share stories of when and why you gave up. i am formally giving up on all of mine as of now.
>>84832539I haven't given up yet but I'm so tired of doomscrolling and I really want to stop
>>84832539I wanted to be a pilot and fly for a living 7 years ago but COVID fucked up my lifeplan. I was gonna go into the military via a program in my uni to learn flight first or at least get military education benefits to pay for flight school later on. I ended up having to drop out of the program due COVID limiting the slots in who could advance through the program.So I just graduated uni normally and then got a stupid wageslave office job where I sit in a fluorescent lighted cubicle for 8 hours a day. I hate my life. And the worst part is I am 25 now, too old to fly, and watching some of my peers and friends now fly commercially and make way more money than me, work way less. They have gfs and wives too.Fuck this gay life man.
I finished university and I loved my field and was lined up for a job by I moved to a different country for my relationship and now I cannot find work here even though I fluent in the language. The job market is bad and being foreign doesnt help. I am stuck as a house wife (with no weird trad bullshit) I just spend every day waiting for my husband to get home and sleep in until 11am. I can be doing so much more.
>>84832554me too, i fucking hate the internet. 4chan is the only place left that isnt totally raped by algorithms and even here is just the same thing over and over
>>84832539Nope we're just warming up Jack WAGMI
>>84832539I had a dream of being a professional wrestler and wanted to go to a wrestling school in Missouri. My step-dad said "It's not gonna happen, pal." And then he laughed. Still hurts and pisses me off when I think about it. Every few years I'll remember and I'll be steaming mad and I'll want to find him and beat the fucking shit out of him. Even though he was right, that I realistically had zero percent chance of being a WWE superstar, laughing in my 10 year old face was fucking cruel.
>>84832539>dreams>when and whyi never had dreams man, all i wanted to do was play WoW all day. then my "passion" (more like addiction) faded. then I just decided I wanted to just make a bunch of money and do who knows what, and of course now i'm broke .
>>84832539I'll never give up on my dreams. I've had to put them on the backburner though, as they are unrealistic, but whether it takes me 10 years or 20, i want to make at least part of my income from art, and eventually I will. What are your dreams like? Do you really have to give up on them? Can't they wait for you, just until you're financially safe enough to pursue them?
>>84833446i'm sorry bro, your step dad was genuinely a short sighted, sadistic nigger faggot for that. He was only right in the sense that your dream was unrealistic, but it was far from unachievable, and even if you didn't make it into the top 0.01 percent of people who become superstars in the wwe, if he had encouraged you, you might've tried your best and achieved a similar, though lesser dream, and there's nothing wrong with that. Like, right now you could have a youtube channel with some odd 100k subs where you and your friends host your own wrestling league, or do wrestling skits on social media. It's not the same, it probably wouldn't be a full time living, but it could've been partial income doing something you love, and bonding with people you care about, and that's ALWAYS worth it. Honestly, you could still do something like that.
>>84832539Gave up on the idea/hope of living and working in Japan (starting off as an English teacher) after rejections, rejections, and more rejections despite having all of the prerequisite education and clerical/cultural experience they claim they need in a candidate. Everyone I met in university with the intention of doing so got the opportunity (a few more opportunities than others), but not me; they just didn't want me, and I've learned to just cope with being stuck in this warehouse. Never really allowed to have dreams growing up; my parents had their own idea as to what I'd be doing post-high school. When that didn't quite work out, our relationship became unbelievably strained over the years which culminated in me practically being kicked out of the house to live on my own (overdue anyway) and just recently, they divorced.>fuck Japan>fuck the parents>fuck the military>Korea's okay, but they're on thin ice
my dreams:getting a physics degreebecoming a 10/10 sissy bitch (straight still)for the first im still considering but AI makes it pointless for the second im still considering but its feeling kind of like its not for me
i have no idea why i gave up
>>84832539I wanted to work for NASA as an engineer and help them design spacecraft, but I was kind of dumb and really bad a math. I was weird like that. Most kids my age growing up wanted to be celebrities, star atheletes or they had humble gay dreams like starting a family or some shit. Not me, I wanted to be some super nerd working for NASA....would tell my teachers, my parents and anyone else who listened that was dream. I officially gave up on that shit when my mom died and my entire family started falling apart. Dad blew through all of our money and became a violent drunk and kicked me out of the house at 18. But I still persisted. Enrolled into my state's university as a Mech Engineer filled with excite and hope for the futurre. But then slowly began to realize how outclassed I was and that I did NOT belong in higher academics. Ended up dropping out with a 1.2 GPA, and a decent amount of student loan debt. DIdn't have a mom and dad to fall back on so I had to work a bunch of shitty odd jobs here and there. Ofically gave up on my dream after about 2 yrs of dropping out. I dont find joy in anything any more and have turned into a huge asshole as a result.Only reason why I haven't killed myself yet is because not im also coward lol. Planned out and contemplated a mass shooting a few times just to get back at the world as my final "fuck you" but I pussied out of that as well.
>>84834290hey, it's not the world's fault that the cost of education is artificially inflated. Just a very small number of people. That's not important though, I still think you can make it in life. Life is full of ups and downs dude, i'm sorry you got raped so hard, but I think you can still make it. Don't make the same mistake of jumping into school and losing a bunch of money though, but there are some jobs that are much higher % than others. Look for a high % job (by high percentage I mean relatively easy to obtain, but still high paying. Like some trade jobs are like this where you don't need that much school and it's not that expensive) and then try studying/self teaching it, see if it seems so incomprehensibly hard that you can't do it, like engineering. You might not be smart enough for engineering, but maybe you're smart enough that you can comprehend electric work, or plumbing.
>>84834345yeah, I know. Its just that I was so pissed off at everything and everyone for being dealt a shitty hand.Like, I couldnt just get an easy ride like everyone else did nope.I had to be a Low IQ, broke autist with a retarded family.>You might not be smart enough for engineering, but maybe you're smart enough that you can comprehend electric work, or plumbing.No dude. You legit don't understand- I flunked basic College Algebra like three times. I never had what it took to become an engineer. I had a "come to Jesus" moment back when my bank account was overdrafted and I was 2 months behind on rent, senting in my dark apartment waiting to be evicted when I realize I just can't be bothered care about anything else. I've tried teaching myself how to code but it just wouldnt stick then AI came along and destroyed any motivation I had left for that. Tried learning a trade and couldn't adapt to jock politics on worrk sites. I just can't learn shit I dont care about and Im done trying any more. I had convinced myself at an early age that I was going to work on cool projects and aircraft like the SR-71 Blackbird and make tons of money for it and live a happy life. But nah, fuck that. My mom just had to die at 25 yrs old and I had to have a learning disability lol. . I'm trying to get on welfare and just live off that for the rest of my life like Asmongold did before he got famous.
>>84834411what learning disability do you have? is it just straight lower iq? also it sounds like you failed in the trades not because you were too dumb, but because the politics were gay, retarded, and annoying. different problem.I'm sorry though. It does sound like life is just rape for you. You really did give it a pretty fair shot, too. There might be something you're talented in out there, though. Or some coping mechanism or studying techhnique that you can use to be able to study like anyone else. Good luck man.
>>84834476Yeah, im just pretty dumb. I have no idea what happened, I made pretty good grades in school up until I went to college. I guess all that means is that my HS was a joke, and that I wasn't as smart as I thought I was.Got into the real world and was getting mogged mentally by all of my peers. Couldn't do mental math, was constantly forgetting stuff, couldn't learn anything, and apparently according to my coworkers I even just "sounded" dumb (spoke with a certain cadence that made me sound dopey/slow)It completely shattered my ego, but I've come to terms with my low intelligence, but now the way I see it, society shouldn't really expect much out of me as a result. I'm just going to be a welfare queen and let all the real motivators and geniuses handle things while I live off their tax money lol. Many may disagree, but honestly I feel like ive earned it.
>>84832539I would say i never really gave up on my hopes or dreams, i never developed them in the first place. I have been severely mentally ill from birth, which locked me out of... pretty much almost all aspects of life. I couldn't make friends, i couldn't love or establish a relationship with my Mom, i couldn't do good at school or really learn anything much, hard to focus with constant sensory pain and seizures from exposure and also being bullied.Even before all the bad things, Mom leaving Dad because of me, the rape, the diagnosis and being put on disability, just everything, even as a 1 digit years old kid, i kinda just knew or noticed subconciously that i was absolutely fucked, and i had almost no hopes and dreams to begin with. They just didn't form, because i spent most of my time being fryed out, or having some kind of a problem. I just knew inside that i was fucked from how fucked my daily existence was.And well, being put on long term disability just really made it obvious that i was right. And well right now my hopes and dreams are to just be a better daughter to my Dad, and stop having the unhealthy feelings i have towards him, because it will only hurt him. But, i had those for years, and for years i failed to push them away or get rid of them, so probably giving up on that too somewhere down the line.
>>84834743>Mom leaving Dad because of me, the rape>right now my hopes and dreams are to just be a better daughter to my Dad, and stop having the unhealthy feelings i have towards him,Are you saying what I think you're saying?
>>84834758I'm very damaged, i'm on disability because of being mentally ill, and right now i'm also unmedicated because it's not my time to take the brainfryers yet, so i'm probably saying a lot of cancer right now, but in general yes i'm a fucking trainwreck.But Mom leaving was a separate thing. My Dad and Mom were highschool love marriage, and had me very early. I have extremely severe neurotic SPD, which basically made it impossible for me to develop love for her, i also can't handle human touch, speech, presence or contact, with my Dad being literally the only exception (this is common, explained my psychiatrist on diagnosis). Basically my Mom was a bitch who insisted i was fine and barred me from getting any therapy, and then when i was 12 she was like "ok you know what? I'm tired of wasting my life with this shit child, i'm leaving to enjoy what's left of my youth". And she fucked off. Assraped my Dad in the divorce too, he had to sell his family house he inherited, and we moved into a 2 room apartment where we live now. I honestly like it more than the house, but i miss having a bathtub, i hate showering. But yeah, Dad was depressed as shit, basically matching me for a while. Fucking cunt my Mom is i tell you that.>Unhealthy feelingsYeah sure i'm not gonna dance around the issue, i'm in love with my Dad and i want him to fuck me and make me his new wife, in short. But also, i don't want this, because i know it would probably just hurt him if i told him this, and he is basically my only human contact and interaction, since i can't have a boyfriend, or friends, or anything, and i'm a NEET hermit stuck in my room collecting disability checks. He is a good fucking Dad, the best fucking Dad in the world, so i know he would never probably want this with me anyway, so hurting him and nuking our relationship by telling him this stuff is not worth it. Yeah i know i basically fucked up his whole life by existing, and now he has no one but me. Funny huh?
>>84834819I don't even know what to say, other than that I sincerely hope you can find some happiness and fulfilment in this world because I think you deserve it, you aren't a bad person for feeling this way, some people are just severely disadvantaged from the start. I wish I could give you a big hug and be your friend.
>>84832609Yea, get pregnant
>>84834506I read all of your posts and I'm in the same position as you. It's good that you accepted it, and reading this gives me hope as I still haven't come to terms with my low IQ. It's gotten to the point where I can't really enjoy anything without associating it with intelligence, I'm referring even to the most mundane thing. Most days I feel down and suicidal. Could you give a fren some advice? Anything that helps you get by
>>84835043Thank you, id love a friend, but i tried before with discord and stuff, and my defect brain just can't build those relationships, and id love a hug in theory, in reality would be inhumanly painful. You can probably imagine now how the unhealthy feelings develop when my Dad is the only person whos touch isn't pure torture, and him being the only person towards whom i can feel love or anything really. Basically impossible to get out there and do anything with anyone else. Let alone thinking about something like sex. Worst torture you can imagine, i still get shivers just thinking back about the absolute pain. Really thought i was just going to die. CIA with their waterboarding got nothing on that shit.
