I am not convinced any of you are real people, you are botnets created to confuse me, either that or I have lived through ridiculous circumstances. Throughout my highschool experience I was constantly cartoonishly bullied by students and teachers, isolated, rejected, and im not even fat or ugly, I just have mild autism. Throughout my life I have never seen this happen to males, despite my constant stalking of many male friendgroups, they always seem to be healthy and supportive, I have never personally witnessed a male go through what I have. I was put in a ridiculosuly hard program and tormented by my school and my parents who hated me for being female and treated me like I was subhuman compared to my brothers. just to add so this doesnt get taken down I AM CURRENTLY OVER 18 4CHAN, I GRADUATED YEARS AGO
How do I know that you're not a bot though? Wait, how do I know I'm not a bot? I feel human but that could be what the bot is programmed to feel. I'm human though, I feel it down to the transistor level.
>>84913800>I just have mild autism.*I just have cripplingly dehibilitating autismftfy champ
>>84913800Since you decided to be in a body, you put everyone else in bodies as well, and you attached an ego to every person you see, because you chose the ego's system of thought instead of the Holy Spirit's.So, you're right. What you're seeing with your physical eyes is not reality.
>>84913815I have stopped thinking that way after a while, others arent "people" to me anymore
>>84913815But are eyes really real life? Or is this just fanta sea? Caught in a landsliiiiide....
>>84913822'people' is just a tag you can choose to use or not. It makes no difference. You're still deluded thinking that what you see is reality.
>>84913800> you are botnets created to confuse meNope.>I have lived through ridiculous circumstancesNo, your circumstances are similar to mine.>cartoonishly bullied by students and teachers, isolated, rejectedWhen I was in high school I was bullied and called a weirdo, people gossiped loudly in front of me and said I had school shooter vibes, I have been repeatedly ostracized by all of my peers, and teachers come up to me and either ask me to open my backpack or give me weird stares. I'm not fat and keep to myself. I never spoke in class or to others, and would always accommodate for the requests of my classmates in group projects. I know I'm not alone in this because someone similar to me, albeit with significantly worse hygiene and autism, would sperg out and share porn or be weird with anyone who tried to get close to him, which made people treat him like me. The difference is that no one tried to get close to me, and all of the interactions people were forced to have with me were polite and cordial. They often softened up once they got to know me and work on a project with me, but they would never approach me of their own free will. So I know for certain I'm not an autist who pushes others away.A few months ago when helping a man after his epilepsy attack, I noticed a girl giving me a disgusting stare from the corner of my eye. A week ago, as I was walking down the halls of my university, I saw a group of girls stare with horrified expressions at my appearance. I keep myself tidy, albeit with neck-length hair, but shampoo and use a hair dryer. I take daily showers, iron my clothes, trim my nails, brush my teeth, and maintain a low profile and never look at others.>for being femaleWhy did I even bother speaking to you. This whole thread is a larp or fedpost.
>>84913844i am saying this because all of you people always say that only YOU can experience this, that females cruise through life with amazing social groups and whatever, that I must be some sort of anomoly
>>84913855If you aren't fat and ugly I find it hard to believe no one would bear with you. I also doubt you could be automatically ostracized from society and given death stares on the daily by everyone, regardless of race or gender. Despite my doubts, I've never heard anyone say female struggles aren't real. Many people know that women gossip and backstab within friend groups far more than men do.
>>84913873I find it hard to believe TOO, it feels like the world was set up to force me into ridiculous circumstances and everything I ever hear should contradict them
>>84913883You claim your family is unsupportive. I can believe that. You claim you haven't seen men treated as badly as you. I can believe that. But why would you be bullied by students and teachers? Do you live in a third-world shithole? Do you have a lisp? You must be lying about something. Just having mild autism isn't enough, the only way people get ostracized is through a combination of autism and looks.
>>84913898I live in a hick town so people here are extra intolerant of anyone even slightly differing from the norm, certain teachers just loved to pick on me and call me out at random because they were just fucking insane I guess. I wasnt born in this town so I was automatically seen as an outsider even though I lived there for years
>>84913800I have never seen evidence of a femcel, despite staking out several sorority houses.
>>84913908A brown foid autist. Ahaha good larp. Waste of my time./thread
>>84913909"femcels" or whatever you are looking for dont live in sororities, they are full of incredibly popular cliquey type women
>>84913919I am causasian, both my parents are european and I have sickly pale skin
>>84913930You would post hand and tits if this was actually the case.
>>84913938you retards can have my hand, nothing more than that
>>84913959Do you live in a basement? What the fuck is that background.Also this isn't proof unless you write the number of the thread and make a shadow animal of a rabbit, but I'll believe you for now. List one story where you have been "comically" bullied in your community, and explain why you are viewed as a outside/how people even know you are an outsider.
>>84913977Yes I do live in a basement, specifically my mothers basement, just as the stereotypes say. Not making a rabbit shadow animal idk how to do that sounds difficult and my fingers are stiff. I'll give you one example of being comically bullied by a teacher and one by students, my compsci teacher (female) hated be despite me being her top student, because I was able to figure things out/work on my own easily without much guildance, and because I would miss some portion of classes due to intense social anxiety. She would write lengthy critical emails to my parents whenever I even slightly went wrong in anything, like if I misattached part of a project or missed a certain class, she only ever did this to me despite a portion of her class having failing grades. These emails only stopped when the school informed her that I was in the hospital for a failed suicide attempt. One example of being bullied quite comically by students is when it had been my birthday, and I got a message from a classmate that they were coming over to give me a "present" with some others. I went outside to see what this was about and a classmate with some friends had handed me a bag that had various pieces of furry memorabelia that they had got from spencers or something, and a card making fun of me, (I was frequently called a furry by others even though I wasnt because thats apparently the worst thing you can be to these people), they then drove off laughing at me to hang out together without me. This was so comical that I had to take a moment to figure out if what was happening to me was real or not.
>>84914022>she only ever did this to me despite a portion of her class having failing gradesThat sucks. What programming language did you learn?>various pieces of furry memorabelia that they had got from spencersThat's funny. Did you correct or intellectually out-compete them in some way?
>>84913800you can tell which ones are bots because they are trained on reddit posts and mostly on /pol/
>>84914046>That sucks. What programming language did you learn?We learned C# and Java in class>That's funny. Did you correct or intellectually out-compete them in some way?Not that I can recall of
>>84913800That's a good specimen. Answer some questions, please. Did you have any friends? Even briefly.What's your opinion of people when you don't think they are bots? Do you think you could connect with them and gain some value out of your interactions?Do you have a job? If yes, do you care who your coworkers are?What's the purpose of your life? If you don't have a general one, what is it currently?Do you receive any male attention? Excluding out of politeness and by creeps.Has anyone who's a stranger ever want to talk to you? Just talk.>>84913959Wow, that's an autistic woman hand if I seen one.
>>84914134>That's a good specimen. Answer some questions, please.ok>Did you have any friends? Even briefly.I had a few people who I used to talk to about mutual interests early highschool, but I didnt have any classes with them later years due to being in the academic program and they wouldnt respond to any of my messages>What's your opinion of people when you don't think they are bots? Do you think you could connect with them and gain some value out of your interactions?I could, most people here in this town are incredibly simple, with not much to them>Do you have a job? If yes, do you care who your coworkers are?Currently have a min wage job and am nearing the end of my gap year, all my coworkers are old and dont speak to me outside of small talk>What's the purpose of your life? If you don't have a general one, what is it currently?You have to make a purpose to your life, I keep living because I want a job in my field of study someday and because I love my (fictional) husbando>Do you receive any male attention? Excluding out of politeness and by creeps.no, but to be fair I dont go outside much>Has anyone who's a stranger ever want to talk to you? Just talk.Ive had crackheads ask me for money>Wow, that's an autistic woman hand if I seen one.What does that mean
>>84914167>I couldSo you do? Who do you like talking to? Mostly anons?>I keep living because I want a job in my field of study somedayGood. That's a mature position to take. Do you think it's because of your autism? Do you have enough dedication to your field to have proper education?I have a feeling you never had any personal connection. Like love or genuine friendship. Something where you need a person to feel better. Is it true? What do you think about it then? Is it okay to stay like this for you?>What does that meanMeans exactly that, they look like that.
>>84914231>So you do? Who do you like talking to? Mostly anons?I guess so, I speak to anons and I always tried being nice to and making friends with others back when I was in highschool>Good. That's a mature position to take. Do you think it's because of your autism? Do you have enough dedication to your field to have proper education?partially because of my autism, partially because I idealize working in that field in a sense>Do you have enough dedication to your field to have proper education?I am starting my bachelors when the summer ends but also self study a lot because a degree doesnt really cover most of what I want to do >I have a feeling you never had any personal connection. Like love or genuine friendship. Something where you need a person to feel better. Is it true? What do you think about it then? Is it okay to stay like this for you?I am a very sensitive person and am in mental pain all the time
>>84914253>I am a very sensitive personIt's a normal trait for you to have. But you have more measured views than just someone being on emotions all the time. Do you take antidepressants? What about xanax or antipsychotics? What do you do besides studying and using internet throughout your day? Do you get stuck in some behaviors because of your mental pain? Like bedrotting, with music or without.
>>84914296>do you take medswhen I was in the mental ward they tried to make me take zoloft or some other antidepressant I dont remember what it was specifically, those arent good for you, I dont need that, I would pretend to swallow them in the morning as the nurse asked, but then I would spit them back up when in the bathroom where there were no cameras. I am far more prone to negative emotion than the average person, I was taking this supplement called ashwagandha for a while because I heard it helped with anxiety and such and it did, but my parents made me stop because it could flare up genetic autoimmune disease. I think I have something mentally genetically wrong with me, I have been ridiculously neurotic since I was a little kid, theres probably something out there that would help me idk>What do you do besides studying and using internet throughout your day? I work, read, consume media (games/shows/movies), and like exercising >Do you get stuck in some behaviors because of your mental pain? Like bedrotting, with music or without.yes, I often ruminate for hours on end and have become quite self aware due to such, when I was on the suicide hotline once, the lady unprompted told me that I am very articulate and self aware of my circumstances and how they affect me and what is wrong with me
at least 60-80% of humanity are soulless material constructs (hylics, normies, npcs)not all humans have souls and a divine sparkthese npcs are nonsensically hostile towards you and run scripts to farm loosh and keep you ignorant and trick you into attachments
>>84914346thanks for the knowledgable insight
>>84913800it's a mix of paranoid schizophrenia but also you are a lolcow and you have invited anonymous internet trolls to harass you and also you are their captive audience due to your hypervigilance (inability to stop checking your environment for real or imagined signs of danger).
>>84913800fake post fake thread fake life
