At first it'll be you use on weekends, but not during the week, then you won't ruin your life, right? Well Friday counts as a weekend, so we'll throw that in there. And Thursday night is of course a precursor to Friday so that couldn't hurt either. Then you'll be using everyday. All your money spoken for, basically. But you've never used a needle, so you can't be a fiend. You're different. But then your tolerance is through the roof, you want to feel high again, so one time couldn't hurt. Then just weekends. Then Fridays too, which of course means Thursday nights. But hey, you'll never shoot in your neck, just your arms, so you're different. Right? You see the point. You never think it's going to be you until it's you.
>>84757301You probably have never been called sir on /r9k/ so here. Congratulations on your sobriety sir
>>84757318You are correct I have not and I appreciate that. Thank you much, anon.
>>84757301Been an ED doctor for a year or so and I've seen a person at every stage you've described.
>>84756646I had a seizure and nearly died trying to cold turkey off benzos, now I predominantly use heroin and drink on the days in-between. I'll die an addict. hopefully soon.
