who else here has been diagnosed with narcissistic personality disorder, and of their own will to be diagnosed? love the label, honestly. takes power back from my malignant narcissist mother who beat the shit out of me and probably fantasized about killing me. hope that bitch takes a long steak knife and slits her throat. haven't seen her in several years, but i just want her dead. would do the world a favor. maybe she'd stab right in between her chest, and she'd bleed out thinking of her missing father and stepfather who raped her. fuck her, she ruined my life. not that i've lived w her since the age of 8, but my emotional trajectory. i cannot connect with other people. my longest relationship is 3 weeks. i am very mentally ill, and i am barely keeping it together. all i do is coax out clients saying they love me for this and that. fuck her. telling my little half sister to starve, to milk herself. that ugly piece of shit needs to just get on with it and kill herself. glad she was raped, honestly, least that she deserves, that stupid fucking bitch
>tfw too narcissistic to be diagnosed with narcissistic personality disorder
Your edginess in this day and age is boring and trite. You are nothing.
>>84928114i can literally envision how you are posting this. try something else
replying to myself, but do you want to know the only time she ever said sorry? when she used this toy, ~8 inch long firetruck and hit it across my face. i was around 7, maybe? her apologies are always self focused. shit caused a nosebleed, thankfully no broken nose.sometimes, my little half sister texts me shit ab my mother. how my mother tells her to kill herself, how the world would be better off her, telling her to starve, yada yada. my mother abuses her own animals, too. think she has a dog whose ribs are showing? lol. i am so so so so much of a better person than my mother, it's comical. my entire trajectory is fucked because of her. i am supposed to be exemplary. not to be an overbeaten stereotype, but i was off to so many several state competitions purely due to my own intellect alone. i alone was the arbiter in my mother's court case, at the age of eight. could my little siblings ever do that? never. i alone was the reason she never ended up in jail, and she should be grateful. but , she is unable to view anyone else as anything but extensions of herself. she was born in 1986, and myself 2005. i don't ever see family. but when she dies of old age in the 2060s and 2070s? i'll fucking savor it
>>84928116You can't envision anything. NPD brains are boring, dull, scattered pieces of legos. You aren't even interesting. Every 19 year old loser on the internet is a carbon copy of you.
>>84928173Fuck. This single post gave me psychic damage.
physically? i was removed form the situation around june 2, 2014, give or take 3 weeks. my trauma responses are incredibly pervasive, though. i am borderline theatrical with people i've dated. i don't know how to be *real* with others. all i want is mommy mommy mommy, but i can't get it>just get over it lolsober? sure, for the most part. inebriated? it's everything. not flashbacks, not her as a person. but the hatred? that's constant. my own father had a stepfather who was a piece of shit to him, and his own mother. that stepfather died in around 2009, and my father laughed when the news dropped, saying "good riddance". it's so incredibly ironic, i know that day will come for me when i am in my father's shoes, and i can't wait. that's the day i will become him.my father is not a bad person, even if he annoys me and he has disagreements. i'll forever trust him with my life, and i know i can rely on him for anything. he's childish in some ways, endearing to his wife, but still dad. the amount of times he's dodged death, from the war in afghanistan (bullet close to his forehead, a landmine that should've taken him out but malfunctioned, among others). pure, dumb luck.if i lived with my mother? i think i'd be in prison already. forever thankful that i was brave enough at the age of 8 to describe, in great detail, the horrific abuse my mother inflicted upon me. the marks around my neck were enough, but verbally. i just want that bitch dead already, but she's only 40. got a long way to go
>>84928173and if i never told you i had NPD? which framework gave you the idea for this reply? could you have still noticed? how?
