cant pay a psych to take me on as a patient despite being cpepd at the same hospital. cant pay to talk to someone face to face. i dont even feel human. invisible to the whole world.
>>85084873I have never paid for shit (or not much at least) and have cost the state 100k euros or more and it still hasn't helped me desu
I feel the same. I have thought of attempting (and purposely failling) so I get atleast a diagnose
>>85084873sorry u didnt get to go hospital anon. i can be your doctor and u can come to my hospital. My name is Dr. Dudenstein and the hospital is located in my 1 bedroom apartment. You can sleep in the living room and play on your phone but it's very messy and unhygienic. I will ignore you in the master bedroom whilst i shitpost on webz all day and play vidya. U have to buy and cook your own food in my gross kitchen, I will eat microwave pizzas. Im not sure what sort of health services i provide yet... maybe we can chat about the alien franchise.
>>85084924and here i thought the like 4k ive wasted in the system was a lot. i wish i cud just throw money at things and be better. do u know what might help you?>>85084934>psych break and hate myself>feel like burden on everyone>try go to gensokyo>didnt prepare enough, just gave myself some brain damage>sent to cpep at hospital>later go back to this hospitals outpatient program>get discharged after a week because they have nfi what to do and i dont fit in the same category as most other patients>back out with no direction where i will drive myself insane in isolation again talking to myself too muchwell. i attempted and failed by mistake and it still didnt help. what kind of dx are you hoping will change things for you?>>85084942i did go a few times. ive been in and out the past few months and it rapidly sent me deeper into menhera states as i realized none of that will help me either. i think it sucks because i know what "being better" could look like but i can never manifest any of it. its all impossible. anyway dudenstein that sounds nice but ur the wrong gender and my apartment is plenty cozy enuff already it just lacks ppl in it the same way yours does
>>85085430>menheranever heard of this, u learn something new every day >ur the wrong genderOh shit, I'm the wrong gender????? *checks pantsu* ARGHHHHH MY GDENER IOS WRONG 1!!@12!1haha just kiddin. nobody wants to hang with me, thats fine. I hope u sort out this stuff tho
>>85085430>do u know what might help you?Most likely an occupation I can busy myself with and where I enjoy the work but I don't know what that is
ironic as always
>>85085494>never heard of this, u learn something new every day gotta do ur weeb reps n level up>>85085505are you able to monetize any of ur hobbies? or is there a function of your hobbies (creativity, problem solving, etc) that you can extrapolate out into a line of work?>>85085580irony how and where
you can just go outside and talk to people it's not illegal unless you are overly persistent when they're not interested
>>85084873Are you prepared to accept that capitalism is bad and that under socialism you'd have free psychiatric care?
>>85085688>are you able to monetize any of ur hobbies? or is there a function of your hobbies (creativity, problem solving, etc) that you can extrapolate out into a line of work?My hobbies are mostly reading about history and video games but I can't become a teacher or academian and I could make games but I have no great interest in ITEither way my greatest issue is having enough motivation to do anything at all
>>85085925talking to strangers is not the same as actually being able to talk to people you relate to, bond with, and can trust.. i talk to lots of people every day as a part of my job when i can be bothred even doing it. fleeting shallow chats just makes me lonely and not being able to have the deeper bonds others have makes me feel even worse. the more i try 'go out' and achieve this at everyones persistence the more hurt and unstable i get.>>85086035the cost isnt an issue. i am a hot potato of a patient nobody wants to take liability for. i would throw my life savings at it if i knew it would get me anywhere atp>>85086042the motivation is probably the biggest issue. are you stagnant in life you feel? i try shake things up drastically to break off that moss.. move country or something. if your hobby is study.. i wonder what kinda careers you can make out of studying like that.. probs something paperwork orientated. whys academia not an option? research is kinda what u just described
>>85086232>whys academia not an option? research is kinda what u just describedI kinda suck at writing long coherent works, I gather too many sources and read them all. Then my mind gets clouded and I get frustrated
>>85084873Honestly this is going to be bad advice and most people here won't have the guts to do it but if break the law and act like a loon. The courts will make you see a psychiatrist and get on meds that the state has to pay for. I was a strung out junky and used to walk around breaking windows and the states diagnosed me as bipolar and made me go to a mental health facility and forced me onto medicaid (which i didn't qualify for until I got arrested) which then covered the psych meds they put me on. I wasn't actually bipolar, I was just a brain fried drug addict but still. State won't do shit until you actually become a problem for them.
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>>85086377decoding lots of info and trying to unravel it is hard for anyone. overcoming that frustration and cloudiness is an achievement. dont let it dissuade you, rather try and achieve it.>>85086405im an immigrant and that would get me deported back to my shithole country. i have had like 4 trips to the hospital atp and a condition of discharge has been that they would provide psych resources like a therapist+psych appointments.. only for them to not follow up/decline in the intake process/refer me back to ed>>85086509feel free to say what parts are a larp if ur such a knower
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