my god I fucked up bad>meet a really cool guy and hang out all night>at the end we go to a park and hang out>get really high with him >have been building the courage to do something all night like he wanted me to>we end up going to leave and he decides to kiss me>we kiss for a bit and I start kissing his neck>he tells me "no marks" so I started licking his neck then went back to kissing his neck for some reason>thought that the way he was grabbing my hair was because he liked it or something (i was extremely high and just had no idea wtf i was doing cause of how nervous i was)>i actually freaked him out massively and he tells me to take him home>we get in my car and hes literally on the verge of tears and shaking>drop him off somewhere on his street because he doesn't even feel safe enough to get driven home>realize that in under 15 seconds my pathetic high clueless ass committed a sexual assault and literally traumatized him for trusting someoneim 26 and have never somehow fucked up like this. I hurt someone so badly. im never going to attempt to have sex again because im a fucking idiot and have no idea how to follow simple instructions during intimacy. I had to confess this and im probably going to wind up with assault charges if he goes to the police which would be completely justified and understandable. I needed to confess this unimaginable fuckup because i feel sick and im a fucking monster. please never fuck up as bad as I did
>>84952336You're two gay moids right?
>>84952354well im cis male and he is an ftm guy. it just is boggling my mind so hard how a person that all i wanted was to make them feel happy, safe, wanted and cared for i wind up literally traumatizing. I want to die
>>84952370oh they're f2m. yeah that's a severely mentally ill girl, even if you had consensual sex with her she would be traumatized by it
>>84952386okay but thats massive cope and I still deserve to be in jail my point was I dont know how I got so into it that I ignored what he told me and kissed his neck anyway, it was fucked up of me and I literally spent my entire life preparing to NOT do this kind of thing to a person but somehow did it anyway out of sheer overstimulation, confusion, being super high and just stupidity
>>84952403oh you misunderstood me, no I meant you shouldn't have pursued something sexual with someone so broken, kind of like how a child can't consent.
>>84952403I don't get it, you were trying to give him a hickey when he said no marks still? Or just kissing.Whatever bro you chose this, I don't even wanna say who's a retard.
>>84952403>Does drugs>Pursues an ftm>Ignores all social cues and ends up SAing her Op you are a faggot. I hope she openly accuses you of rape and ruins your life kek. Let this be a lesson to you
>>84952448>you were trying to give him a hickey when he said no marks still?yes, it was fucked up. ive got no excuse for it and have felt sick with guilt since it happened. autistic guys like me shouldn't be allowed to have sex. he trusted me and now theres a good chance hes literally SCARED because of me. if I dont kill myself in shame by tomorrow it will be a miracle. The point of venting this was so you guys dont somehow fuck it up like me (though i never intended in my life to hurt anyone)
>>84952495nah i'd never fuck up like you because I don't do drugscommunication is king with this stuff, safe words are peak
>>84952336You really shouldn't be worried about it. You didn't even give him the honk.
>>84952510>communication is kingThisDid you even try to say anything afterward op? Or did you just sit in silence as she drove you back
>omfg I got kissed on the neck I'm going INSANE. Literally shaking rnHow are people this soft?
>>84952531im worried that sick autistic retards like me exist. i genuinely dont see a point in living after realizing that i can somehow be capable of hurting someone so badly
>>84952550man it was a neck kiss don't beat yourself over itunless you were like literally restraining him and he was trying to push you away with no luck, its really not that bad. pretty sure he's just sensitive and mentally ill, so you still hurt him bad bad. ftm's...
>>84952336You both sound like total fags to be entirely blunt with you. You made out and tried to give a little passion to it, then this tranny you're with flipped out because she's retarded, and you're freaking out like a pussy treating it like you roofied the bitch and stuck your tongue up her ass. Neither of you understand social conventions nor reasonable communication, and I say that as an autist. I don't have these fucking problems because I'm not a coward and also know to communicate if something is that uncertain. You are both insecure, irresponsible idiots. Stop panicking, repack your balls, and move onto the next one you gutless pussy.
>>84952545>Did you even try to say anything afterward op? Or did you just sit in silence as she drove you backgood lord no as I drove him back I was telling him how bad I felt and that he didnt deserve that shit and he told me that talking about it wouldnt help. frankly the most devastating thing was the final message he sent me before blocking me obviously was "i feel sick"
>>84952336op, if he doesn't want you i doyou sound sweet
>>84952569anon it would seem your biggest mistake was attempting to be with this retard at all. Big mentally ill.I am sure they would explode at something else down the line just as badly, it's how it is. A reasonable person would be, reasonable, about it.
>>84952569She's a delusional tranny ofc she said that. She'll build her whole personality around this moment and she'll "never recover from the trauma". I hope you learned a lesson here anon, don't fuck with trannies. You did nothing else wrong here
>>84952548I want to overly aggressively neck kiss both of them god people who are this sensitive are so hot...>>84952585Same
>>84952565but like what if to him thats what it felt like, it was obvious he put a lot of trust in me to take care of him and I literally stab him in the back and SA him in public. this guy was so cute man and he called things based and let me call him a fag and was 26 like me, all we talked about was how he was gonna fight me, we even picked eachother up off the ground. i ruined the best opportunity of my LIFE.
Lmao fags are disgusting and retarded
>>84952654you think about fags a lot huh?
walk me through a day in the life about how many fags do you think about per week?
>>84952666Just when they post on my board about their hysterical reaction to some hysterical tranny freaking out over... kissing that they initiated? Honestly its hard to tell whats going on here, I'll settle on everyone involved deserving hard labor in a lithium mine
>>84952550Dude, guess what princess. You could have done a whole lot worse. They did it to make you feel bad.
>>84952651If she's too mentally ill to be able to reciprocate in sexual intimacy normally (ie, not freaking out from a little neck kisses or whatever the fuck), she has no business engaging in any of this shit in the first place. The shit you did is NORMAL you dope. You're just getting suckered into this dumb tranny's victimhood mindset, and accepting the burden of total responsibility. The entire response of this childish "best opportunity of your life" is KIDDY SHIT, not how an adult is supposed to respond to NORMAL INTIMACY. You are so gaslit by this subtle manipulation that you think you've done an action some serial rapist would have or something.>SA, backstabbing, etcStop referring to it as "SA" or backstabbing or whatever. She clearly sucks at communicating what she likes and doesn't like. It's normal to kiss and embrace someone intimately assuming you're both consenting adults. She freaked out and put the blame of the experience on you. Frankly, it sounds like she has history with something unsavory too, which again, isn't your fault and has fuck all to do with you. Also, as a fellow autist, stop blaming autism when it has more to do with communication being shit. Above all, GROW SOME FUCKING BALLS AND STOP CRUSHING YOURSELF OVER A SOCIALLY INEPT TRANNY, HOLY SHIT! You're a man, aren't you? Damn dude.
>>84952651>the best opportunity of my LIFESurely if he was truly the best opportunity of your life he wouldn't have done this? Even if you did screw up, you were high and not in your right mind. It's clear you care about him a lot and if he doesn't want to reconcile, that's what he's throwing away. I understand it might've really hurt him, but if he didn't value your relationship enough to work through this with you, then I don't think you ought to agonize over it. If he thinks the best thing for him is to block you and never talk to you again, the best thing you can do is move on, too. Went through something similar (with an ftm, too) and the regret is still soul-crushing even though it's been over a year now. Don't let him drag you into the gutter if he comes back (like I did). Take care, anonIf you need someone to talk to, my discord is dinnerbone84. No pressure though.
>>84952370>Ftm>a female who got too molested There's yer problem.
>>84952800>>84952779>>84952837i really appreciate a different perspective because i feel like a criminal for a fumble and total lapse in communication like this like sick to my stomach and havent slept or ate in 30 hours tier
>>84952336cops wouldnt take any of this seriously, not in a million years. maybe worry about his friends spreading rumours or whatever but thats about it.
She's mentally ill and random small things are bound to trigger her massivelyLearn your lesson and don't mess around with pooners
>>84952885He'll either realize you care and recognize your intent vs how he interpreted it or he won't. I think give him some time to cool down. Even if you violated (a very slight) boundary, if he cares about you like you do about him he'll recognize that you didn't mean to, but if he has some past history with this sort of thing he might not come around to it right away.The ball is in his court atm imo. It's his decision to figure out whether he trusts you or not. Don't beat yourself up.
>>84952336It honestly sounds like you didnt do anything wrong. Especially when he said to not do any marks, he is acknowledging that you are going to touch his neck and is implying consent. I think he might just have some past trauma that resurfaced during this ordeal, probably from a previous negative experience with someone touching his neck, that made him react in that way. Did he elaborate on what upset him? Otherwise I cant see you being at fault at all assuming your narration is accurate.
>>84952885>like sick to my stomach and havent slept or ate in 30 hours tierFuck man everything about our situations is so similar and it makes me feel worse for you. I'm really sorry. I hope that he does come back and you guys can sort your issues out. Please take care fren
