I think I literally peaked in preschool>ages 0-2 I can't remember and I couldn't walk or talk (I didn't walk or talk until age 3 because of my autism).>ages 3-4 I was extremely well-behaved (quiet, calm, mindful) and contently kept to myself.>at age 5 I developed ADHD which made me super hyper and impulsive and destroyed everything. It was worsen than the autism. I couldn't handle school and wasn't medicated until age 7.>ages 7-10 was a mixed bag of ADHD medications either going nowhere, causing more problems than it was fixing, or it slightly helping for a short while. This was probably the last time my life ever had a glimmer of hope.>at age 11 (5th grade, year before middle school. Or for non-amerifags: year before secondary school) I developed crippling social anxiety and suicidal ideation. The worst part is I don't even fucking know why. Nothing dramatic happened. My only guess is that puberty fucked with my already unstable brain too much and caused mental illness.>middle school (ages 12-14) made it worse due to less accommodations (that already weren't enough even in elementary school but was still better than nothing), more expectations, and more classes, work, and students. I was put into a mental hospital 2 times (almost 3) due to all of this.>at age 15 something traumatic happened that I don't want to get into but basically I lost my grandmother, house (I don't like change and had to move out of the house I lived in for almost 14 years, so this was traumatic itself, and the house we got afterwards was objectively worse), and a lot of our money. A time where everyone is building their lives (social skills, employability skills, etc.) and I just lost everything. At age 12-14 there might have been enough time to change things, but at 15+ when it was clear nothing would get better, there was no hope.Anyone else?
