Day 2 of striving for goals with no sense of meaning or purpose
>>85083358maybe striving was the purpose
>>85083358As cliche as it is, it really is the journey, not the destination
>>85083358>goalswow are you lucky, because i read "goats" at first, and thats why i opened this thread. because it reminded me of a friend i had last last year, who worked at a slaughterhouse, of goats. he was my age. met him in his 27th birthday, and gave hime some acid. it chnged his life, he decided he didnt like the woman he was with, and tried to leave her. he was also paying child support for a couple of kids. he tried leaving his job, because he felt that being a goat slaughterer was bad for his mind. he was also an alcoholic. he tried leving the slaughterhouse of goats tooso he suddenly found he wanted to make a lot of positive changes. but that wasn't an option for him. he left his old gf, just to begin having to struggle even more, and sleeping alone at night, trying to find a new partner in the current dating market.he lef this work, just to find he couldnt pay any bills while looking for new work and detoxing from alcohol, so, he went back to fulltime goat slaughtering. he already had no purpose, and already had issues. but he was so englufed in them, that even beginning to think about them ended up being a mistake.he just went back to goat slaughtering fulltime, but making less money for it for having for a few months, and, without a partner anymore.how much would he wish that he was able to pursue goals right now, instead of pursuing goats, to kill them. he would be so gratefuland to have no child support to pay? just a free soul with nothing dragging him down, no addictions, literally a possible future ahead of him, rather than a lifetime of alcoholism and killing goats to barely be able to pay for the kids he barely sees?holy shit, this makes me so grateful and makes me reeeally feel pathetic for not acomplishing anything of note in the year since we met. i shouldve just been grateful i coul;d follow goals, and i shouldve silently followed them and then watched it pay off. you could do that anytime too im sure
>>85083498thanks for your valuable input, Sisyphus
why play a losing game?
>>85083896Holy fuck anon you're everywhere im thinking im being a bit weird
>>85084196because you are going to have to play it anywaysInb4 suicidewhen do yo remember your life beginning? it just kinda.... was there, right, and there wasnt any psychological reckoning that something new has started.life has always gone on, and it always will, and your psyche is the one generating it ultimately. so, being in a bad state of mind probably isnt what you want, bc who knows how long that could last.
