i wake up hurting again i dont think i will ever feel okay
So is life. You get older and pain is chronic.
>>84866992certainly posting your butthole on the Internet for thousands of random people will cure your pain, if your prior conduct on this board recently is anything to go by, namefag
>>84866992did you watch 100 happy movies yet
huh? oh hey skweeks. thought you died or something. how r u?
>>84867061pic of his butthole?
>>84867928i don't have any, but i'm sure they're in the archive if you search for them
>>84866992but you were so cute and comfy enjoying HOPPINGS last night you were so cozymaybe you need to become a cozy mousewife to me
>>84867046i not ready >>84867908almostwe watch wall e last night an it was nicei like moviesbut then if i only watch movies i do nothing else in life except today i did cleaning and gonna do some more later but i dont know and im on a diet so i hope i see progress need study soon too but i am lazy >>84867915i am sad inside but i trying fix iteven if i am happy in moment it stays there or comes back when my mind is being quiet like most peoplei dont really feel like a human >>84867969it is winter so i will try embrace comfy and drink hot chocolate and more i think i just am depressed i have become so fat and i am not ready for depression anymoredrawing show where i hurt
>>84867928Birds have cloaca, idiot
>>84868126do u like my art :3
>>84868126that is a good drawingYou look like you'd enjoy a nice warm hug and a cozy head pat from a loving husband.
>>84867928i think its a her. someone post it
>>84866992same fagim so tired of thisI wish I could figure out a way out of it but it's been this way for over a decade. I'm for sure waking up hurt tomorrowwhat's your damage?
>>84868126>it is winterits not winter retard its summer>i dont really feel like a humansame anon as the prev comment, idk how old you are but ive felt this way more recently than in the past
>>84868126>even if i am happy in moment it stays there or comes back when my mind is being quietWe've all been there I'm sure, you're definitely not aloneGlad to hear you enjoyed your movies squeaker x
>>84868159>>84868178i dont know why lately even i have always hurt but because i am growing up i lose my hormones and instead of acting out or hurting myself or others i just sit in the hurt instead of distracting myself from it - i do not have interests or hobbies or anything .
>>84868126where did u watch it? u got discord? i watched emperors new groove and atlantis with you that was pretty cozy
>>84868182It's winter in Australia retard
>>84868198>its winter in uno-reverselandnot my problem faggot>>84868194Interesting. you can easily get hobbies yknowalso are you that mouse girl? I have something to ask you if you are
>>84868182im australia!im 22i have hurt for while but i always say or have people tell me "it will get better" or say "it will get better after *this" even i think on past and i was not really happy maybe i was even worse but at least i have evidence of the pain - it sounds stupid but hurting or all the pictures of my hurting are proof of my pain and my current existence is just wasting years away wjile being sad and unable to move . >>84868190i watch more moveis tonighti watched a scary movieoh i keep having nightmares that could be why im sadi dont knowi dont feel human anymoreeven when i am outside and look at nature i feel like i should die and i get upset that even happy things dont work to fix me
>>84868194>i do not have interests or hobbies or anythingDo you have any pets? Maybe you could try getting a plant to take care of to keep your mind off of things
i want to tie you to a chair and forcefeed you mass gainer, youll be on a 4000 calorie diet instead of 400
>>84868197i use the hyperbeam room but i do have discord but im bad at holding conversations past posting links to movie streams its modestperv also will probably not be allowed post in bit so if i stop responding thats why >>84868205yes thats mei try get hobbies and then i just cannot , even games i rather stay in bed and put my head down and rewatch shows i already seen a billion times
>>84868207Seems like you need to be around people irl, spend some time with family perhaps
>>84868208i have a dog and cat and a leechi mostly hug them but even then i dont knowi domts speak my leech enough and i feel guilt for itbut even then i dont knowthey make me happy we just sit in bed together i still feel it in my chest>>84868216i cant get fattere
>>84868227squeaks you are at like 40kgs nowdo you even have your period anymore?
>>84868226being around people make it worsei have a support worker i see basically 4 days a week and another few peopleeven i never understand the word masking until i have to speak to someome every dyay of the weekit is a stupid complaintother people need help more than mehonestly i dont think im even retarded enough to be given so many hours but everytime i see her i have to act okay or smile or laugh at regular things humans do and it tires me and as soon as i home i feel tired from it i dread it in a wayor when i am with my mum it is like she is notmy mum anymore - or im not her daughter - and i want to be or with my friendsi feel they dont know me or inside of meor if they did they wouldnt like meeven i dont feel human to anyone even on the internet im bad at keeping friends and talking to people i dont feel human to anyone in my lifei dont
>>84868207>>84868219ngl I thought you were younger than that, then again I dont really follow egirl bullshit all that muchI feel you desu, I dont know how to be happy anymoreI gotta ask you something unrelated tho add me on discord if you can - atlantis9000
>>84868241i have returned from the lab with a new masterpiece
>>84868233im 46kg i gained weight from binges
>>84868241>i dont feel human to anyoneProbably doesn't help having dozens if not hundreds of people online constantly trying to 'fix' you
>>84868247>46kgHow tall are you nona?
>>84868277in real life is worsei dont care of online people trying to fix me i feel more human online even if people are mean sometimes or i dont knowbut in real life i hear things likemy support worker being surprised i watched a MA rated tv show or my friends saying i was groomed the time i tell them anything - or i domt know how to explain iteven my mum says i am a minor when i am 22 years oldi feel like they do not se eme as a humanor even if they treat me as a kidpast that they see me as just autistic or even i speak to a lady and she says in 5 years i can apply to live in house that gets 5 hour support per day but i want to be a ladyi want to wear business suit and be capable and morei dont want to be someone who needs support or looks like i need supportboys in real life bully meim not humanand even i have nothing to defend myself against anything they say about me beacsue theyre rightim not human >>848682855'1
>>84868305Sounds like you have lots of people that care about you and see you as human, they just don't understand you or how to treat you normally would be my guess
>>84868351yesthey care lots which is nicebut it feels like they care of someone who isnt meeven my mumit feels like she loves someone that isnt mei dont know who i ami dont have anything that makes me humanany hobbies or interests or personalityall i have is mental breakdowns its all i amand even in real life i dont present those so i just sit and nod an dthats all i am its all i am i am nothing i wish i was human and eveni spoke in messages to someone i have no reason to hurti just ami dont cry because friendships or not being human etci cry because those are just the effect of me being nothingwhich is caused from nothingits like my brain is just this wayeven there is no reason to hurt but i do everydayeveryday is hurtingi have no reasoni feel like i have rocks thrown at my head everyday and eve n though the rocks stopped hitting my headnow i have a bleeding brain
>>84868372>it feels like she loves someone that isnt me>i dont know who i amWell how can she know who you are if even you don't? Communicate and show people who you really are so they'll better understand you
>>84868372do you want a husband in Australia?not one that has to fix you but just accepts you as you are
>>84868379well that is iti know its my own faultbut im nobody so nobody treats me as anythingbut i feel even i cant explain it.and eventhe only thing i can explain is my sadnessamd when i tell them im sad they shut it downcomplicated>>84868386i dobut i know i would be a bad wife or my husband would leave me so i cant risk it
>>84868305can you be a lady and do more videos of you pissing? thanks in advance
>>84868408>can you be a lady and do more videos of you pissing?ew, more? that's disgusting.
>>84868401ok so strange i was kind to you and said i like your current weight but you ignored me oh well. i accepted you as you are. i do wish you all the best
>>84868401>complicatedLol veryJust enjoy your night squeak don't overthink things
>>84868432Kek bro has the foresight of a blind man
>>84868126>i dont really feel like a humanaye. welcome to the club. sorry for the delay, I had to go to the store, I was out of food
have a comfy cozy night squeaky>>84868444yeah it's my heart lol
hello everyoneupdateim choosing t fix my mental proeblems and i will play games and eat mash potato tonight and watchmovies and even if i hurt right now i know 1 day at a time i will get better - but instead if staying in bed and crying i will resort to pinching and playing and doing things. even i will make a craft anytime im sad to feel a bit better.
>>84868670thats great jadie im happy for you, truly
>>84868670Proud of you squeak!Enjoy your movies x
>>84868682>>84868685thank you guys(original commenyt)
>>84868670great choices squeakymash potato on a winter night is comfyand take it day by day and things will get better for you, well done
>>84868670I'd watch a movie with you but sadly I can't add you on discord and I doubt we'd really talk before or after that anyway
What happened to your last 2(?) threads on /soc/, Squeaky? Did you delete them or did mods do it?
>>84868790this is my hyperbeam roomim not watching anything yet but if u ever want to watch movies i think it uses this same link https://hyperbeam.com/i/7k-9fQ99>>84868844they delete them TvTeating mash potato now and hot chocolate
>>84868862>they delete themThose bastards. Any idea why? Tbh, there should be a Squeaky general 24/7 on that board as you're by far the most interesting girl there and pretty much the board's mascot.
depress againi dont know what to do when i hurt
>>84869708I'll give you a hug.you probably just need at least one hug per day for a week.
>>84869715https://hyperbeam.com/i/7k-9fQ99movue
>>84869708Occupy your mind with something. Don't you have any hobbies to do or video games to play? I remember you used to play League
>>84869740im going try get gold again . but i cant leave bed right noe so maybe movires tonight nd plans tomorroe
Here is a polar bear for you.
>>84869756Come back and finish the movie ;_;
the absolute simpery in this thread is sad and pathetic. fuck off yunners, go pity farm simps elsewhere.
https://hyperbeam.com/i/iaxFpM-pwe are watching alice in borderland>>84870453keep crying fat female
>>84870559(You) know I'm not a fat female, and (you) know I'm right about everything I said about you. :DDD
>>84866992>i dont think i will ever feel okayGood you fat ugly whore
>>84869708you stuff your fat pig face
>>84870453Squeaky the used hag gets her loser simps to raid these threads
>>84870587You know what would really show her? If you posted your vagina and a bunch of dudes jerked off to you instead of her
>>84870587you're cuter and thinner than squeaky will ever be
>>84870587i dont know why u hate me so badly but whateverididnt even kick you inidvidually i deleted my whole serveranyway i wont post here anympre since u all seem to hate me goodbye if u want talk to me i will be on twitter for now on um or u can msg my discord i wil tel u when i watch movies,.both are modestpervsorry goodbye
>>84870559>ended early because some fag told you toThis must be why you fail diets. Reminder never to click your shit threads ever again.
>>84871268Get a life lol dumb bitch
