i need a girl off this board to be really mean to me and bully me and seriously hurt me
>>84873965it has to be personal to really hurt though. i'd tell you embarrassing things about myself and you can use them against me to make me feel awful about myself
thought it'd be easier to find evil women here
>>84875319why would they want you when theres better options
>>84875457because i'm willing to be a human punching bag for them. i'm only really looking for a girl who genuinely enjoys making guys feel awful about themselves
>>84875468yeah but are you a good punching bag? I had an irl bf who let me break his nose and he was actually cute and rich, the average man is pathetic to begin with, youre not special, do better if you want it
>>84875488i'm not cute or rich, i'm just sorta gross and pathetic. and it's developed into a sexual thing where i can only get turned on when girls find me gross or they they feel genuine hatred and disdain towards me. i'm only making this thread because i'm selfish and wanna jerk off but can't get hard under any other context
>>84875503exactly, nobody is going to put effort into hating you if youre useless and theres better punching bags man you gotta do better or get rid of this fetish
>>84875516>get rid of this fetishif only things worked like that. it genuinely ruined my sexuality
>>84875528dont expect to find anyone without forking something over then idk
>>84875570siigh, i guess i can pay for it if i really have to
>>84875582you can probably find someone on x for cheap
>>84875614x ones are too fake. i can tell their heart isn't in it. i need an r9k girl specifically
>>84875620reasonable, id offer but im still on and off with prior mentioned bf and he pays my rent lmfao good luck
>>84875632thank you! and good luck with your ex kek
>>84873965I just need a girl to enjoy my company and appreciate my lovenever happening tho
>>84875663i'm so far gone to the point where even if a girl enjoyed my company and appreciated my love, i wouldn't be satisfied with the relationship, and i definitely wouldn't be able to get hard during sex. i'd always secretly crave a girl who hates me and thinks i'm weird and gross
>>84875720how does one end up in this state? i'd rather just jump off a cliff
>>84876013it just sorta happens naturally when you grow up with zero positive reinforcement throughout your life and zero romantic prospects
i wonder if there's any other anons on here with hyper specific paraphilias that ruined their ability to get hard to anything else or if it's just me
>>84876766I've ranted about the same sort of thing quite a lot. Growing up with a physically abusive mother and sister left a pretty serious mental scar on me when it comes to my dynamics with women and I can only really invision myself in a relationship with a woman if I'm in some way being substantially harmed. The vast majority of women absolutely find this abhorrent, and only want to do harm to men when they find it distressing in a mundane way, so I can only just sort of shrug and keep shuffling on.
>>84876877i'm glad there's someone out there who gets me. i can't feel comfortable around a woman unless she's violently repulsed by me. otherwise it feels unnatural, like something that's not supposed to happen. i wonder if i'd ever be able to get a girlfriend who is grossed out by me but still wants to be with me anyway for whatever reason
>>84876908I don't need them to feel disgusted, but them being affectionate or kind makes me exceptionally anxious. Fortunately I'm bi so I can skirt around it a little by simply not getting into a relationship with a woman, but I'm also apparently rather attractive to women and I feel bad when they make me feel uncomfortable because they treat me well in the hopes of getting on my good side. It makes maintaining social connections really awkward/
>>84873965Imao german tranny is that you?
>>84876941for me it's specifically when they feel annoyed, angry, grossed out or any sort of strong negative emotion like that. it's hard to communicate that to women because most of them assume i'm submissive and want the generic milquetoast femdom experience. in reality, i don't consider myself submissive at all and my paraphilia has nothing to do with submission. i guess pitysex is also fairly close to what i'm looking for. just any sort of dynamic where a girl hates me but is forced to tolerate me under a sexual context>>84877048no, i'm a 25 year old eastern european man
>>84877072Nigga dont lie I recognize your gay ass pics I am living in your walls
>>84877080i think it's time to take your meds
i miss when r9k was the prime hunting ground for evil and sinister women
