Is there a moment in your life that you cringe at every time you are reminded of it? For me it was when my oneitis learnt that I had a crush on her and she tried to talk to me me for an entire semester and I avoided her at every opportunity. I was 19. I'm yet to regain my manhood after that one. She's married now and the memory still plagues my mind
>>84869259>Have a crush>Crush shows interest>Ignore herWhy do this?
>>84869273I wish I had a clear answer for you. I did the same thing a year before with another classmate who apparently liked me. I had never been shown female interest all my life up until uni and my brain was struggling to cope with the fact that a female had possible taken interest in me. I had really low self esteem part of me perceived these girls like they were beneath me, because why would someone love a subhuman like me? I was also intimated by the fact that I had to interact with her friend group who were also classmates and I kept telling myself I wasnt looksmaxxed enough for a relationship. Browsing incel sites and being a porn addict in that time didnt help either. Now I'm 26, I've been a complete shutin since COVID never redeemed myself. I am a very pathetic man.
>>84869318Ooof. I've done some pathetic shit, like ignoring 7/10s who were clearly into me, but this is much worse.
>>84869273incel inside
>>84869332I feel like part of me was also ignoring them deliberately to boost my ego, feeling better denying them a conversation completely if it were true that they really liked me. I was a twisted kid. I wish my parents beat me up more, I really really wish they did. I would not have turned out such a fucking pathetic loser. It feels hopeless trying to date now, I wouldnt know where to start to redeem myself. I squandered my chances when I was handed them on a platter. These fuck ups weigh so heavily on me when I'm not distracted.
>>84869259>Is there a moment in your life that you cringe at every time you are reminded of it?yeah, all of it.
>>84869259kek I've done something similar OP its the curse of autism
>>84869385That's not that twisted, actually very typical volcel thought process. The most pathetic men delight in rejecting more than scoring, it's an imbalance
>>84869385I don't think I noticed a girl ever show interest in me but I strongly relate its like the most important phase of growing up completely passed me by and I didn't do enough when I had young peers around me now its impossible to even just make a friend.
I wouldn't date any woman whose standards were low enough to consider dating me.
>>84869259my oneitis mentioned she was crushing on another guy shortly after a meet her for a few days before I could even ask her out (I thought she was becoming my girlfriend at this point) and I just never recovered from that.
