Femshlubs, how much do you loath yourself? Is it because you're a woman or for another reason? Should anyone treat you with respect?
>>84928618They all hate themselves because women are supposed to be the greatest thing in the world and yet they constantly see their own evil in themselves. It results in an impostor syndrome
>>84928618I hate myself because I am living in a loop and I need to break this faggot cycle.
Anal hating femanon needs to come back.
>>84928638Loops can be really funny.https://www.youtube.com/shorts/m84PUcWA1HA
>>84928618Well i hate myself quite a lot.>because you are a woman?No because i'm mentally ill and because of that i'm locked out of being able to do like 80% of normal life things that regular people get to do, also because i fucked up my Dad's life and i'm just a turbo burden to him.>Should anyone treat you nice?I mean i think everyone should treat everyone nice, would be a better world if everyone is just nice to each other. But i shouldn't be praised for what i'm, absolutely not. A lot of people will praise disabilities and promote how "no these people aren't disabled burdens to everyone, they are special, they are normal, no, BETTER than normal actually!". No we fucking aren't. We are genetical mistakes of cruel nature or a cruel god if he exists, and we are born to suffer and to make everyone around us suffer with our existance. There is nothing fucking special or beautiful about us.
>>84928658I bet your dad doesn't think that about you.
>>84928673I don't know, i don't want him to but at the same time i also kinda feel like he should because i deserve it.He got married at 18 to his school gf, he had a house he inherited after his Mom (last living family member) died couple months prior to the marriage, he had a good job, no debt, stable living, loving wife, and they decided to have a kid at 19, because life was just that good and stable.Then i was born, with my turbo severe neurotic SPD, i got latched onto Dad which meant i couldn't develop any love for Mom, nor could i handle her touch, or voice, or anything. Strained household for 12 years after which Mom decided to leave because she wanted to enjoy what was left out of her youth and didn't want to bother raising this defect child anymore. She ass raped Dad in the divorce and he had to sell the house to pay her the share she won in court, and we had to move. He has no one except me now, and can't really have friends over or women, had one over like 8 years ago but it ended in a problem and he had to kick her out. I love him as much as i can for never abandoning me or just kicking me out and leaving me to die under some bridge and caring for me and wanting to spend time with me every day, but still, i'm very aware of the fact this is my fault he ended up where he is, and i'm sure he is aware of it too, and somewhere down there he must at least somewhat blame me and wish he wasn't cursed with this burden bitch with all her problems.
>>84928618I don't hate myself for being a woman, I've mostly accepted it now. It sucks but it's not like you can change it really. I don't believe any woman should be treated with respect. Women basically contribute nothing to this earth that couldn't be done by a man except sliding out bloody slimy crying tiny humans like twice in her life. It's a very meaningless and sad existence.
>>84928824There there girl. Just find a guy and treat him like this.
>>84928824What do you think of FTMs?
>>84928704Hug your dad tomorrow. It will help.
>>84928836I really feel for them. I've never thought of being one because I'd be an ugly man lol but I definitely see why they do it. The sad reality is that 95% of ftms don't pass and just end up looking like super ugly/malformed women and at best manlets. But I understand wanting to escape your own gender
>>84928644I cannot take her beong around, so I'll say it:You are all faggots in denial.
>>84928843Not that anon, but I'd love to take a repressed pooner, fuck her in the ass and call her a 'good boy.'
>>84928837I hugged him today. Still doesn't make me feel lees guilty.
>>84928704Wow anon, that is some gut wrenching stuff right there and here I thought what I had going on with me was rough. Im sorry to read that and I sympathize with you. However, you have a dad that loves you very much and just hold onto him tight because life is rough. Idk what else to say because that story I just read has got me perplexed. Dont be so hard on yourself and have you at least talked with your dad about your feelings on this? I feel like it would help clear up a lot things for you.
>>84929183Look thank you for sympathizing with me, i wish it could mean more to me than it does, but as said i can't really develop these feelings. I still have wants for friendship and companion and shit, but i tried online friendships before too, can't do it.Anyway my point is, it's nice you sympathize but really i just gave a compressed version. Basically my neurotic SPD makes it so that i can't handle human contact. Voices are like screams in my ears, and touch is much worse, floods me with phantom pain and triggers violent outbursts or neurotic seizures. My Dad is the only person excluded from this condition, everyone else including Mom was basically instant problem. I really mean it, i'm a mega social alien, and except for my Dad, i have never in my life had a succesful 1 sentence long back and forth conversation with another human being.My Mom insisted nothing is wrong with me and i was just a missbehaving brat so i was forced into regular school which was just endless daily sensory torture + bullying because it's funny to watch the mentally ill girl scream in pain while having a seizure on the ground when you surprise hug her from behind somehow. Only got diagnosed when i was in second year high school when i became so critically underweight i collapsed. It gets worse too. Since my Dad is literally the only person whos touch is soothing and whom i love, over the years those feelings grew into a very very unhealthy attraction that i'm constantly struggling with. Because i know it's wrong and because if i told him about it, it would just hurt him. Meds help but still i can't turn off my brain fully and i'm still the insane me.So yeah there is so many things i could tell my Dad that would hurt him, even telling him i blame myself for everything would probably hurt him, and i don't wanna do that. I already caused him so many problems, what good would adding more onto the pile do?
