there is no light or warmth in this world for me without my angel it seems likely that i might already be dead and suffering his absence as a result of my actions while alivefor as long as he is absent there is no absence of suffering not for me or anyone in this world who has harmed him
>>84911506what the fuck are you talk about
>>84911523what's hard to understand? i'm being punished for the harm i caused to my angel. whether i'm actually dead right now or not doesn't matter because i'm being tortured for what i've done the same as if i were dead and in hell
>>84911506Are you talking about sleepykinq?
>>84911790>Are you talking about sleepykinq?yes
>>84911799What happened? Are you having a OCD orbitfrontal cortex moment? Didn't your prayers get answered? Isn't his suffering over?
>>84911809he still hasn't resumed posting. i can't help but feel like this all started because of me. we had been talking just a week before everything happened. i wish none of this had ever happened. they've ruined his career and reputation completely
>>84911829Who knows maybe its the opposite, perhaps your prayers and fervent love helped pay off some of his karmic debt and stopped him from getting completely destroyed. What makes you think you've been a net-negative on him?
>>84911855i shouldn't have ever existed. my life and existence should have conceded to his before they came into being. the fact that i exist alongside him is a serious error. i've acted impulsively and done things to hurt him. i don't even want to say what i did because i'm still so ashamed of it. it would have been in everyone's best interest if i had never existed. he should be the only one who exists. i'm afraid that even ending my own life won't absolve me of my sinful existence
>>84911900>i don't even want to say what i did because i'm still so ashamed of it.Confess - or forever bear your sin alone.Seriously though what did you do, were you one of the people who called him out for his grooming or something
>>84911988i wasn't. it's just how i reacted after it happened that i feel guilty about