>I'm not like normies, I'm worse in every wayDoes this apply to you anon?
>>84934572Yes. I cannot have a conversation with anyone apart from business/education stuff and have no inner monologue. I also pee myself more frequently than I would like to admit.
>>84934572Normies like me and try to befriend me but I don't like playing along with back and forth just you know it's drama and whatever I would rather speak with or listen to another neurodivergents interests
>>84934572I dunno. I am morally consistent, kind, caring, empathetic, patient, calm, thoughtful, reasonable, generous, considerate, funny and fairly brave. Children and animals naturally love me and find my presence calming and reassuring. I have had extensive romantic and sexual success despite being fairly unattractive, and people who mistreat or exploit me tend to feel so guilty about it that they apologise to me without me even understanding what they are apologising for, because I just don't really take mistreatment to heart since I project myself into the shoes of others so readily. However, I was diagnosed with autism as a child. I hate myself and being alive and I completely understand why everybody else hates me, because they should hate me because I am a barely sapient animal and any cruelty or mistreatment I have ever received was completely justified from the perspective of somebody mistreating a dog with rabies, or a wild pig. In real life I would never dare speak positively of myself because I am almost certainly a covert, vulnerable narcissist and everybody is right to hate me and people who like me are wrong.
>>84934577>I also pee myself more frequently than I would like to admit.Why? Are you doing it on purpose, ignoring the need to go (like some true ADHD cases do), or is it a genuine accident? I'm curious...I won't make fun of you for answering.
>>84934594Having this amount of self awareness and insight is extremely rare among normies. It's actually refreshing to hear.
The thing that makes me different is I am more perceptive, introspective, maybe smarter, I also feel more. unfortunately these things make life harder, so not better. idk I guess every normie is not an NPC, some people are really just better. I will say yes I consider myself lower than most people
>>84934612Genuine accident. I have a weak bladder too.
>>84934572no i'm a niceiei like niceing around.
>>84934632I know it's not a competition, but I am an actual, diagnosed autismo (doctors in dark rooms running tests style diagnosis) and I have moderate to severe issues like noise and texture sensitivity, trouble reading emotions, trouble communicating, et cetera. I spent my entire teens teaching myself how to make eye contact and gesticulate during conversation, and I even have the stomach issues as a comorbidity. My ability to socialise is entirely self-taught and results in severe mental exhaustion, which itself results in semi-regular mental breakdowns and a desire to drink until I am blind to "reset" my brain.It's difficult for me to socialise with normal people because I feel completely alienated from them, and it's difficult for me to socialise with other autismos because they lack the self-awareness to not be infuriating retards, which I resent them for, but I also resent myself for resenting them for not meeting my arbitrary standards.
>>84934660I'm not an autismo but I'm definitely not a normie either. I'm a pretty severe agoraphobic, I have hyperosmia and misophonia, I'm an obsessive-compulsive, and I have actual PTSD and genuine panic anxiety disorder (not larping like many zoomers did during covid). I wasn't always this way though. From adolescence through my twenties I lived a fairly normal life - lots of friends, girlfriends, I went places, did things, etc.Now my life is probably similar to yours in that I don't interact with people very much. Despite the fact that I'm naturally a very good conversationalist and a social person, for the past 10 years socializing has been a chore for me. I don't just hate leaving home; my body outright protests it. Some days I barely even leave my room. It really sucks because I used to live a fairly happy life. Now I'm just medicated most of the time, and all I can really bring myself to do is watch TV and movies, play vidya occasionally, and try to push myself to engage in my hobbies as a distraction.Your description of yourself reminds me a lot of my friend who passed away in 2024. He was neurodivergent / autistic spectrum for sure, although undiagnosed. He had zero ability to read people's emotions - for example, if someone was crying in front of him, he'd laugh right out loud and say something like, "What the hell's their problem?"Aside from his idiosyncrasies, he was a very talented artist and he could write music faster than his body could play it. He was a very good drummer, and he even played in a band with me when we were younger. I'd set everything up for him and give him clear instructions on what to play, and he did amazingly well. Sadly as he grew up, the world wasn't very nice to him and being interested in art, he met a lot of druggies. He was 37 when he died, and for entirety of his adult life he smoked, drank, and did drugs. Sadly it killed him. Don't let that stuff kill you. Living can suck but it's not that bad. I wish you well.
