losers of 4chan, what is your reason to keep going? what makes you feel like your life is worth living?
Sending money to femanons mostly
>>85089252i guess if it works it works
i live a rather comfortable life, the only real down side is my lack of friends and a girlfriend which while brutal aren't things i necessarily need to survive. if i was a neurotypical though i might have killed myself by now
>>85089252You should receive a mace on the face.
>>85089248I think my distractions like using my computer and browsing this place, and trying to talk with people online keeps me going.
>>85089248Seeing what if anything is at the end
>>85089248I basically just live for (you)s now.
>>85089248i just don't think about it, it became particularly easier after i quit caffeine.
To breathe air, eat food, drink water, shit, piss, and cum. Not working makes life worth living.
>>85089248the fact that i was born anyways so there's simply no point in suicide now that im already alive
>>85089248I just don't want to kill myself. I got a lot of issues and mental health problems but for whatever reason I just don't have suicidal thoughts or anything outside of basic "damn I could always kill myself if it gets too much" shit. I started lifting weights and want to see how big i can get.
>>85089248Fuck all nothing. If I were ever handed a gun there is a high chance I would just end it immediately.
I'm basically a drug addict. Everyday I take pregabalin, benzos, and when I have the cash I buy oxy and lately I've been taking a lot of psychedelics. I literally like 5mins ago just popped 2 tabs of acid. I also like searching for things -> fossils, magic mushrooms. My days these last week or so have just been searching my entire city for psilocybe subauerginosa. I managed to find enough to trip 3 times. The third trip was EXTREMELY intense. I just laid in bed, hardcore hallucinating and then the reflective part happened (the actual reason I tripe) which felt therapeutic. I also like music -> lana, faith no more, Taylor. I scam the govt for bennies so lately life's been easy, just the lack of cash is bad. It's enough to buy the food I want, and most of the drugs I want, but larger purchases I simply can't afford. Even a new pair of shoes I want or new clothes. My clothes are povvo as, second hand from the store, but I don't really care. I'm also pretty invested in my future as I'm on bail and it's nervewracking awaiting my fate (either freedom or like 3 years jail). You'd think this would push me towards suicide but it kind of binds me to the world because I want to know the outcome. Of course ultimately I think no lives are worth living, I recently made a youtube vid on this, and I think it's perfectly rational to make a negative value judgment towards the worth of your life, your birth, and your human embodiment, and then kill your body to prevent yourself feeling future suffering. But I'm not rational and so live out of this weird craving and binding to a world which constitutes my harm and suffering. Best of all is never to be born. But I am born, so I guess its just pop pills take drugs boost your car around find excitement find drugs find fossils go look around.
unironically my one goal in life is to have a place to live alone. probably never going to happen sadly as my father didn't own a company to give me a good job at. all i want is some fucking privacy.
>>85090198>I recently made a youtube vid on thiscan we get a link hoss
>>85089248i need to make it to top 500 on overwatch ranked
>>85089248I don't see the world the same way you do. Society and everything you believe in never had any meaning to me, I was never part of it and I never trusted any of it. All these people who claim to be "good people" and represent the best values and virtues, who are popular with good careers are incredibly hostile and malicious to me for no reason, who refuse to even talk to me like I'm a human being. It's all a great meme, you all judge people by how well they can entertain you or serve you in some way, if they cannot, they become le bad, you don't care that they are a conscious being like yourself, like members of your family, like your lifelong friends. Virtually no one genuinely cares about that. In fact I can only imagine an autistic person doing so, you have to be on the spectrum to decide to hold to a rule like that.
>>85089248i'm curious, mansometimes, that's all it takes
a LOT of porn and masturbation.
>>85089248Going out with my autistic twin and fkn him he is my best friend and he has the best dih
neetbuxif I didn't have this pathetic stipend I would be in trouble on many levelsAlso a jewish carpenter that lived 2000 years ago
>>85090213Basically doxxing myself but yeah if you want:>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jUZNqJHfJqM
>>85090307Bro are you on cocaine in that video? Honestly loving this shit though.
I want to publish some things before I go
>>85089248>what is your reason to keep going? Don't have one. I'm legitimately inches away from suicide.>what makes you feel like your life is worth living?It's not. It's not even worth salvaging. It's fucked.
>>85090311I hate being sober I hate being sober
>>85089554here (you) gooreganolly
>>85090307waking up every day tasked with somehow mustering the selfishness and insanity needed to drag your body around some more is absurd and humiliatingkeep screaming in your car about how stupid everything is, it's probably my favorite genre of youtube video
>>85090376Thank you anon, you give my live meaning.
>>85090416This guy's the best. "The prison called life" especially the older videos.
>>85089248Psychosis delusion induced intense fear of death
>>85089248My great grandmother would be sad if I roped.
I have 8 more months before I kick the bucket. Gonna keep doing drugs and then OD on heroin. I've been extremely mentally ill for the past 7 years and they've just gotten worse and worse. My situation is now FUBAR and there's nothing that can be done.
>>85089248Worth is subjective and I happen to enjoy being a layabout.
>>85089248My situation is pretty sad, but to me it seems good because of how I grew up. I have an immense appreciation for electricity, running water, clean clothes, food, etc.
>>85090162same. im not sure how i never seem to reach the point of seriously considering it.
Probably unironically videogames and anime
>>85089248I don't even know. I go to therapy, I work on my health, I can hold down a job now, I quit drugs but I still feel just as shitty as I always have. Sometimes I get a few fleeting minutes of feeling fine but the vast majority of the time I'm apathetic and low. I don't care about anything ever. I'm still an incel too but would changing that even help me? No other milestone gave me lasting satisfaction so why would that one be any different?
>>85091291Lasting satisfaction is a meme in this world. We are predetermined to be deficient unsatisfied beings until we die.
>>85091310I don't think that's true. I see people hit milestones and it forever is a source of pride and satisfaction to them. At best I get a couple hours of feeling OK after an accomplishment that took months or years. I don't feel any joy in the process either. Everything is drudgery.
>>85091328Well then bad luck for us I guess because I feel the same. Either others are lying or we came out deficient and can't feel the happiness others seem to get.
>>85091342I can't speak for you but I'm definitely deficient in that way. My brain just doesn't give me the chemicals that normal people get. I've already tried suicide before and I couldn't do it but I don't really know why. Something keeps me going but whatever it is it isn't pleasant.
>>85091431I have the same. Just knowing death is best but am weirdly binded and clinging to the world even though it perpetuates my suffering. It's like I'm entangled in the world now and can't or won't leave. There's nowhere to go anyway.
