the only positive trait i naturally have is my hair on account of being greeki have nice clear skin but thats not natural to me and ive only had that since trooning outim well read and come of smart but who really cares about if i can explain soviet history in excruciating detaili hate my height especially since trooning bcuz im 6 1 and its a reminder of the moid that was there beforehow about you guys
you're still a dude, but lamenting on your physical lot in life isn't going to make it go away. I'm short, 5'6, and there are days where I wish I was taller, but all I can do is try to improve what I can and try to find someone who accepts me with what I have. anything beyond that is delusion.
>>84951704i did focus on the things i could change thats why i pinkpilled and it helped me a lot as an individual but my hatred of being this tall or my deep voice is still there other than those two things i pass fairly well especially with a small about of makeup on eyes despite the positives the things that havent changed are the things that are impossible too and i doubt ill get over
>>84951694>i can explain soviet history in excruciating detailI'm not a communist but I've been fixated on the ussr lately.Would you date a moid who's shorter than you?
>>84951745>I'm not a communist but I've been fixated on the ussr lately.i am a communist and ive always been obsessed with them>Would you date a moid who's shorter than you?eh maybe i dont go outside other than bloodchecks for my fem n ems
>>84951730>i did focus on the things i could change thats why i pinkpilledwhat are you trying to accomplish, exactly? what I meant was worry about what you can change relative to some ultimate goal. so if your ultimate goal - or desire, at least - is to be a girl, that's already a non-starter. I was blunt with my initial comment about you being a dude, but the better part of me would not like to be so rude. I mention it here because as you yourself noted,>my hatred of being this tall or my deep voice is still thereso the question is whether settling for a "partial victory" will ever be worth it in the end. you're not optimistic about it, and maybe that's justified, but honestly for a long time I've thought about myself that if I had certain things in my life - a gf, better living situation, stable money, more freedom in general - I probably wouldn't be so inclined towards a negative view. doesn't mean it'd go away completely, but if you got certain other important things in your life in order, maybe being tall and your voice wouldn't affect you as much.
>>84951776>1776Nice digits, commie. :)>bloodchecks for my fem n emsI'm assuming you didn't take the diy hrt route then. That's good.
>>84951777>so if your ultimate goal or desire at least is to be a girl that's already a non starter.when it comes to being a girl i consider myself one partially i know about my biology and whatever but ive always been skinny and lean and i started hrt from turning 18im 20 nowmy goal is just fulfillment desui am happier this wayi look better healthier eveni dont really have any drive or want for a specific career or lifestyleid like to move but ive got no cash or job or role in society evenat least i look nice now and get called she primarily when i do go outso its fulfilling to an extent as for my career and role ive basically shut myself out fullyi dropped out of hs at 17 i cut everyone off i got fired after a few months of the only job ive ever hadtheres no route forward desu
>>84951891>my goal is just fulfillment desueveryone wants fulfillment, and, by your own admission, being affirmed as a girl is fulfilling, but that doesn't answer why your goal is to be a girl. there are and have been plenty of men in your shoes who saw themselves as less/hardly attractive, but that didn't necessarily make them want to be women. i.e., there's something going on here beyond "not being attractive".>theres no route forward desuwhere do you live? if you're in the US - and probably even more true in you're in Canada - and you are trans, there are surely options for you. not necessarily ideal, but something. I'm sure you could get your GED, find *some* job, and potentially work your way to getting a post-secondary education if you so desire. I mean you're interested in history and politics. I'm in a graduate teaching program right now, and there are no shortage of leftists and troons. I don't think your situation is purely hopeless.
>>84951980idk why i want to be a girl ive just felt like that since i was 10 and before that it was a feeling of being different that i didnt knowi absolutely hate to do the im in the wrong body shtick but if the shoe fitsi live in a red state but id love to move to OR i know i could get my ged but the motivation is slim to none
>>84952088>i absolutely hate to do the im in the wrong body shtick but if the shoe fitsI mean if that's how you feel that's how you feel; just because it's cliche doesn't mean it's inaccurate. maybe it's just the tism mixed with the gay.>i live in a red state but id love to move to OR i know i could get my ged but the motivation is slim to nonewhat even are your long-term goals in life? and, if I could ask, what's your current living and financial situation? you say you're 20, don't have a job, and have no role in society. the point being, it sounds like before you know it things could easily go from bad to worse, and you'll be kicking yourself for not trying to make something of your life sooner.
>what even are your long-term goals in life? and, if I could ask, what's your current living and financial situation? i dont rlly have any long term goalsshort term i just want money so i can get some weedi live with my parents right now as well btw
>>84952286>i dont rlly have any long term goalsyou should get some, like ASAP. doesn't mean today, or in the next week, but you'd be better off doing it sooner or later. things are already stacked against you, being trans and the rest. should your parents die (knock on wood), what options would you have? you don't have to answer that, but it's meant to get you to genuinely think of an answer. you just said yourself you'd want to move to OR, so you have some sense of what a better life would be. it's very easy to squander your time and smoke the weeds when you're 20, but a decade comes by sooner than you know it. ask yourself: would you be happy to be 30, still living with your parents, with no job?
>>84952314>would you be happy to be 30, still living with your parents, with no job?no not at allim not even happy living like this nowi want work i want friends i want to live but i live in a tiny tiny town of 1800 people and everything is family owned here and i have never been welcomedsounds like larp but im serious since childhood when we moved here the people never eased up on my family or anythingtheres one actual corporation here and its a dairy queen and i worked there but they let me go cuz of overstaffing and im basically fucked in a cornermy somewhat plan if my parents died was just rope but i dont want that i genuinely want to do things i have stuff i want to do and see like my interest in politics but its essentially a no use case as long as im here
>>84952359well you would obviously know better than me what immediate local options are available, but if there's legitimately nothing, the next best thing would be to find an entry-level job online. though your chances of finding such a job would be better if you had a GED. I don't really have that much knowledge in that regard, but perhaps there are GED programs which are good at also getting people jobs immediately following certification. perhaps you could look into such a program. and perhaps there are such or similar programs which can help you with housing and the like. again, if you are trans, perhaps there are particular funds you could get for exactly that.but whatever you do in the short term, base it on your long-term goals. you're interested in politics, you have a knack for talking about it, consider and look into what you could do with that. but with that - as with anything, if I could further give you unsolicited advice - I would also say try to be optimistic. things don't have to be "perfect", you don't have to find the "perfect" career where you're 100% always fulfilled - and perhaps none such exists - but, even you've said, something in that direction would be better than being, say, 30, living with your parents, in your small town, with no job. there are also different methods/activities you can do to clearly map out, say, a 5-10 year plan, so perhaps look into that too.>my somewhat plan if my parents died was just rope but i dont want thatyeah please never do that. obv I'm some random guy to whom you have no relation and we probably don't have much in common anyways, but no one in their right mind kills themselves. I hope you never do that.
>>84952424my family always nags me to look into ged stuff and i might idkim good at doing things once i start but starting is really scaryive got a few beers tho right now so im either gonna turn my brain off or freak out n maybe change something idk lelthanks for all the advice anon
>>84952507no worries. all the best anon
