We need to stop Necrozma

- Ultra Sun

>>84843352
Today will be a good day note to self

I can't say anything else but thank you. Thank you so much ;_; You're a real G, as my n-words would say.

Make sure to stay hydrated if you're going to drink like that. Hope you slept well, and your throat feels better. <3

One of those days where you wake up hard as hell, and it persists entirely while you get ready for the day. Fun.

This will be my last time asking nicely. Do not message, @, or post about my girl. It's rude and inconsiderate. Don't even save her pics lowkirkenuinly. Stay blessed.

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I in fact still miss Wren

A,
I should have said hi to you yesterday. I couldn't even look at you. You were right in front of me. Im afraid of saying the wrong thing to you or making me mad. Did you want me to talk to you? I almost threw away the souvenir pin you gave me from your country. I dug it out of my the garbage bin at my desk before the janitors got to our office. I am going to ask you to have lunch with me next week. So we can reconcile. Youre right there. I can walk over to you, text you, or dm you. I miss you so much that it's starting to really hurt.
- b

>>84843352
let me fold you in half and fuck you silly already dumbass

I hope I won't live till 23

>>84845270
Just her or him that already. Call her or him.

I didn't want to tell but I had a dream about you recently. Don't get too excited nothing happened. I think we only talked about something silly.

Today isn't a bad day, so why do I feel like shit?

I wish you would of said something then and there. I wouldn't of gotten upset. I would of shown you whatever you needed to see to clear it up. We had discussed it before. I don't know when you stopped caring, or why. I can see why that line of thinking would facilitate those kind of thoughts. It's a reoccuring thing. I'm never trying to hide anything from you. I'm never with anyone else or trying to do that. It's always you. I'm sorry I got mad the first time way back when. I just kept getting accused of things I wasn't doing, and it is both frustrating, and heart breaking. I hate to see you struggle with that, and the thought of actually doing that makes me want to vomit. I also didn't fully understand all that went into that mentality. The attention and time I give is always to you. The money I spend only involves you. My future always included you with it. There is never anyone else. It always you. Always will be. You ask me if I'm seeing or talking to anyone. It's always no. For me there is no other choice. It is clear as day for me. I never mind you asking. Just ask. It's always okay. I will always be honest with you.

I don't know if it's something you can ever feel is true. I'm always willing to try. Whatever it takes. I am madly in love with you. I always want you. I wish so badly you would give me what you give her. I would never give up on us. Or ever have regret being with you. You would never feel like a ghost. If I'm coming off angry it's not how I truly feel about you or even directed at you. If we communicate we can work through anything. I just hate it is like this.

>>84847092
>would of
Man, fuck off.

>>84847232
Sure. I guess I just wish I knew what it was that she gave you that I don't. I hope things get better for you and her. There's been so many times where we get to a point where we stop talking, but we always go back so it makes it a lot more difficult just to let go. Are you just done because of the stress of the situation of being in survival mode? Is it really because of us? I'm sorry. You don't have to feel obligated to answer. If you feel that way, and there's nothing I can do about it then all I can do is make do. What else can I do? I guess I don't really understand what "this is about". You say we're not compatable, but I felt the complete opposite. I felt we were tied to each other stronger than anything I've felt before.

>>84847092
These are my words and perspective.
-Sun

Ignore larp posts from sun. It's just Colton trying to manipulate Maria and make Mike look bad

>>84847597
No it's really me. My words can't be stolen from these lips that desperately await hers.
- Sun

Colton's cock also awaits her lips

>>84847627
you're mike? I thought he was banned. you're a liar. you're obviously colton trying to manipulate maria.

>>84843352
My letter is H

>>84847506
Sent you an email response. The content matter was a little too personal even for our standards. Hope that's not offensive. No need to reply to it if you'd rather not. Just assumed that was the right call.

>>84846313
Unsure if this is you but I dreamt about you too. We spoke about something but I couldn't tell you what it was

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LOL this bitch is dropping this loser and also publicly humiliating them. Now THIS is what these threads were made for.

There's no need for email just put it here and let us see it

Today's letter thread theme.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=TSKizLRFbTo&pp=ygULbmVnYXRpdmUgeHA%3D

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OH FUCK YES
They're really going for it

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Dumb, mentally ill shitter bitches on the verge of "suicide" deserve being raped. He literally did nothing wrong

>>84847950
I can see where you're coming from. In hindsight that was beyond shitty. Not to argue, but just elaborate what was going through my head to give you an understanding. When we woke up next to each other you were smiling, and grabbing at me. We kissed, and felt each other up. I genuinely thought you were receptive to that due to how you were presenting which was different from the day before. I took that as you were starting to feel better, and wanted some intimacy. I happily obliged, and it escalated as these things do with us to sex. You initiating via touch is what made me think that was okay, and not saying anything to the contrary. We love having sex with each other. It's an increadibly intimate thing. I thought it was something you desired, and would make you feel better. We have insane chemistry. Historically. I mean even when you give me the business in "public" we can't even deny that we are insatiable for each other. We love that. That's where my head space was in that moment.

When you asked me to rape you. I took that as you needed some intimacy that was directed to give you something raw to address how you were feeling. To me, that made sense. Again, I obliged. I got into that head space, and did what you've asked me to do to you multiple times. No problem. I did not realize this was a self-harm attempt. I thought this was something you genuinely desired based off prior interactions. That's on me.

You being "unresponsive" is aligned with that kind of roleplay. Where you either "pretend" to be asleep. Or are frozen in fear. I did not view that as anything off because of how that presents in those moments.

I understand now I fumbled that royally. It was not because I don't care about you. It was because I didn't gauge that situation correctly, and I'm so sorry. I love you more than anything, and just thought you wanted to have some morning sex to start the day off right. I misjudged that completetly.

As for interrupting your plans. Good.

>That's on me
LOL at this simp

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Ever consider that your rape game was just too weak?

To add to that. I think it is beyond cruel to kill yourself after just moving back in with me where I was elated that we were about to start our life together. I was happier than I had ever been before. I was excited to watch movies together. Go shopping for good ingredients to cook recipes together. Bake bread together. Play all sorts of games together in which I rectify my stupid behavior about your cheating play style. Something that doesn't actually bother me I was just giving you shit for it in jest. I never meant to come off otherwise. I'm sorry for that. We were going to decorate for the holidays. Shit post together. Get you in better health. To be more independent. To never feel like a ghost in your own home. Work out together. Go for night drives together. Get some drinks, and go on dates together. I was doing all the things to get you settled in as soon as possible. I was absolutetly ecstatic, and you were going to kill yourself unannounced in the home we just started sharing. Ripping the love of my life away from me. Blindsiding me entirely. I knew you were struggling because of the changes, but I had no idea you were going to do something like that.

I would of been shortly behind you. Fuck that.

>>84848126
I think it might of been too strong. If you want to get rape technical. Really gotta hit the rape goldilocks zone. Rookie mistake on my end.

This shit is mad corny ngl

>>84848149
Too strong??? Dude, face reality. You're being dumped lmfao

>>84848137
>I would of been shortly behind you.
Trash always has a way of taking itself out

Dykebot why do you air such personal trauma here? You know they're going to use it against you later dummy.

>>84848174
The writers are shaking off some rust here, be patient . . .

>>84848163
I don't care about saving face. If it's only been twice then fine. I thought it was more than that. My apologies. Again. Not something I thought was ever an act of genuine self harm for you. Given our intimacy brushes the CNC line in a few ways. If I had known it was like that I would just have never done it. Not trying to justify things. I'm trying to communicate what my line of thinking was and why. That's all. Not meant to come off that way at all. I fucked up. I own that. I will learn from this, and I am beyond sorry.

>>84848175
Too strong isn't good either is what I'm getting at. Dork.

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you are most certainly NOT learning from this

>>84848232
I'm just a slow learner. Please understand..

>>84847890
Give me our secret pass phrase so I know it's you.

>>84848285
What you need to learn is not what you think you need to learn. How can you remedy a mistake when you aren't even aware of it?

>>84848451
Learning is either proactive, or reactive. In this case it's reactive. Not ideal. But, I'll take everything I can from it.

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>>84848475
Sure you will, champ. Sure you will...

>>84848350
Should have*

Hello, world

Dykebot living out her rape fetishes and bawwing about it. Hilarious thread.

>>84848163
>some pseudo-romantic nonsense might work for justifying your actions to yourself
Everything I do is for my moon.
-Sun

Nobody is responsible for Dykebitch's death spiral except herself. Nobody is responsible for her communicating besides herself. And on and on. Blaming others will get you nowhere. You're only spinning wheels.

Good thing The Narrator is here to wrap up the moral of the story huh

>>84848584
This eggless hag hamming it up with this retarded drama is so pathetic.

>>84848600
It's what we're for, innit?

>>84848604
She's just upset her step-dad never gave her a rape baby.

Fuck you, Grace, you lazy grifter. All you had to do was get any boring office job and we could've gotten married and bought a house.
You're not going to be a sugar baby in your mid 30s, dumbass.

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>>84848666
>666
Or a DEMON baby . . .

I know you think you're in love with me and being apart from me is killing you but trust me you'll get over it. Not even saying it'll be soon but you'll get over it.

More like limerance and unhealthy attachment, but feel free to call whatever it is you feel by any other name than the one it is. I'm sure it will serve you well

>>84848791
>>84848746
Why couldn't you just make a big paragraph about it and leave initials. He's gonna go on a rant

>>84848205
you're asking the self absorbed narcissist namefag who attention seeks on a website of which the main draw is anonymity and decentralization why she trauma dumps in the faggy letter thread, isn't it glaringly obvious? this retard and retards like her thrive on validation and attention, whether negative or positive, it doesn't matter, they just need eyes on them and people paying attention to them. this thread is unusable because of the online clique faggotry and insufferable personalities with delusions of grandeur.

Someone sounds big mad

>>84848555
God damn it I hate I laughed out loud at this. This fucking thread sometimes..

>>84848909
Not big mad weasely bully chan anon that's you.

for a board that supposedly comprises people who have taken le blackpill and can't come back from the other side of witnessing humanity's ills and pitfalls you'd think /r9k/ troons would be a bit wiser about the state of things and the people around them. you'd think exposure to the worst antisociality humanity has to offer by being some imageboard cum goblin who trawls through 4chan threads all day would make you quickly aware of human nature. "why does the attention whore retard post all her personal shit in here all day????" anon, come on. please.

>>84848940
Who are they bullying? Do you feel bullied?

ahahah anon feels bullied

>>84849011
>>84848983
You guys never change. Weasel

Obligatory GOTTEM post

>>84849106
Just go fold her in half and fuck her up the ass like you want to.

>>84848949
Retard, nobody's actually asking why this attention whoring cunt is here. That much is obvious. The need to even ask is rhetoric in and of itself. What we're asking is, why the FUCK is this cunt here?

The real mike will post his deformed penis in this thread to settle this dispute

>>84849129
Who in the absolute fuck are you even talking about, schizo???

I would rather have Mike spam than this trash.

>>84849356
>>84849106
>>84849023
>>84849011
Those anons and you probably. Also not a schizo, you dumbass jerk

wah i got consensually raped
wah

True. It really is everyone else and not us.

>>84849529
It was really fucking funny.

>>84849461
Whoa whoa wtf

>>84849461
that creates a paradox, now, doesn't it.. hm..

>>84849607
>>84849616
I actually took back consent in my head, and you didn't read my mind. Now you're pregnant, it's your fault, and you're keeping the baby. You should've paid closer attention to my delicate male feelings.

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She wasn't disappointed by the rape -- she was disappointed that you didn't do it until she had to tell you to do it (thereby giving consent and forfeiting the HOTNESS)

No wonder she left you

>>84849659
I'm not her, I'm saying I never said anything about rape, I was whinging about anons being circlejerk bullies. You're nuts!

>Getting called Frank
>Getting bullied for not raping hard enough
I'm going to fucking kill myself.

When will males learn that a woman doesn't want to have to manage you in the relationship all the time. It's pathetic. You're not a child. You shouldn't have to be told to do something, like being told to take out the trash or raping her into better healthier mental spaces. Jesus wake up

>>84849703
Don't do it. Stop it

>>84849733
I won't. But only because I literally have TWO philly cheese steaks in front of me.

>tfw you'll never play DND with Mike
Okay I'm killing myself now for real this time.

>>84849692
I'm not nuts, I'm anon.
>>84849703
You know you're in trouble when you can't rape as well as an impotent half-troon.
Me? I accidentally rape women, and they end up apologizing.

Strip DND with Mike

Mike bricked up in his sweatys and playing DND while sippin dr.perky.

>>84849752
It only works well for you

>>84849784
Hopefully he slipped something into mine, mmmhm

>>84849788
>Not poppin a perc 30 while sippin a dr.perky
NGMI

>>84849794
Do you think you can rape her better than the last retard? She's trying to find a more violent retarded rapist. The last one was too compassionate.
And don't try to evade the question with that CNC bullshit, Michael.
ARE YOU GONNA STEP UP TO THE PLATE AND RAPE HER OR NOT?

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>>84848350
Okay yeah sure whatever you say

>>84849807
Tub your brains next time and spare us lmao

>>84849807
this is all a larp dykey say it ain't so haha, say you didn't ask to be raped and now you're crying about it

>>84849807
Don't act like you're not giggling. Go have some beers and come back. Need another 8 minute vocaroo of me crying like a bitch?

INB4 only the moon can get raped by the sun

>>84849855
>tfw you'll never get to play a necromancer alongside MIke
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LIFE IS NOT FAIR AHHHHHHHHHH!!!

This is getting out of hand..

I'm your step daddy now. No Donner Donner (For (You)), Dykebot.

>>84849915
I don't want to get my hopes up man. I don't think my little heart could take it.

>>84847676
You have been radio silent this month too. H, I hope you are doing okay dude.

>>84849923
I'm shocked. Your gf who didn't even bother to tell me you were going to kill yourself in my bathroom until you mentioned it. The same gf that doesn't even bother to buy you water or food to where you write a long drawn out letter in the letter thread about it saying you feel like an after thought in your own home. To the point you get so dehydrated you enter psychosis, and get UTI's semi-regularly. The same gf that cheats on you over and over again. The same gf that never has sex with you since you've been together (7+ years). The same gf who has you living in squalor like a hoarder because she can't even bother to clean up after herself or at all period. The same gf that doesn't even talk to you about moving or getting a house at all who is also really good at communicating somehow. The same gf who cites taking you to doctor's appointments is a huge ask. The same gf that can't even organize your meds with you. The same gf who promises you over and over again she'll change but never does.

She doesn't like me? What a surprise.

>>84849978
It's vocaroo anon isn't it? Or is it doom again.

>>84850014
Thank you Michael. Much appreciated.

>>84849983
It's vocaroo anon!

>>84850087
It's not like he said anything mean/petty/vindictive you just sound like you have stockholm syndrome. Why can't you admit that your "gf" (or whatever TF I'm assuming they are) is a trainwreck and so are you?
Would make things a lot easier moving forward.

also lmao bitch please you invited some ugly whiny deformed potato looking faggot into your home to "rape" you, this is such a joke. There's no way you're actually crying about this, lol.

>>84850111
>whatever TF I'm assuming they are
This is definitely vocaroo anon.

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>>84850087
God damn how will that dude ever recover from this degree of burn?

>>84850087
It might be mean, but it's the truth. Which is why I said it. You say you won't ever talk to me again yet here you are. Doing the exact opposite of what you said you were going to do. Yet again. If you're going to move on then do so and be done with it.

>>84850111
>Would make things a lot easier moving forward.
Such things go against the spirit of /letter/, dearest Anon

>>84850149
Bitch, even I as a bystander that LIKES what he's hearing, I will tell you to put up or shut up

>>84850128
>This is definitely vocaroo anon.
Heh. Ya got me. I raped the bat dyke.

>>84850149
Why would I want to hear that you're choosing to be with someone who actively doesn't give a shit about you, or your health? To the point bugs and other insects breed in the house making you think you're a corpse due to your schizophrenia? I mean at this point it's not even about me or her, but just get the fuck out of that situation for your own sake man. Dislike me all you want. I can live with that, but just get to a better situation for god's sake.

>>84850152
You're making a lot of good points. I didn't internalize any of it, but, it looked pretty good.
>>84850155
OI SHTICK AND WEAVE GUV U TRYNA TRAP ME IN YEH EMOTIONAL RETARDATION OIL FOCKEN SHANK YE MAN OI WILL

She already got herself to a better situation. You're just mad about it and want to ruin the better relationship she chose to be in because you can't let her get away from you unharmed

Dearest M,
Im sorry about everything, I really am. I hope you can find it within yourself to forgive me if I have to stop talking to you again. It isnt because of anything you have done, its genuinely because of me and me not being able to control how I feel about you. I thought that I was over everything and during our time not talking I was but after getting closer I realise that I might not be. It isnt fair to you or my boyfriend, I feel incredibly guilty about everything.
I dont think you lurk in these threads so I doubt that you will see this.

>>84850209
Maybe just send him a message and stop leading another guy on like always

Dear M

The morning you told me you weren't into me, I should have raped you instead of walking down to the river and crying like a bitch

>teehee im drunk anon come over bring me drugs and snacks and rape me
>no how could you rape me

>>84850222
I would but I think doing that would be unfair. Admitting to someone that youre attracted to them and then saying you wouldnt leave the guy youre with for them seems cruel. Cutting down on contact seems like the best option.

During your cosmically short time on this Earth, take care to ensure you're learning the RIGHT lessons -- like raping a bitch when you had the chance. Never pass up an opportunity

Wise words from Ser Raj Gupta. Rape more, think less. Namaste.

>>84850237
I hope it works out for you. I really do. I know it won't. However, knowing you we'll hear about it eventually though. Except I won't feel vindicated. I'll just feel bad because you're in that situation to begin with. You talk about how the rape stuff was a form of self-harm for you. Do you not think this can't apply to clinging to your situation with her?

>>84850237
>she loves me.
Her love can't compare to the warmth I shine on you.
-Sun

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It's such a shame that true rapenlightenment will come to soo few and at such late ages . . .

>>84850258
Just tell him the truth, that you led him on because you wanted attention as always.

It feels vindicating as fuck watching a grass-is-greener ex get their commuppance. One of the top feels of all time

>>84850337
No it doesn't. Wtf is wrong with you.

>>84850314
Yeah she enriches you by forgetting to even purchase you groceries when she's out getting them. You're right. That's on you. You should of screamed more in the apartment to make your presence known. You can build up a lot of disabled people by not giving them water or food. Or bothering to organize their medications. You really need to put in more effort honestly.

>>84850351
Lmao stop lying to yourself. You have either never experienced such jubilation or you're lying about it to save the face

Oh damn, he's nearly on the CUSP of learning the real lesson here

>>84850374
I'm not saving face.

>>84850381
Oh yeah I forgot. If she even did have a moment of clarity where she remembered you existed she doesn't actually remember what you actually like as far a groceries go. Even when you tell her over and over again. She doesn't remember that you like the standard oreos versus the double stuffed. Or your triple zero oikos greek yogurt. Organic Bananas. raspberries, and blueberries to go with your homemade waffles with extra whipped cream. Lactose free milk. Salmon. Fresca. The stuff to make Ruebens, and ground turkey to mix with the beef so you don't get an upset stomach. A supply of standard pepto for your general stomach issues, or afrin (No drip night time) to help with you nose. I'm sure she's just so busy to where she wouldn't remember that after 7+ years of being with you. That's on you.

Mike so wants dykebot to rape him

>>84850518
baby I'll feed you a banana every day just say ahh and close your eyes and get ready for the banana flavor splash

>>84850523
So, is what I'm hearing true? That you and Dykebot are, in fact, e-dating?

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Lmao how desperate do you have to be in order to say "yeah but I memorized the food you liked" when your ex leaves you for someone better. Do you really have nothing else?

>>84850544
you know just what to say to turn me on baby, but quit playing, you know it's 1.5x that big ;)

>>84850552
I think that's sweet that he knows. He sounds better than the gf.

>>84850518
You've literally told me that it hurts that you're an after thought to her and cited that exact issue among many others. This is the post where you wrote about her and how she makes you feel.
https://desuarchive.org/r9k/thread/84670568/#84724882

I don't really see this conversation going anywhere, and I'm not even sure why you bothered to continue it for so long. It just sounds like desperate justification to cling to a terrible situation. Or stockholm syndrome like the other person mentioned. You made your decision. You won't hear from me anymore so no worries. Well, at least not directly. I'll still be around. Small board and all.

>>84850575
Wait, so if I'm a cuck according to you (since you're hooking up with every female in existence and that includes dykebot), that means dykebot is my girlfriend and she's cucking me? Why the fuck didn't I know we were dating, I could have just asked if she wanted a quickie rape shag real quick and have gone about my day.
Why didn't you tell me sooner?

>>84850603
You're not fooling me again. Nice try.

let's fucking go vocatroon you're so close to wooing yourself back into her pants like that last time

>>84850569
Yeah I think it's sweet too but I just wanna keep the drama going. The gf sounds like fucking trash

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>>84849784
Hey I got that reference!

>>84850653
I never looked to closely at the photo, but if there was a fucking dr. perky in that photo I would of screamed. I hope someone makes an edit with one in there. But like a really good edit.

>>84850660
You are dating both Mike, Doom, and Vocanon?

>>84850590
LOL you just linked a Colton larp post in that archive you retard

>>84850669
What tantrum? This is all in good fun man!

>>84850680
In Mike's world. We're all Colton.

>>84850670
Should have rhymed something with crocs, there's another angle from the bricked up incident that really shows off those bad boys

>>84850697
I'm really curious as to which one it is.

>Crocs on
>Sweatpants bricked
>Smart watch larger than wrist strapped up
Yep. Time to throw strays in the letter thread.

>>84850660
dykebot... you really think i'm frank? i'm sad now... why would you hurt me like this? i thought we had something special... and you go and get raped by some fat ugly faggot when you could be with a nice guy like me... why dykebot... oh, why... do you even know how many nights i've cried myself to sleep over you? omg dykebot ilysm pls. it's me frank. please make fun of me for pumping my dick and watching zoophilia porn and also wanting to watch black guys fuck my girlfriend. #justpaulsenthings

>>84850706
DICK PUMPED
SHELF CROOKED
SISSY LIGHTS ON

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>>84850697
Can I be next in line to rape you though? I promise I'll be gentler than the last guy. Or harder? What was the problem again? Either way, I'll rape you better than that fat faggot, babe. I tell ya, he doesn't have the stamina.

>>84850720
Geez Louise, it's that time of the month...

>>84850735
Hey TownBikeSlop tell us why you wanted to experience rape again

>>84850748
But you're not a virgin

The fact that the pocket in his sweatpants is just out for no discernible reason...deepest lore...

>>84850748
>im saving myself for my oneitis
You can't be saved from the Sun's light. My light will enter your deepest shadow.
-Sun

>>84850771
No one's reading all that cope, weirdo.

>>84850764
Mega cope. Giga grim.

>>84850748
So you can have a born again rape baby?
>>84850764
>Hymen Guy

>already doubleposting
he big mad

>>84847950
schadenfoid? is this curryfoid? the fillipino girl?

>>84847950
I'm not the anon your arguing with but I'mma respond for him bc I can tell you're both retarded

>This was mere hours after telling you I was going to kill myself
you do this all the fucking time, it's not special. Sex is a normal way to comfort people, but especially for the emotionally disturbed, and for people who ask fucked up shit like wanting to be raped. Cut the bullshit, you can breakup with him but not for a retarded reason like this. There is no miscommunication you're just a gooner and a cunt who gets everything they ask for and tries to find a way to be the victim still.

>>84850870
No. No. It's okay. I'm going to bed. I'm whooped. Shows over. Mike can take over.

>>84850886
who cares about mike, maria doesn't even care about mike

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>>84848174
I can't believe this was written by an almost 40 yo dude - and a supposedly native English speaker no less! Are you fucking kidding me? Must be his brain damage but holy shit, this good guy larp is cringe as fuck - especially after he was trying to make her jealous by bragging about "slaying" random pussy. His feeble attempts at manipulation are just like him: slow and obvious. Aaaaand these typos and him using "big words" to try to sound less retarded, which makes him sound even more ridiculous. It's so much and so cringe that I only skimmed it but wow, imagine falling for his good guy shtick!

>>84848174
>>84850907
The circlejerk at it again ngl

bitch you cant be alone for a day. ive been alone for years. fuck you

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>>84850923
no I'm the one guy who kept posting shadow the hedgehog when I saw you if you remember that. Remember you would schizo about me being some faggot named colton? I know that doesn't narrow it down AT ALL, because you schizo about everyone being this colton kid who e fucked your egf. no one cares lmao.

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>>84848374
"I have a 9 inch grip on this 10 inch turd!".

Google " Mozart scatology " and be amazed to learn something new.

>>84850872
That's nice Dykebot, but it doesn't take away from the fact that you have that diseased whore smell about you that you try to cover up with perfume but somehow the perfume just makes it worse.

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>>84848555
Ding, ding, ding! You're right on the money but don't get cocky since anyone without brain damage would see that.

>>84850921
Grim. Keep seething

>>84850963
no you fucking moron, remember I would pretend to be you? I kept posting shadow and going MARRIAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
or I'd post maria and go
MIIIIIIIIKKKEEEEEEEEEEE

you don't remember that?

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>>84850963
remember this? look at the trip code it matches. it's me.

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>>84848707
You seem to not know about all these old, desperate men with ED who are gladly paying good money for company. Show them a bit of cleavage and their low IQ drops to levels of toddlers with broken dicks. It's so tragic how easy it is.

>>84850981
you're such a dumb faggot, I'm just saying we go way back. I'm not a "Bystander who just walked in"
"I never come to this board"
"this is my first day on 4chan"

idiot. and nobody is colton, nobody knows colton besides maria, and neither of them give a shit about you you schizo fuck.

>>84850814
>>84850830
>says others are throwing a tantrum
>he's the only one clearly throwing one

>>84851019
I know idiot, that's obviously what i'm trying to show. your reading comprehension is so bad holy shit. No wonder maria left your bum ass

Chad trait: being almost 40 and spending your days in the 'cord looking for mentally ill teens

>>84851045
>bla bla bla bla
tantrum

>>84851045
bro make up your mind am I colton, or am I the guy who "raped" schadenfoid? you are mentally ill

>>84851073
you said that to me, that's a different guy moron.

he can't tell who's who because he's boiling

>>84851098
ok but can you just tell me do you think I'm colton, or the guy who "raped" schadenfoid? because you called me both and I already proved I'm not either.

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Now I get why corvids play a game of putting dried turds onto the backs of sheeps to entertain themselves. Who could resist picking on this scab - just sitting there, all retarded and jumping to even more retarded conclusions, flinging feces at others and only ends up with his own face smeared with poop?

>>84851121
ok so you admit you're mentally ill and a retard who can't make a coherent accusation, and who has no idea what even happened in this thread or who I am or why I mentioned any of the things I mentioned. Ok thanks retard. Not wasting my time with you anymore, I'm going to ghost you just like maria.

>>84851167
MORON. If im the guy who raped schadenfoid, then how could I also be colton? You fucking schizo

Do any of you people have jobs?

>>84851238
Tell us about your job.

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>>84851238
Sadly, yes, I'm employed and I only have time to dip in occasionally to keep things rolling.

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>>84851252
>i think two, MAYBE three, have jobs. a couple 'work from home', and the rest of us are neets
I told you that in confidence.

>>84851312
Sure thing bar hopper.

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>>84851335
Being a trust fund baby is not an occupation, retard.

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>>84851338
I'm immune.

>>84851358
He builds BEAUTIFUL furniture!

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>>84851385
No idea but don't pretend we don't have to pry your mouth away with a crowbar, preventing you from sucking on them. Do NOT disgrace GRACE!!!

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>>84851528
Fuck, can't unsee! Thanks I guess!?!?
>"The artist"
Funny.

You are a bit similar to a drug. Always looking for another hit of you.

It's true. Mike is low class, straight out of the trailer park some say.

A,
Please come to work tomorrow. I will talk to you and we can reconcile our differences. Please I miss you so much.
-b

>>84851919
>i love you so much. i so desperately wish you wanted me
These are my words and my perspective. I love you most.
-Sun

I wish I could grab your hand, that yours was the one to pull my from the pit. I know you're suffering, like me. I wish I could help you the way you help me. I hope you're ok

Your hairline recedes a bit more every time you commit another act of evil. Soon you will be bald and not even I can save you

I want off this roller coaster. I have no reason to be alive

Don't think the spiro will be the reason for that mike..

>>84852898
hey schadenfoid, I know you have alot of experience around the mentally ill. Would you say Mike is mentally ill, and if so how?

>>84852984
damn he's THAT mentally ill huh? wbu why do you ask people that love you to rape you as "an act of self harm"?

>>84853012
well yeah ofc, sounds like being with you is a traumatizing experience where you do nothing but give to someone who does nothing but take, and yet still finds a way to be a victim after.

>>84853032
well I have alot of pent up resentment because my ex was like you so I kind of do want to date you but instead of being patient and understanding I just go full abusive which I know you will love because you are gay and retarded and I feel bad for anyone who has ever actually showed you any respect.

I wouldn't say it was traumatizing. Plenty of moments that were amazing for me at least. Sorry about your ex man. That shit sucks.

>>84853053
I know you're no stranger to projecting and taking out your anger and frustration on others.

>>84853075
Cuck

>>84853089
Just let it out.. You're in a safe space. At least until mike wakes up.

>>84853092
is this still the cuck? Your words ring performative, and that's because you are a performative egg shell walking little bitch who minimized themselves until they were nothing. I don't blame her for not loving you, but I do blame her for being a disgusting little whore who's whole future will be to be a narcissistic cunt's cumrag.

ok fine maybe right and I'm projecting hard. I strongly dislike you all but I have issues and I'm going to go walk.

I'm drunk listening to old music fantasizing about you, it always felt like you were interested in me and wanted to have your way with me. I'm going to smoke this then jerk off over you.

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Its yo boy mikey I love licking cock and balls like it were icecream hehehe

>>84853174
Hope it's a good one man.

>>84853101
wait are you Dykebot? damn I remember talking to you on r9k a handful of times. You listened to me nut once. Sorry I was full projecting really hard, I'm kind of cooked inside. You can disregard everything I said.

I don't know what the future might hold, but it ain't looking good.

Keeping a home clean. Cooking. Groceries. Laundry. It's a lot of work. Stimulants help.

I'm a buy some cigarettes

Stimulants used on purpose. Doesn't need to be an adderall specifically. The more you move ideally the easier it should get. Make sure to get your protein, and water too. You're going to be activating a lot of muscle groups you don't use much. Give your body what it needs, and listen to it like you're doing.

Hell yeah. Post some pics when you make it. Sounds good. Glad to hear about the water/protein too. Keep up the good work. You got this.

I feel a little sad today. I haven't eaten anything healthy in a long while. It's been pretty hard to take care of myself. I feel so worthless and I don't see the value anyone can see in someone useless like me. It's possible I could do more if I had someone to encourage me. But who would want to waste their time with a loser like me heh.

>>84855609
Those were my honest feelings not just a parody of your posts.

>>84855639
It's fine. I wanted to annoy you a bit too. 2 birds one stone and all that. Well, keep it up champ. Stay strong.

>>84855766
I'm kinda retarded, but I don't think they were being trying to be sincere.

>>84855835
Shiiiieet my phone fucked that all up. I'm so stoopid.

I still think about you when I jerk off and I lied about deleting your nudes

>>84853316
>uohh my mental state, my mental state
God damn, you're fucking retarded. We get it. You're mentally ill. You're not special, especially here. Annoying as fuck. Call your fat retarded caveman simp over to rape you again, jesus.

>>84855609
"Martyr complex," from the narcissistic leech. Riiiiiight. That's funny! Say more funny things, Dykebot. Like how your meds "help" you and how you aren't just a pillhead. LOL!

In a strange quirk of synchronicity Alex got absolutely buttraped tonight as well bros on live tv!

im bleeding heavily - you're my injury

been up for about an hour and thinking about *it* already ruined the rest of my day

Don't let it ruin your day. Let it ruin your week.

>>84857327
Baby girl daddy's not lashing out at you. He's just wondering why ya such a fucken retahd

>>84857327
hey schaden, I've chilled since I blew up last time. I got a q, when you talked about rape as "an act of self harm". Is that typical for you? Is it always an "act of self harm" when you want that? Asking because my ex wanted similar things although she never phrased it as an act of self harm, she also had zero emotional intelligence and don't think she would've been capable

>>84857464
it was for sure to relive trauma, she would ask for specific things from her past that traumatized her. Fuck. Sorry for asking something so personal publicly, but thank you for your answer.

>>84857464
I hope you've been doing better, I attract mentally ill girls and I just mostly stay away and heavy de-empathize sexual shit in relationships now. It's really nice when you can feel valid without that, like knowing that it's still there but not needed. Hard though to build and keep that kind of thing. I hope you've been doing better since.

>>84857464
This is such insane levels of cope. Just say you can't deal with having a rape fetish because of your past. How retardedly backwards can you go about this?

I don't like you when you're sober

Teenage revelation central in your mid thirties. Did you find this revelation at the bottom of a wine bottle, auntie? Would you like some cheese to go with that?

>still waiting on her hands
I am dying of thirst in the Sahara here...

>>84857603
it was a typo but im ngl it feels that way sometimes. I swing back and forth and I'm guessing this might be your issue too. Fuck it sucks.

>>84857268
Put a cork in it. I can be that cork if you let me <3

How come you don't kill yourself like your big sister and brother, everybody knows your nothing but a worthless whore that nobody likes.

>>84857792
nah I like her, she was always chill. she's also honest and useful as a resource.

Even I don't know what you're talking about. That's some off the wall shit.
Thankfully, dykebot couldn't read that because of the lazy eye. Otherwise she'd be pretty upset.

dykebot can't even LOOK straight
aheh aheh ahehehehe

Sink, swim, do as I say, don't do as I say.

Dude. I'm going crazy. Wtf am I supposed to do?

>inb4 why are you asking that you dumb retard

Got something in my system
Why do I got to take it so far
excuse me I'm out of rhythm
taking pills and sleeping in a car

dykebot loves getting abused by bpdemons :3

deserve it? irrelevant. you are addicted to being a retarded whore. deserving is so far removed from the operation, pumpkin.

lol she got her comeuppance pretty quick huh

>>84858559
You haven't changed at all huh anon

>i just want le love and le peace and le happiness
>please come rape me with my gf in the house tho lolz im drunk
>why doesn't anybody love me?
hmmmm....
HMMMMMMMMMM........
this is a toughie. I'm going to have to go think about it in my anabolic thinking chambers. please do not disturb me while I'm thinkurbating.

>oh no no but don't actually rape me, oh my gosh this is rape
did you take your standing regiment of meds today my sweet little schizo dumpling?

>>84858631
>>84858605
>>84858559
Circlejerk weasel schizo group

>>84858634
Two'uh those are me and I'm assuming the other one is vocatroon rapesimp

>>84858647
Nah not me. My last post was here.
>>84855539
Assuming that was actually her posting I just find it really really sad. If that's what she genuinely wants I hope she gets it. I'm just a huge faggot like that.

the very real rape victim is going to sleep. she's such a victim of her retarded decisions. she could've sucked a few Jew dicks and been a model for the rest of her life, but she chooses to serve it out for white monsters and rape fantasies

>my body count shouldn't matter
Understand.
In all honesty.
For you.
It doesn't.
Your body count doesn't fucking matter.
It doesn't matter because your BODY is 300 fuckin' pounds and that is way worse than being a whore.
Men can still look at a bunch of whores and find some level of carnal desire for them.
Not you fatty, that isn't anything close to your #1 problem.

I don't like you when you're drunk

>>84859689
>I don't like you when you're drunk
I don't like me when I'm drunk either.

>>84859697
stop bothering me when you're drunk

No one else even knows I'm here let alone that I exist. Except for you.

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Pre-SF6 session Rose was so cute! :3 Locked-in, streamer-faced Rose was cute too but smiley, chill Rose in the mood for friendly banter was peak!
I wonder whether a small edible would help her to stay calm when playing SF6. I swear that the devil's lettuce somehow helped me a lot to grind bf3 back in the day and it helped a lot while flying the helicopter as it made me "feel" the physics model of the chopper. Might not work for SF6 as reaction speed might be impacted negatively but it would probably help to stay calm when shit gets tough. I'd say a tiny nibble of an edible might be worth a shot for a SF6 session. It's probably a good idea to test it off-stream first to get the dose dialed in to prevent her drooling uncontrollably while undressing Alex with her greedy eyes instead of putting her opponents to sleep.

>>84847950
Incredibly disappointing to see that after all this time, you're still putzing around 4chan embroiling yourself in dramas with human zeroes. Blaming everything on your illness. On your relationships. On shit that happened when you were a kid.

How many times have you trotted out the classics? The Tobias saga? The time Lisa fired you? Do those recollections even spark a feeling anymore? Or are you just mining people for reactions until they're tapped out - because you're addicted?

This is hell. You're in hell. Right now. Flushing another hour away. Another day. Another week. A year. You're dying and you don't even seem to care. All we have is time, and this is what you're doing with it.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=iEwj1xvYYBQ

I want to cut myself and I want to die

I have no future ahead of me outside of misery.

>>84860230
Still snorting adderall, still bedrotting 9-5, still mainlining slop every waking second. Now with the additional fun detail of roleplaying that Doug is some sort of unrequited female love. Is this going to be your forties? Fifties? At what point does the trauma stop being an adequate excuse for this thing you've turned yourself into? You're just Karen all over again - except this time with a terminally online flair.

>>84860390
I want you to help yourself, Rachelle. There has to be some part of you that sees this insanity for what it is.

Stop pretending that your 'roommate' isn't a failed relationship that's poisoning you both. Stop pretending to be a devout Catholic. Stop authoring whatever other weird pockets of delusion you're trying to escape into. Take a personal inventory and realize this isn't what you want.

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>>84860424
This is how real people talk, isn't it?!?! *blink eyes with sideways lids*

>>84860448
I could care less about your 'faith' - if I thought it wasn't just the latest in a slew of diversions. I've seen you try out so many different personas. You'll drop into a clutch of gen z furries and become one of them them for a season. Then you'll absorb the interests of your new e-bestie, then it's back to r9k to stir the pot for the upteenth time. Over and over and over again.

Meanwhile, IRL the state of decay is absolutely rank. And hey - I get it. I wouldn't want to face that shit with 20/20 vision. But the more you avoid it, the more it'll grow.

>>84860017
Bbg I have like seven gfs at a school you've never heard of before and they simp for me. Don't be mad at me
>>84859892
You're right. I'm sorry I banged your girlfriend, Mike. It was a moment of weakness. Can you ever forgive me?

Also, "Rachelle?" What are you, a neeeeeegger?

If any woman cared about me like that I'd probably be a multi millionaire. Too bad women are such retarded whores.
>Nooooo, I don't want a good life! I wanna drug up and whore around with internet degenerates!
Lol.

>>84860561
It's because I care about you that it disturbs me so much to see you transforming into the millennial edition of your mother. I understand that everything about your life has gone rancid, and I understand how deeply ingrained the behavioral patterns have become. There's a reason your past glories still matter so much - your art from back then; the snapshots of better times - and it's because you can still make the distinction between what's good and what's not.

You can have something good again. But the more your narcotize yourself and fester, the more awful it will all become.

Older than me, somehow half as mature, twice as retarded, but still the same symptoms. Is this a foid thing or a millennial thing?

My reading and writing level is at an 8th grade. How sad

>>84859911
Punished rose was very beautiful. Not to sound like a sadist jacking off at the suffering of another but Rose truly was like a lone rose growing in the middle of an abandoned junkyard hanging on to whatever little nutrient she can rummage from the poisoned earth and the metal scrap tombstones that already celebrated her death in advance. Every hit, every missed combo every miscalculated footsie was a struggle not just for victory but for life itself. In the jaws of loss, despair and death Rose ironically looked the most alive, eternal, towering; qualities that were very much reflected on her absolute obelisk of an avatar.

>>84857064
Alex did come from behind afterwards

I'm the most pathetic person I know.

>>84860089
>>84860318
>>84860429
>>84860500
>>84860635
I don't know who this was, but damn did they hit a lot of shit on the head. Not everything I agree with necessarily, but they know you quite well. The delivery was harsh. They must be well-versed in your stubborness. Sadly I don't think it will make much of a difference. For what it's worth I appreciate their effort. It is gut wrenching to see this unfold in real-time. It does not feel good to be used as an unaware instrument of the one you love's self harm. If I even knew that was a thing I would never have done any of that to begin with. Where all I can really do is watch this spiral go on and try to cope the best I can. Hoping that somehow it works out for the best.

I wish she was surrounded by people who care like you do. I think things would be a lot different. Even if you're mean about it.

>>84858274
As a fellow unwanted I am cheering for you schadenfoid whoever wherever you are WAGMI

>>84861387
honestly glad you got raped bitch

>>84861387
I guess I just underestimate how much you share publicly. I know you've been on r9k a long time, and dated others from here. Do you really think I would of done that if I had known? I never want to hurt you, or do anything like that to you.
>no wonder your definition of love is so fucked
Speak for yourself. Even if they took all that time to scrape it all together. They cared enough to do so. I just assumed it was someone from your past.

>>84861416
You know this isn't true. You're spiraling. You're mental health is not going to do any better subjecting yourself to the board right now. Realistically, it probably won't get any better in your current situation either. As I've said before. Insanity is doing the same thing over, and over and expecting different results. I think what you messaged me about doing a few days ago might be a good idea. Get setup with that, and take some much needed time to get yourself into a better position to start over.

>Fucked up "Your"
Well, at least you know it's me.

>>84860948
moike pls... i love u bro... maria and i miss u. come back 2 us bro we miss you...

>>84861510
Bitch, it wasn't rape. You're not a victim. Your past does not exclude this insanely retarded behavior. Still not believing this isn't some retarded drama mongering larp on your part. You did all this shit on purpose for boohoos and attention you lying cunt.

retard nobody's glad you got raped because you didn't get raped kek. you are what, past thirty and doing this for attention? you see how pathetic this is yeah?

>>84861510
>genuinely, 47 hasn't even done an especially deep delve into the archive and he knows practically every detail of my life but isn't a prick that uses that against me.
I wouldn't know. I imagine mike will go off since you name dropped them though.
>yes, i am very open about my personal info, and was especially so in the past.
I was sort of aware of this. I never dived into it all that much. Or knew what your other aliases were off the top. I was more interested in getting to know you face-to-face.
>it's not care and compassion, it's parasocial flexing of their belief of control over me because they know details about me and think that will cow me into behaving in a way they want.
I don't agree with everything they said, but they made some good points. Like I said. Probably won't make a difference anyway so they don't know you that well. Obviously.
>i was open with you from the beginning that i did not enjoy rape
You were not. You do not convey that by asking me to do so multiple times when we were together and also having the love we shared afterwards. There were so many times we held each other in our arms, and gazed longingly into our eyes. One of the things you struggle with, but in those moments it was intoxicating. You never explicitly told me that was a form of self-harm for you. We share so many.. Well, the chemistry has always been through the roof. So from my perspective I interpreted it as another thing you wanted to explore together and get some cathartic sexual gratification from to help cope/deal with past trauma. Which is a common thing many do when they have gone through traumatic experiences. That's simply where my mind was at. If you had told me I was being used in such a way I would of immediately stopped that, and never done it again.
>you sat here laughing with the otherz earlier in this very thread about not raping me hard enough
I am absolutely beyond devastated. I am coping. I was hoping it'd make you laugh in some way.

>>84861575
Haha I have been following along quite well, you made all that shit up in your head to victimize yourself. You are the only one who put yourself in that position and you are the only one to blame. It's crazy how you're clearly trying to make this retarded fucker feel bad for "raping" your haggard ass when in reality, you don't care whose dick is in you because there have been way too many. This isn't about your boohoo "emotional state." (LMAO) This is about you being a wilfully self destructive retard and YES, you do deserve it, so keep comitting these crimes against yourself dumbfuck. It amuses me :D at least I'm not delusional about my self destructive tendencies and certainly don't blame others you fucking child.

>>84861510
>>84861578
Cont'd since character limit.
>don't try to spin this now when you've already made clear that you were more than happy to rape and brag about it
This is very confusing. Here, >>84861575
You mention it wasn't actually rape. But then claim I "rape" then brag about it. As a bit, yeah I do joke about it. Have for a long time since shit-posting. That's just what it is. A joke. Not serious. I know you're going through it. I genuinely hoped that some of those posts made you laugh, or smile given how bad you felt. That's what I wanted. You know you weren't actually raped. I take what I did seriously, and would never do that ever again. But, what is the alternative? Lamenting in the thread over and over again? Or trying to find some limited amount of humor from it to cope, and move on from this?

Do you not see where some confusion might arise with all of this? How there are inconsistencies with all of this? As well as in the past between us? Do you REALLY believe I would consciously do things to hurt you on purpose? Maybe you're just used to that type of treatment, but I never stood for that or would want to do that. I love you more than anything. I'm really sorry I didn't explicitly say I love you after having what I thought was healthy, cathartic sex after a really awful day. I genuinely thought it was what you wanted. You explicitly asked me for it. You were being physical, and intimate with me leading up to that moment. In the past you have even said you weren't "in the mood" or "feeling it" due to pain, or some other reason. In those circumstances I back off, and try to comfort/care for you the best I can. So to me I knew in the back of my head if you didn't want something you'd say so. You're not shy about saying if you don't want something, and historically I've never had any issue respecting that boundary if it's communicated to me.

You say you wish I had said "I love you" in that moment. I wish you would of said "I can't do this right now".

Lastly, would have saying "I love you" explicitly afterwards even made a difference? Would it made all of that "okay"? Of course not. Communication is key in any healthy relationship. When you don't communicate to me you want to kill yourself. When you don't communicate to me that you use our rape roleplay as a form of self-harm. When you don't communicate to me these types of things how do you figure we're supposed to have anything even remotely healthy? We don't. Communication breaks down, and stuff like this happens. Where we get hurt. I don't want this for us. I have wanted you since the moment I was aware of you existence. Ask anyone that interacted with me or has.. I'm insufferable about it. Your current "roommate" will barely acknowledge your existence and wants nothing to do with you. Where I would do anything to have you in my life to some extent. I am so weak for you. I'd embarrass myself on the boards time and time again if it meant being with you. It means nothing to me because you are my everything.

Sorry I'm not handling the fact the love of my life wanted to kill herself without my knowledge. Left after only moving in with me for a week where we had planned to spend the rest of our lives together. I cherish every moment spent with you.

>>84847950
You asked someone to "rape" you (not rape if its consent) and they "raped" you. Then you blame them. You're still in a childish, helpless mindset where you believe you are exempt from consequences of your actions but everyone else is held responsible for you. This is how a baby thinks. This is why you want to kill yourself. You've not learned that you can be and are responsible for yourself as an adult. That there is a point where you have to manage the effects of your decisions, not your parents. Grow up and adopt this way of thinking and you'll be fine.

>>84861642
It was an off hand comment to someone who was shit posting. Do you really think I genuinely feel that way? When we make a spectacle of our relationship publicly darling these things happen. That wasn't meant to,
>explore and deal with your trauma
It was silly comment in an attempt to find some semblance of humor to the current conversation. Didn't find it funny? Fine. That's fair. It's not a reflection of how I truly feel about what happened. Or how I feel about you.

It's crazy how after a certain number men just feel like same iterations of the same person. Really helps put any past drama in perspective. It's also funny how certain male breeds act the same damn way. Stocky blond wigger guys are all players, mexicans are good lovers, curly haired light eyed guys eat great pussy, sweet faced black guys are submissive, tall awkward guys cum quickly.

>>84861679
I thought it was that BEFORE you entered that state. You asked me to rape you. I thought that's what you wanted. Hence cathartic, healthy sex. You are ignoring the fact I had no idea you were using me as a form of self-harm in those moments. You are also not mentioning how I tried to comfort you after. Trying to rouse you, and sit you up. When I thought this was something you were interested in roleplaying the whole "Frozen in fear" reaction made perfect sense. That's a reasonable "act" to put on during that exchange. It wasn't until afterwards when I was getting around that I realized something was wrong because you were barely responsive. I tried in that moment to comfort you, and ask what was wrong. To get something out of you. If there was anything you needed, or if there was anything I could do. I was afraid you overdosed or something while in the bathroom cleaning up.

All of this boils down to you simply not communicating. I understand if you were not in a state to do so. That's fair, but I can't read your mind. I was also under the impression the whole time this was something you wanted to explore within the confines of a loving relationship with someone who cared about you.

>>84861706
You told me once. I had to get the rest of the information out of you. I immediately removed all the accessible firearms/ammunition from the home. I went through every room making sure I didn't miss anything. Backpacks, drawers, anything at all. How is that downplaying it? I even reached out to your "roommate" asking them to please keep me in the loop if anything seemed off. That we please keep an open line of communication in case something happened, or if you needed to be admitted. What did I get? Radio silence. Not a word.

>>84861732
I tried speaking to you multiple times. I shook you multiple times. I grabbed you, and pulled you to sit you up right, pleading with you to speak to me. To say anything. I sternum rubbed you. You winced which was a good sign. You finally whispered you didn't OD, or need an ambulance. That you wanted to rest. I figured you just wanted to be alone to process mentally the roleplay we just did given your mental state. To me that made sense in the moment. So I gave you space. Which is a common thing you've needed at times while we were together so you can process things. Again. During that whole time I still had zero idea you were doing that as a form of self-harm. This was never communicated to me. I would of stayed if it was in that moment. And if it was stated prior I just would never have done that. There have been multiple times where you rejected a sexual advance for different reasons. From my perspective I assumed if you didn't want it you'd say so. Like you had in the past. Which I would of respected.

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>>84861692
I was going to object to your post but then
>tall awkward guys cum quickly
Maybe you're onto something.

>>84861763
I'm stating exactly what happened. I don't give a shit about any fucking "persona" or whatever. I never even posted when I was with you because I was happy. People always comment how they hadn't heard from me in awhile. That's why. It means nothing to me. I'm not gaslighting you, or pushing some untrue narrative. I am having a conversation with you. You might not want to hear it, or like it. Which is fair, but I'm genuinely trying to work through this with you. Obviously I still want to be with you, but you're projecting quite a bit right now. You are not in a good mind state. If you want to do right by your roommate, and feel the things you desire so badly then take some time away from the board. Focus on conserving your energy and precious time to dedicate to the things you want to do for her. You are incredibly stubborn and hard headed. I love you, but it makes constructive conversations in these moments damn near impossible. So go work towards what it is you truly want since you've made it abundantly clear it's not me.

>>84861763
you got with vocarooanon? lmao that's crazy for many reason

>>84861771
Last one I hit was marfan tier and came three times but each one so fast it was like I blinked and missed it. After he literally begged me to give him a chance after flaking I knew I should've just blocked him