Whenever I see normal people, whether outside, online or in shows, I think about how far away these people are from me and how far removed I am from them. I could never fraternize with them because I'm simply too odd and mentally ill which makes itself clear to anyone who talks to me for more than a few seconds. Their autist detector goes off and they no longer wish to associate themselves with me further. Even being surrounded by people, I'm trapped by an insivible barrier that makes me unable to connect to anyone.This is why I also can't connect to fiction. I see people interacting with each other in fiction, and I think, "But what if I was in there? What if I was the one who had to interact with them?" And I know that the answer would probably always be overwhelmingly unfavorable to me.The only people I can actually talk to are people who are also mentally ill and terminally online. But they're online and they're mentally ill.
maybe you could find someone whose autism matches (or complements) your own, personal autism?
>>84918577I've had quite a hard time finding such a person who compliments or comprehends me either online or in real life. Real life is pretty much a lost cause as every autist is like me, a socially anxious recluse who doesn't show himself in the real world, but I don't feel any particular attachment to online autists as well
>>84918561I relate to what you said, I try not to think about how my favorite characters would react to me if I was there, but sometimes my mind plays those scenarios.>But they're online and they're mentally illHey, this applies to you too
>>84918601>Hey, this applies to you tooI have double standards and I recognize it>Sometimes my mind plays those scenarios.Same thing, I try to not think about it too much, but I can't really feel for characters nor can I put myself in their situation, because I actually put myself in their situation, and I know that I'd probably also be dejected in or unable to navigate that situation.
>>84918561Ed Kemper had a great monologue about this. Granted the thought came to him when he was walking down stairs with a head in a bag, but it's a core part of an outcast's identity.
>>84918577Not OP but I've never encountered an autist I feel like I'm on the same wavelength as. Autists are either too anal, actually retarded or both. I feel too weird for normal people and too normal for weird people. The only friends I have are people I've met on gooning servers, degenerates I've realized are my people.
>>84919333Many years ago the board had a term for us, cyborgs, half robot, back when robot was used to mean autist.
>>84918561I was watching Friends and I found it so bizarre that Ross was saying six months was an insanely long amount of time to go without sex.
