>>84760532
if you didn't start early, it just feels completely wrong. i felt like i didn't belong in the situation i was in.

>>84760532
first experience with escorts is often that, next time going to brothels is much better

>>84760563
that might be it, I just felt fucking weird and gross
she was into it, unless she was faking, and I still was really uncomfortable the whole time

>>84760585
she wasn't an escort weird projection

yeah sex is massively overrated and its shilling is to promote conformity
"just have sex incel!" is really "change yourself to a woman's standards or else you are a social reject!" which is all a lie because whores will fuck a murderer or child rapist if they are hot enough

what exactly did you not like about it? from what i understand it can pretty much go either way. if you're a woman there is a greater chance it's not that great

>>84760628
whatever first time is always trash

>>84760635
I mean sex is the whole point of evolution
in the end the goal of a species is to have babies
our brains, theoretically, should be attuned to doing what we can to have sex and convincing others to help the "tribe" survive
I'm not an expert though

>>84760652
I kept thinking about what I looked like or if I was making her uncomfortable
she also kept asking me to stop and every time that happened I got into my head

>>84760532
im planning to avoid sex my entire life. Will mostly be easy

>>84760532
Is it that bad? I'm really scared I'll hate it, so I never made an effort to try? Can you say how it felt and what was bad about it?
I feel like I'd feel kinda dirty after and like my privacy was gone ot something, and just icky overall...is that anywhere close to whats its really like?

>>84760532
I had sex at 20 and it felt extremely natural and comforting, but I haven't had sex since despite being in my early thirties.
Weird how we all have different experiences and reactions to the same stuff, huh?

>>84760803
>Can you say how it felt and what was bad about it?
I just spent the whole time thinking about if I looked weird or if I was doing it right
she obviously had sex multiple times before since she was very energetic and knew how to tell me what she wanted
I just couldn't stop thinking about what my body probably looked like, how she's the only person who's seen my body like this, how demeaning it was to just hold on an hump
just weird

>>84760810
to the point of >>84760563
it could just be that I'm old and attuned to being alone without intimacy

>>84760860
>I just couldn't stop thinking about what my body probably looked like, how she's the only person who's seen my body like this, how demeaning it was to just hold on an hump
>just weird
thanks i now have an entire new set of insecurities to contend with

>>84760899
yeah lmao
you don't really think about being naked until you're actually naked and she's looking at you
if I could have gotten away with sticking my dick through my pants I would have

>>84760788
>I kept thinking about what I looked like or if I was making her uncomfortable
>she also kept asking me to stop and every time that happened I got into my head
wow she must think highly of you anon

>>84760927
She was probably telling him to stop because he was fucking her too hard or was hitting her at a bad angle. Not some weird "ew you're gross, sit there and think about it" thing.

>>84761102
if that's the case then I feel a little better because at least is was just because I'm not good at sex lol