Wasting my 20s being a NEET and rotting my soul. Coping with porn because of isolation and mental illness is only making me more disgusting and in turn i lose more and more of my ability to act normal. I used to mask so seamlessly but after going to a party i was invited to by old classmates i realize i'm just doomed. You can say it's my own fault but i never asked to be autistic while life flows naturally for everyone else. I could get a job with a livable wage here and a girlfriend as well but what's the point when every single normal action is an insurmountable task and i will at most be liked for my looks. Nothing about my real self will ever be liked by anyone, and no job will ever be liked by me.
nobody can tell you the truth you just feel that you are doomed from a little socializing and discomfort
>>84782572i realize my rant-vent is not that comprehensible but my point was more that i can't accept the nature of interactions rather than me being unable to interact with others, and i also can't cope and insert myself into normie-slop because i'm not a good person anyway
>>84782603there's lots to realize as a non normie it can be rewarding in it's own right many incels go on about their realizations endlessly like a psychological torture in their brain
>>84782616you clearly don't understand what i'm saying at all. Knowing that other people would find me disgusting if they knew everything about me is what makes normie interactions way too bitter. And also i'm not an incel, in fact i probably mog you but thats besides the point.
>>84782657there's nothing wrong with having your own cool private world. I wasted my late 20s and 30s in a similar way, then got a degree and a good paying normie job. Sure, I'm the quiet office sperg, but I get my work done and am respectful to people. I like how people are shocked whenever I give a 10/10 presentation despite my 1/10 daily social interactions.
>>84782550When did I type this?In all seriousness, do something before it's too late. You are in your 20s still. Time is running out, but don't be like me. the isolation WILL drive you insane, you will cease to enjoy anything, even your vices (porn, drink, etc).Get that shit wagie job. Fuck that bpdemon 18yr old that works there. Hell, smoke crack, pay hookers. Do anything but rot. Find something that interests you and just do it.The isolation got so bad, I feel like I was in a coma the past several years and just woke up. I have no idea how to interact with the world now. Don't be like me
>>84782769>I like how people are shocked whenever I give a 10/10 presentation despite my 1/10 daily social interactions.this is very relatable, i'm the same way, it's easy to perform for regular people when needed, but it brings me no joy.>>84782777you're right, but it's just destined to be when any kind of work is literal torture. I can't explain it without sounding like an edgy retard or lazy bum (which i might just be) but any kind of work just makes me feel like i'm in actual chains being forced to stare at paint dry. I can't do it
>>84782810>any kind of work just makes me feel like i'm in actual chainsoh I understand. Believe me, everything you've been saying is me, half a decade ago. But that's why I'm telling you, it can and will get worse.I don't pretend to have the answers, just not to be like me
>>84782550Me wasting my life because of a little anxiety and internet addiction.
