i fucking hate my life, im such a boring person and nobody wants to be my friends, here i go thinking that maybe if i befriend the loner i could maybe have a friend but once her life gets better and she finds a new friend group she straight up ditches me like nothing and then participates in mocking me saying "its just humour bro" not even social rejects want to be friend im just some fucking filler whos there until someone better comes along, im never gonna experience any of this man, this is fucking delirious i hate this, God just kill me already, why did he have to make me so boring, its humiliation to talk about any of your hobbies or interests for five minutes just for the other person to be visibly bored and uninterested, just a waste of time i should just go into social isolation, this is just a humiliation ritual , i dont know if its my fault or theirs, i dont try to be too nice or too mean. i think i should just accept it that im a fucking loser and get away from people, they piss me off anyway
