>too traumatized to enjoy sex>almost always have to stop and get a drink of water to calm down at least once >which often kills the mood entirely>also black out>and/or start sobbing and breaking downit's overnobody wants to be with a broken loser who's been raped and abused too many times to even be able to be intimate normallyI can't even share a bed with my dog, let alone another person, without almost having a panic attack. sex is scary and triggering, and the ghosts of past experiences keep hounding mefuck rapists fuck child groomers fuck sexually abusive fathers it's all shit and society expects me to contribute and not kill myself when the hurt never goes awayfuck that I didn't ask to be here or get raped I just want an easy life, but I'm too fucked in the head to find someone to spend it with
At least you got laid.
>>84928036Mushroom therapy time
>>84928058I did that and it was helpfulI realized that the actions of those who raped me stained only them, and that it said nothing about me. It's not quite done a lot for the flashbacks though, but it did help reframe my perspective
Sorry to hear that, I think you have a chance though, just gotta find a guy that's patient and understanding. I could vibe with a girl like that so I know they exist.
