how do i cope with being a 25 year old virgin? it's getting to the point where i feel too embarrassed to interact with people even if they'd realistically have no idea i'm a virgin
>>84759548he never teaches another class ever again and it loses all value after
>>84759554thank u local schizo
>>84759548hi romaniancel, whats up. haven't seen you in a while
>>84759633same old story, i'm lonely and sad and have no friends or gf
>>84759647hey romanianbro! don't say that, you got me! whats up!we haven't talked in ages man whats new with you, i believe in you!
>>84759757i do appreciate it dude
>>84759548you blocked me months ago ;_;did i creep you out or something by being too forward?
>>84759548you don't have to cope with being a virgin. You have to cope with your own embarrassment.
>>84760885i genuinely never blocked anyone in my entire time on this earth. are you confusing me with another guy or did someone else pretend to be me? what's the story?>>84760888it's hard to even watch movies nowadays because a lot of them are centered around romance and the bonds between people. and i'm not bitter or anything seeing the characters in the movie have those things, but it makes me feel hollow, like an alien, knowing my life is so far removed from what i'm seeing in the movie
Lol at sex: how the fuck one can do that it's so fucking primitive baka. Some fucking weird frictional movements back and forth made with a piece of meat that sticks out that you pee with and putting it in a gross female crack coated with some gross slime, ffs, on top of that some positions, toys, vibrators, cuffs, foreplay, it's all a fucking cabaret and then all these silly motions in the vagina, exchanging some bullshit fluids, eating ass etc. On top of that some people fucking smell down there and during the erection that fucking magical fluid seeps out and immediately you don't want to fuck anymore, you are thinking what the fuck have you done, also some fucking cuddling ffs, stupid fucking human instincts you see a naked person of another gender and immediately that meaty wee-wee between your legs rises up it's so funny ffs why don't people reproduce asexually?The real pleasures are studying, listening to music, reading books, traveling, not some fucking plebeian instincts such as fucking, drinking and getting high ffs, sex does not look like in the American porn videos but rather like the primitive recordings from Poland and Russia where a flat-assed Karen with tits with nips which take 90% of the tits' surface fucks some DYEL chav who cums after a couple minutes and in the background you have some old furniture from the socialism era, some chavvy blanket and an old rug, well superb romantic atmosphere, bitch! That's what it looks like in 90% cases, when I'm trying to imagine myself from 3rd person perspective I fucking can't- if I thought of it during fucking I would have shat myself laughing.fuck people
>>84760936wait i might have unfriended you by accident x.xwe talked about SRMTHG, you called my picture 'badass' and said you thought it was a medival painting at firsti tried talking to you a few days later but you were unfriended so i assumed i creeped you out or something x.x
>>84761009see, if a femanon doesn't save me soon by taking pity on me and taking my virginity, i fear i might turn into this guy >>84761024OH, if we talked about SRMTHFG then it was definitely me. for some reason i don't remember the interaction at all though. i wonder what happened. you definitely didn't creep me out because pretty much nothing creeps me out. either way, add me again if you wanna talk about cartoons, my tag is firsthikki
>>84761024oh nevermind, i remember now. you were coming onto me way too strongly despite explicitly telling you i'm not gay and am not interested in doing any gay stuff ever.
>>84761114I wasn't trying to do anything gay with you but looking back i can see why it looks that way x.xsorry if I made you uncomfortable
>>84761114gah this is eating away at me, sorry for the 2nd response in a row. I won't hassle you anymore after this.There aren't many people around with your brand of cheeriness. Your appreciation for the innocent, safe comfort and for happy fun is something that should be cherished. You have a good heart and likely are a good friend.If I came on too strong, it was out of desire to have a friend like you. Not in hopes of anything beyond someone to play videogames or watch cartoons with, though in fairness knowing /r9k/ it's wise for you to be on the safe side.Please don't take any of this as cajoling or flirting, this is sincere.Sorry to have made you uncomfortable.Guess we won't be speaking anymore as it would make things awkward xPI'll stop now.
>>84761225>>84761519it's fine, it's just, you were clearly coming onto me and i wanted to cut things off quickly because getting attached to me in any way would only serve to break your heart since i'm not attracted to guys.
at the risk of sounding dramatic, often times i feel like my mere existence is antithetical to that of women. i'm convinced even the most sleazy, hardcore incels on modern day /r9k/ at least have one or two female friends they can talk to. even if they're not dating, they at least have some sort of female presence in their lives. i never had anything like that. whether online or IRL, women avoid me like the plague or at best don't even acknowledge my existence or recognize me as a man. i'm really perplexed as to how to fix that. getting in shape wasn't enough i guess. it's not even like my hobbies are girl-repellents or anything. girls love horror stuff and i love horror stuff too. girls like shoujo series, and i also enjoy my fair share of shoujo. i genuinely don't know what i can do or change to make myself appealing to women. even single moms don't want me to betabux for them. nobody wants to settle for me, no matter how unfortunate or ran through they may be. i genuinely think i'm the only actual incel on this board and everyone else is a volcel who's ridiculously picky like Elliot Rodger was. you guys should see what it's like to not have any options at all.
i miss my grandma. she was the only person in this entire world (8.3 billion people) who ever cared about me. i still remember the moment she died i got hit with this sense of existential dread, thinking "no one from this moment onward until the day i die is ever going to care about me like this again" she was always kind to me, always listened to me, never judged me, and she really believed that i could achieve my dreams. she encouraged me to live my life the way i wanted to instead of abiding to societal norms. she hated communism despite growing up during the height of the communist regime and was aware of how much damage it did to people's sense of individuality. even if i will continue to meet people i can call acquaintances throughout the course of my life, that will never fill the void. i'll never be able to open up around those people or think of them as family. they'll be just randoms i'm on friendly terms with for whatever reason. a shallow connection like that is worthless to me, i'd rather be alone. i wish i could be that close with someone again.
>>84759548idk but I'm in my 30s as a KHHV and I think I'm going to end it
>>84764163the older i get, the more disconnected from other people i feel so i can't even imagine what it's like in your 30s. going on dates, kissing, having sex with a person you love, even just enjoying each other's presence... all of those are such foundational aspects of life that everyone needs to truly be happy in my opinion. people on here will cry sour grapes and be like "just immerse yourself in your hobbies and be a based hermit bro!!!" but i tell you as someone who's been doing this all his life and has had a bajillion hobbies (from gym, to playing guitar, to writing stories, to consumerist things like tv shows, games, movies etc.) that NOTHING ever fills the void you feel in the absence of being loved, desired and accepted by a woman. i'm not telling you all this to be pessimistic or to blackpill you, but rather to reassure you that your feelings are completely natural and understandable, and you're not alone in feeling the way you do as a KHHV. i don't have a good counter argument to ending it since i'm quite suicidal myself and the only reason i'm still around is because i live in a place where i don't have access to guns. but it's funny to think that if a girl put in the minimum amount of effort into loving us, then she could quite literally save our lives but naturally there's no incentive for a girl to do any of this.
>>84759548It is normal. I would not start panicking for another 20 years or more. My father was a KHHV until his 40s. He lost the KHH by 49 and by 59, the V. I am younger than you, but still the same. I just remember this every day.>>84764040I still care about you bro.P.S: OP, watch Gokudo.
>>84764531i'm not panicking, i just feel lonely and aimless and empty. my hobbies feel worthless and they don't fill the void. i just wanna hug and kiss and cum inside a girl. >I still care about you bro.you don't know me or anything about who i am as a person besides what i post here. i don't want to seem rude when i say i can't accept those empty platitudes. >P.S: OP, watch Gokudo.i have back when i was in middle school. i enjoyed it but i never read the original novel i was adapted from. i wonder if it goes further than the anime.
>>84764583>lonely and aimless and empty>hobbies feel worthlessMe too. I would like to help you the best I can, but I doubt that I am of much use. I have no friends IRL, so I spend all my time on-line for social connections.This might be outof the blue, but do you have any means of contact, like Telegram? It is fine if you are unwilling to give it out.>I have back when I was in middle schoolNaturally. You and I are one of the same. What about picrel? I used to check this out from the library a lot.Sorry for the delay, parents asked if I will ever get a gf.
>>84759548I've seen true husks on this board, those niggers need real help, you on the other hand are nothing close to that you fucking poser retard
>>84764684>This might be outof the blue, but do you have any means of contact, like Telegram?i only have a discord tag if that's of any use to you, it's firsthikki >What about picrel? I used to check this out from the library a lot.i've only ever seen a few episodes while researching occult related anime for a personal project a while ago. it was fun! reminded me of Ghost Sweeper Mikami >>84764708well... excuse me for being cool and charismatic even at my worst *flips hair* i just caaan't help it~
>>84764739Look for Mad Bull 34.It seems that we watch much of the same series. I am not sure if you use the Miki bot on Discord, but I wishlisted Mikami and just received her about 20 minutes ago.
>>84761052>see, if a femanon doesn't save me soon by taking pity on me and taking my virginity, i fear i might turn into this guyThat guy was able to articulate what gives him pleasure and what doesn't. Perhaps you would have greater success in achieving your goals if you had that same level of introspection.
>>84764968what do you want me to articulate? having lots of sex would give me lots of pleasure. it's not rocket science
>>84760831how are you man! you stopped responding to me on discord which kinda sucks.hopefully you can find a girlfriend! i believe in you man.
>>84765007i do apologize. i've been in a horrible mental state and i tend to shut myself off from other people when this happens. i've been dealing with psychosis too which hasn't been fun and whenever it happens it's like i black out and lose track of time until it washes over me, like some Jekyll and Hyde thing. i also just feel embarrassed talking to people because i feel like such an incomplete person
>>84765058thats fair, well im always here if you need someone to talk to! just shoot me a dm man. hopefully you can feel better soon!
>>84759548>even if they'd realistically have no idea i'm a virginoh but dude, we can ALWAYS tell, just by the way you move
>>84764228As a man, you need to take what you want in life. Right now you are asking for it.
>>84765145*kills self*>>84765215you're right, i'll go violently rape, murder and then cannibalize the first woman i see on the street. wish me luck!
>>84765304Women ask. You ask. You're a woman. Women don't want women.
>>84765347that is why i must rapemaxx to the extreme! thank you for opening my eyes father
