Is it possible to go back to controlled drinking after becoming a committed alcoholic? I did it for a few years, not understanding that I had a problem and that I was on a train that wasn't going to stop for a long time. It was the only way I could cope with an extreme situation at the time, but it made everything many times worse when it finally caught up with me. The withdrawal was unreal--not just the physical effects, but the mental effects including hallucinations, delusions, disorganized thoughts, states of 10/10 anxiety that lasted weeks, and more. I'm doing much better now, but I still find myself going back to it. I want to feel like I have agency and that I can control myself. Being unable to have a drink or two like I could as a kid is depressing, and I'm never going to socialize again in public settings if I can't sip a cocktail without ending up in jail or doing things I regret. I seem to be able to control myself unless I drink too much too fast, but it's like I'm a soulless automaton if I cross that threshold.Also, where is the drugfeel thread?
>>84825275Drugfeel keeps dying because most regulars moved to discord
>>84825275Every alcoholic who does that fails.
>>84825540Is there a drugfeel discord? Really sad that rolling threads can't survive here anymore. This site is finally actually dying which is tucked up because I don't want this digital ID account system BULLSHIT
>>84825579>everyAll of them?
>>84825275Sorry, OP. You've created neural pathways in your brain related to your drinking. Every time you drink, youre picking up where you left off. The shitty part is with this is, you now experience something called kindling. You will get withdrawal symptoms from less and less alcohol, and the symptoms will become more severe.
>>84826130Yeah nobody has ever overcome addiction ever in the entire history of mankind.
>>84825275Take acid like the founder of Alcoholics Anonymous. Get some of that neuroplasticity. Use the drugs to destroy the drugs.
>>84826265True, that or heroic doses of shrooms
I need to pull an all nighter to fix my sleep. You think people will notice if I take 120mg of psuedoephedrine in the morning?
>>84826574Sudafed is for colds or allergies or something. Get some bronkaid.
>>84827109I don't have bronkaid, I have sudafed. It's poor man's adderall.
>>84827117Take half a 25 mg bronkaid and report back ITT about how it compares to Sudafed.
I think dry counties are a stupid idea. Also alcoholics anonymous is an evil cult.
>>84827284what the fuck even happens in AA. all they talked about in the meetings was how you need to attend meetings. i asked them what this weird circular worship logic was about and they told me i needed to stay in the meetings and get a mentor and thats when the real magic happens.
>>84826248They overcome it. But a lot of them are memeing retards who seriously just need to be put in a hospital and slowly weened off of it.
>>84827315It works if you work it. Pray to your god, make it up even if it's a doorknob. Surrender all power to your idol and accept you have no will or ability to change. Every day is hard because alcohol is the most powerful thing in existence second only to a doorknob. One drink is too many and two is never enough. Just do the steps, if it didn't work you didn't actually do the steps btw we are collecting donations now, please gib money we are multinational nonprofit and your goodwill helps people. Ignore the fact we are so incompetent that we lost our copyright trademark in because we forgot to file the paperwork.
>>84827284Alcoholics anonymous rehab and all that other shit is basically worshipping alcohol as your daddy ironically enough you're just saying whole heatedly to a demon "I can't quit".
>>84825275Do you remember me?From what I've researched, when reducing the dose of an anticonvulsant, it's recommended to reduce the dose by 25% every 1 or 2 weeks.I had been taking 500mg of valproate only at night since February. I wanted to stop using valproate on my own, so I did a gradual reduction. I spent 1 week taking 250mg of valproate during the day and 250mg at night. Then 1 week taking 250mg of valproate only during the day. And today will be my first day without valproate.I will use 250mg every other day for 1 week, then every two days for 1 week, and then every three days for 1 week.So far everything has gone well for me. I don't have epilepsy, I've only had 3 seizures in my entire life, all caused by minimal doses of bupropion. When I stopped taking bupropion, I never had seizures again (I didn't use bupropion for even a week), but even so, my genius neurologist thought it was a brilliant idea to prescribe valproate. Most doctors are incompetent, unscrupulous, and greedy. I hope I don't have any seizures due to the lack of valproate. In the worst-case scenario, I could be hit by a car or fall from a great height (I work with that), I don't believe someone like me would die from "abrupt" discontinuation, that doesn't scare me, my reduction was gradual, although not that gradual.
I've got to be social today and am going to use something for a boost. Haven't decided between pregabalin, coke or bumps of ket.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I9LHsqqzdWo&list=RDI9LHsqqzdWo&start_radio=1
>>84825843>This site is finally actually dying which is tucked up because I don't want this digital ID account system BULLSHITI feel like this is inevitable and I've been slowly weaning off the internet lately because of this. I fucking hate to do this and it sucks, but I see no other way. Probably gonna have to find some hobby groups, read books, play DnD like the boomer nerds used to do.
>>84829231I've reverted back to playing my jailbroken ps3 offline
>>84829231>>84829487I'm getting into smolnet and federated systems. But imageboards are an important part of the old Internet. I wonder if a federated imageboard system with a distributed client would work.
>>84825843If anyone has a drugfeel/r9k discord please invite me my email is drugsarebadmkay@tfwno.gf (real email)Just took 1.5 tabs of acid, usually 2 is too much for me so im trying a slightly lower dosepicrel is one of the tabs
>>84828665I start out most drug sessions by listening to this song
I think I've unlocked a hidden Cyborg/failed normalfag achievement by becoming The Drug Friend.I.ePeople in my life don't particularly care for me but if there's intoxication happening the first step seems to be asking "okay so anon is part of it obviously as long as we can get him home on time".I guess it's official that I'm a fun drunk. Or maybe just always available. Or both.
on 1600mg gabapentin and having some drinks, you would not believe the heavenly time im having right now bros also to any junkies in the audience; does pic related work? i want to snort rather than shoot the sub and i would rather not waste a pill
