I can't stop thinking about my childhood where I was raped by my family members. I did acid recently and all the memories came back, I can't sleep at night anymore. I don't know what I can do because I'll never be a normal person, they never went to prison and nobody else knows.I think I might have ptsd or something from it now. I've mostly blocked the worst parts from my brain but it always comes back. I could've told someone it was happening but I didn't, I was too scared and now it's too late.
>>84925901>now it's too late.no it's not
>>84925901Was it a gangbang of males on you where they treated you like a piece of fuck meat?
>>84925901It is okay to be scared and it isn't too late I hope you know that you are human and things can get better
>>84925913Youre probably gonna jerk off to this but idc since I never get to talk about it. But no it was my two cousins so not really a gangbang situation
>>84925901did you know this before you took acid? if it only surfaced doing the trip it might have been a bad trip playing tricks on your mind
>>84925917Thank you anon. It is too late though I don't want to ruin their lives. Things do get better gradually
>>84925922I knew before it was just the drugs making me think about it unfortunately. I didn't even want to take it bc of this i just got pressured into it
>>84925921I am, but if it makes you feel better I was molested by my baby sitter and sucked my friend's wieners when we were kids. I came out normal and wouldn't let it give me a bad trip.Fucking your cousins sound hot if your arab, like if it was a hot afghan day in a mud hut, and you are all smoking hookah and they get wild and start touching you inappropriately. Also when it comes to people from bigger families, they tend to get molested more by their siblings and extended family.
>>84925929That's the thing it isn't about ruining their lives it is preventing them from ruining others
>>84925948I'm not arab I'm just a poor white. I didn't have a big family or whatever but i got moved into my aunts house with them when I was a kid and it started happening. It's pretty common where im from unforunately. Sorry about your babysitter situation anon, I think it affected me more than u maybe lol
>>84925929its actually crazy how under reported these things must be because people tend to be considerate like this when it involves people who they are close to. how old were you? how are they doing now? if they were kids when it happened they might not even have thought about it afterwards
>>84925901Due to what statutory rape laws call rape, usage of the phrase child rape doesnt tell me anything worthy of note. Id appreciate if you would use more nuanced language that is respectful to the sexual agency of underage people. Sexual bonding is just like any other kind of bonding. The word incest is just another way of saying familial bonding. If the young person says yes to it, its morally neutral.
>>84925959Poor white is hot too, I'd imagine a golden afternoon on a small Appalachian trailer park, You all find your uncle's meth stash and decide to smoke it, and get horny and start fucking.
>>84925901You should rape them back twice as hard as they raped you.
>>84925982you sound like a dork
>>84925964I was 8-11 or 12? They were both 16 and 14 when it started so not at all a similar age. It was also happening for years at a time so i know it wasn't a one time thing they felt guilty for. The older one lives 7 hours away from me and had his own family now. Works a normal blue collar type job. I haven't spoken to him in years. Younger one lives an hour away and is engaged to a woman, can't remember what he does for work specifically its tech shit
>>84925952Childhood sexual bonding doesn't ruin any lives. What causes mental distress are puritan adults raising moral outrage over sexually active minors. The alleged victims of stat rape only mind afterwards when they are told they ought to, they never mind it when it goes on because the concept of statutory rape is a social construct. I think people who try their hardest to teach kids that sex is evil, are the true child molesters.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TV41PyKpOVMhttps://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/GG_Allin
>>84925952I don't think they'd do it to someone other than me. I don't want their kids to grow up thinking that their dad is a bad person or growing up without a dad at all because of it. They're not bad people besides from what they did to me. Idk, I wish I did something earlier
>>84925996You ever plot about revenge, or do you just goon about it to cope instead
>>84926067idk ceasar chavez recently had that girl come out about raping her, and sexually assaulting her. She kept silent for decades and only came out because another victim did. How violent was it?
>>84926071I try not to think about it and I rarely masturbate bc I don't want to remember. No exciting revenge plan. Its bad because i don't hate them or want them dead. they were good family to me besides from that. I just wish they never did it in the first place and I don't understand why
>>84926086It varied kind of on the violence. They did a lot of other especially violent stuff to me for no reason. Sometimes they'd be more aggressive and sometimes not. If anyone else came out about it I would tell. I don't have the guts desu. A lot of victims just want to forget about it
>>84926088well they did it because it was fun for them, so how can they be good people.
>>84926102Can you elaborate on the violence in some neutral language, just wondering how much you're willing to excuse. How were they good family to you besides that?
>>84926088>I rarely masturbate bc I don't want to rememberdoes that mean that when you do masturbate it's to that, or things adjacent to that?
>>84926116Well they'd rape me orally and vaginally almost daily, pee on me/ make me drink their pee, hit me in the face and on my body, anal sometimes, say they'd kill me. They didn't talk about it at all when they weren't doing it. They'd be more like normal family, they were more like brothers to me because I was living with them for so long. Idk they always helped me if something was wrong and spent time with me. They made me feel better about the other bad stuff that happened in my life idk. I don't think they're bad people in general
>>84926150I'll pee on them for you.
>>84926131No, sorry to disappoint you gooners. I legit only masturbate like once every couple of months because if I think about sex I'll just be like arghfufhr remember what happened and then it will ruin my mood. I also still have a lot of chronic pelvic pain and pain in my stomach bc of it
>>84926162You need to be sexed high on shrooms by a man who won't pee on you, do anal, or ask for a blowjob, or hit you.
I wouldn't post about it here, half the freaks are probably masturbating to it. >they were good family to me besides from that. I just wish they never did it in the first place and I don't understand whyYou have been severely groomed OP, genuinely. Nobody who repeatedly rapes you as a fucking 11 year old girl is a "good" family member. They're an evil POS. I understanding not wanting to ruin lives, not wanting things to come out into the open. It's all your choice. Don't downplay it to yourself though, this is a horrific childhood trauma you've gone through and I feel utter empathy for you. It's nothing like you but I was sexually assaulted while drunk by a supposed friend (another male) and it seriously messed with my head. I remember sitting jn the shower just scrubbing and crying and could not get this feeling of filth off my body. Sexual assault is an utter violation of agency, of the self, of a young girl's own journey to discover her sexuality. It's an assault on someone's soul. When I was in prison they wouldn't even let sex offenders on mainstream because they'd get stabbed up. In the next unit one guy came in with a statutory rape charge. It was like 19 years and 15 year old girl. 1/2
>>84925901I don't remember my childhood and I'm pretty sure it's because my parents molested me. I'm a middle age male and my life is shit. With no way to fix it. Even tried therapy
>>84926174He got cornered and had his face smashed in and split with a paddle tennis bat. Even the absolute scum criminals of society hate sex offenders. Nobody has the right to use another person's body for their own pleasure, to the detriment of the other person. Do yoy have any close friends you could confide in? Or a therapist? I never told a single person about my assault because of the shame of being homosexually assaulted by another male. I don't know if that was the right choice. And having been to prison and knowing how the legal system works, man I really don't think the stress and bullshit and money and corruption of going to the police would even be worth it. It's like, retraumatizing yourself. If it makes you feel better one of my ex gfs had the same thing happen to her-> virginity (raped) from her by an older cousin when she was like 12. She said she just didn't understand at all and thought it was normal but as she grew older and learned about autonomy and rights and her own sexuality she HATED him. And guess what he fucking killed himself. Hung himself. So there's some justice at least. She feels better now he's gone. (Hopefully to hell)
>>84926162Honestly you need serious therapy that is fucking horrific what you've gone through
>>84926182He probably didn't hang himself if he was in jail when it happened, lolBut poor guy, 15 years old is legal in Europe, had he lived in a country where they don't stigmatize sex then it probably would have ended with them just being a hook up, cause it seems like she was not really compassionate to her lover.
>>84926204No, *I* went to jail. The guy who raped my ex gf (at 12) hung himself in the free world. My point was that even an edge case like 19 and 15 is looked down severely even by scum criminals. So op needs to understand that her "family" members are NOT good people. They are evil pos who need to be stabbed up.
>>84926204sorry i didn't really read what he was saying, but still the other guy would be kind of expected when you figure woman start developing around that age.
>>84926224If your sister is 15, are you okay with her getting fucked by a 19 year old man?
>>84926162Glad to hear it honestly, I hear differently alot and I'm ngl it's moral damage to me everytime>>84926150It just sounds like you were groomed, obviously they have to be nice to you or you are likely to tell your parents. Yeah no they're raping their kids rn probably
>>84926150Don't you think being nice to you makes their actions extra evil? I mean if they rape their kid and buy them ice cream afterwards, they're still rapists. Why did you forgive them?
>>84926241I wouldn't think my sister would be retarded at 15. I would've banged a teacher when i was 14, that's like freshman highschool.Also the whole premise to that 80's movie fast time at Ridgemont high was a similar story, except she got an abortion.If I was a young girl I would probably think of older men. But probably like a young mid 20's teacher. I have AGP, so I like imagining myself being a slut.
>>84926174>>84926175I'm really sorry this all happened to you anon. Its a terrible feeling, I feel sorry that so many people can relate. I don't want to hold resentment in my heart for it, it weighs on you to live with hate. I know that I should hate them but I can't find the energy in myself, it wasn't always violent or horrible. I miss them sometimes which is fucked up ik. I want them to apologise to me maybe one day and we can all move on from it. I often wonder if they even think about it? Or if they feel bad about it. I never heard them speak about it together. Im sorry about what happened between you and your friend, it's the worst thing someone can go through really.
>>84926285I haven't forgave them but I just want to forget about it. I don't think they're evil people for it (which i probably should) I just wish they never did in the first place. I wish that we could get our memories removed somehow
>>84926308so you suffer alot for it, and you can't even masturbate, so they probably ruined intimacy for you, which for alot of people is the only reason to exist. And they have no regret, and they're likely to do it to others, and now they have kids of their own who they have even more power over, and they get off on having power and they're going to rape their kids or are currently raping their kids and you hug them and treat them like family because?
>>84926308why did the rape stop btw? did they lose access to you or did you get too old for them
>>84926323Well I haven't seen or talked to both of them in years. They know that I haven't forgiven them. I don't think they'd do it to their own kids, or i hope they wouldnt. The older one with kids only has boys but idk maybe they would do it to a male too. I had a lot more resentment over it when I was a teenager and still living in the place where it happened with them. I'm just too tired now to be so angry all the time. I'm sorry if this makes me a bad victim or something
>>84926150>they made me feel better about the other bad stuff that happened in my lifewhat other stuff?
>>84926337I got my period and they were scared I'd end up pregnant if they kept going. Also the older one was in the process of moving out so
>>84926297>I miss them sometimes which is fucked up ik. I want them to apologise to me maybe one day and we can all move on from it.I think you should try and find a support group or something, even online. You have been severely groomed. The idea that someone can just say "sorry" for repeatedly violently raping you (and even if it wasn't a violent rape, it's still a rape because you could not consent or understand what was happening) is absurd. You get a 25 year fucking sentence for that. I don't think you understand the magnitude of the crime(s) that you were a victim of. I'm just so sorry for you op, so deeply sorry.
>>84926346I'm only addressing you calling them good family members, and being worried about ruining they life with their kids when all indicators point to them raping them, or otherwise mistreating them. >I'm sorry if this makes me a bad victim or somethingI don't know what this kind of language means, Why don't you think they would rape their kids again?
>>84926355so they don't even regret it, and only stopped out of practical concerns. What other stuff was happening in your life, that you seem to actually love these people? you have a fucked up baseline and I want to know why.
>>84926346>I'm sorry if this makes me a bad victim or somethingNo such fucking thing. Don't ever feel guilt about how you choose to react, or even involuntarily react. This just shows further the harm of sexual assault, that the victim now has to advocate for justice and be the perfect victim and show courage and be a voice for other victims and bla bla fuck off. Your reaction and how you choose to respond is your choice to make and never feel guilty about it. YOU are the victim, and your rapists need to be the ones living in guilt (and hell).
>>84925976retard its pretty claer what he means from context
>>84926396>therapy language bullshit
>>84926390Getting physically abused by my mother so severely that I was removed from the home and she lost all custody which then led to this whole situation in the first place lmao. I don't love them but I don't hate them yk?
>>84925901Look into trauma processing, anon. There's things you can do for yourself and trauma therapy is different than the surface level stuff. May help you either have someone walk you through it or do it yourself. I'm really sorry that happened to you, been through similar. It's difficult but not hopeless.
>>84926371Thank you for your kindness. I have friends that have been through similar stuff that are always trying to get me to talk about it to them. It usually doesn't work idk im a pretty closed off person. I do see the magnitude of the crimes like if one of my friends said this happened to them I'd think it was the worst thing ever but with me I knew that i could handle it mentally? Like I'd rather It happen to me than someone else that would've handled it worse and died
>>84926416I've never been to therapy in my life. I'm speaking as a victim of sexual assault myself.
>>84926416You have no idea what you're talking about and are seriously uneducated and ignorant. Go be an ass in another thread.
>>84926440so if I'm understanding this right they saw you were going through alot, and took advantage of that situation to groom and exploit you. The affection that you felt from them wasn't real, are you aware of that now as an adult or do you bounce between different narcissistic chuds that abuse you now because you're unable to distinguish real from fake
This kind of shit makes me empathize with alieen wuornos
>>84925948>I came out normallmao
>>84926471I'm aware of it i think. I don't date now or anything, I've never had normal sex with anyone. I think im basically asexual now or something
>>84926501do you crave fake affection still or does it disgust you now?
>>84926509Not really. Sometimes I wish that I could exist in a universe where they never did what they did to me and we could've just been a normal family
>>84926521such a universe would only exist if your mom cared about you, and didn't let you be vulnerable to rapists.
>>84926531It was my aunt who i had to live with. Typical family situation single mom caregiver always working long hours. It really could've been prevented. Most of the guardians in these situations have a "my kids would never do this" kind of mindset which endangers everyone
>>84926455It doesn't do me any good to try and forget about it I know. It always just ends up coming back to you
>>84926580yeah I don't mean to drag it out but my point really was that even if the circumstance was different and they didn't have the access to rape you they would still be rapists. Btw: you implied that you went on to date rapists in the future. I know someone young who's on this pipeline, what kind of advice would you have for them?
>>84926609Idk where you got that from I've never been on a date before really lol. I don't have advice for your friend in that regard sorry. Advice I would give about men in general after being in this kind of situation is that they should remember that not all men are rapists and to be open towards dating and relationships (what i want to achieve one day) while still being cautious, if that person wants a family one day they're going to have to date and stuff so try to not let your past experiences scare you away from new people
>>84926650oh you're right you wrote you never dated before, I just read "never had normal sex" and assumed alot. that's on me. Hey how old are you? I've been assuming you were middle aged this whole time
>>84926686I'm not middle aged I'm 20 man shit. The trauma has aged me probably
>>84926717You're in the flower of your youth still, hope you get dicked down soon by someone who actually loves you and that you feel safe with.
>>84925901repressed memories you suddenly unlock aren't a thing, that's hollywood shit
>>84926717i'm 36, you still a little bb. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=neFpFiuvYsQ
>>84925901I did cid and now I have PTSD because I was a sperg who was naive about how shit my childhood was and it sent me into a full panic attack.
>>84926754Thank you anon. Maybe one day when things are better
>>84926772Obviously not what op was saying
>>84926150Kek, sounds like every other hentai rape with no actual fighting back, just giving out a limp wristed nyoo while leting everything happen and coming back for more while not doing anything about it inbetween the daily fake rape lol
>>84927775What is an 8 year old girl supposed to do about it? Fight back??
>>84927775It wasn't like full on screaming crying rape 90% of the time. They'd just come into my room while I was doing other shit and then finish up in like 30 minutes and leave me alone for the rest of the night I don't know what people expect me to have done when i tell them, like if i told my aunt about it or a teacher or something I'd get removed from the house and end up in the foster system or something worse. They said they'd kill me and they could've probably. Idk. It's just not worth fighting back after a while. Rape hentai is disgusting though and anyone that watches it should go to prison
>>84927792Yes, scream, bite, call for help, if they would have really beat the girl the bruises will be proof the next day, kids have much less fear then some pussy adult. But ofc she enjoyed it or else she would plan an acid attack on their dicks right now.
>>84928635an eight year old isn't going to think that deeply, and her mom was already beating her ass.
>>84928498Yeah they would totally kill a 12 year old realtive you dumb cunt. But i bet you are actually that degen loli poster who spams here every day.
>>84928635Even if she screamed for help who would be there to help her? Niggas are so slow
>>84928664They could've
Holy shit nobody cares foid
Lol this is such bullshit psychological judo, you don't even care that it happened it's just the idea of it is so culturally loaded you feel like you're supposed to feel bad, you never gave a shit until you spontaneously remembered it on a degenerate drug binge, let it go and move on don't turn it into a complex when you clearly have the ability to compartmentalize it effectively
>>849286528 year olds routinely have their IQs tested for entry into gifted programs because intelligence is already stabilized, an 8 year old can easily comprehend that situation unless you're profoundly retarded
Also this is a larper guys take note of the pissing motif, they've been up all night baiting idiots into responding to this fake story
>>84928751Idc if they're larping I'm horny
Hey OP I think your thread got raided by a samefagging tranny who wishes they were raped as a girl or some shit. I hope you're not insecure enough to think that their thoughts matter.
>>84928868OP this is an Indian simp so that should automatically delegitimize his empty words of comfort that he's using as an eventual rape vector
>>84926001Rape is not "sexual bonding", it's torture.
>>84929031It's a thread about an 8 year old being raped, you don't have to apply the blackpill to everything. if it helps you try to imagine OP as male so you can stop seething so hard.
