Why was I cursed with overwhelming empathy and love towards my family? It's preventing me from an hero-ing and is holding me hostage in this world.
>>84932142>overwhelming empathy and love towards my familyNigga please>It's preventing me from an hero-ingMy plan is to do it in a discrete location. The Japanese have the right idea by doing it in the woods.
>>84932142Get in the robot girl! For the greater good!DONT disappoint your father!
>>84932264I want to do it after they're both dead, but even then I have a sibling who would be traumatized by it. My hatred for life has nothing to do with any of them, and they all give it their all to make my life as good as possible. I don't want to hurt them, they don't deserve it. I just don't want this. I hate the responsibilites and dissappointments.
I hate the beauties of this life also. They are rare and it makes me hurt even more when I'm deprived of them, which is 90% of the time. They are just there, fleetingly to give you joy and then be snatched away, leaving you in a nostalgic depression, longing for them but never having them back.
i understand the feel. i'm not sure if i feel empathy or not but i want to spare my family the pain of my death out of a sense of kantian ethics. i fully expect no eternal reward or punishment when i die. i am just doing right things because you are supposed to. it might just be autistic rules morality, idk. i could be a good person if i applied this maxim universally.
>>84932343I don't follow any abstract notion of ethics. I love my familiy, and being good to them makes me feel good. That's why I do it. That's why anyone does anything, I think. We're all egoists inside.
>>84932343that's funnyYou found your soulmate doing exactly what you feel right to do. And you feel nothing about them.
>>84932379i'm so cut off from my emotions that i can't tell what i feel. i feel a deep sense of longing for this person even if they purposefully do things to hurt me. is that love? i don't know. i won't ask how you know what you know.
>>84932368you're probably right. i feel like i am all clockwork and not capable of love. i made my ex cry because i told her that once.
>>84932437Everybody is clockwork. Love is clockwork, just like breathing or hunger. No one can help who or what they love, it's not a conscious decision.
>>84932472i believe you. i don't need to feel guilt over my irrational impulses.
People say to be thankful for the good things in life, but those good things are just another form of prison guard to me. They create more suffering by giving me small respite and then vanishing.
>>84932142Understand that everything dies. Death is okay. The people who would be saddened by your death will also one day die. This is what is truly meant when we say"in the end, everything will be alright." We are bio;ogically programmed to fear death, every species is through evolution. If a species had no fear of death, it won't last very long at all. This is the source of all your fear and apprehension over dying. But dying is a natural process, it's okay to die. Everything dies. It's inevitable so why fear it?Imagine for a moment all human life suddenly ends. Humanity is now extinct. Would any of our gods come down to mourn us? No. Nothing of any higher intelligence than some of our pets would ever mourn us. Every human memory and moment would be gone forever. All our math, our art and science, it only ever held any meaning to ourselves and with us all gone it'd all be meaningless. This is the true state of everything, it's meaningless. And that's okay.I hope you're free now like I am.
its so fucked, i wish my parents were abusive so i could freely kill myself without having to worry about them
