>highly suspecting that i may have a life-threatening condition relating to my balls>doctor has made fun of me for numerous other reasons in the past>too scared to ask doctor about this as a result, especially since its about my genitaliaI literally cant do anything but just sit around and wait for my own death now. My life is fucking ruined.
>>85091447just transition. then if he makes fun of you for asking for surgery, you can get him deported
>>85091447just cut them off and become a girl
>>85091447or you could change doctor.
>>85091513>>85091534Id never be able to get any surgery and i love my balls and would kill myself if they even so much as shrank. Im literally terrified and cant stop shaking thinking about how im doomed, stop trying to make this about your fetish for trans people.
>>85091557I honestly couldnt trust any doctor even if they were nice unlike my asshole current doctor. I was raped as a child by a doctor and so im unable to open up to any doctor about anythng relating to my genitals. I can rarely ever even bring myself to take my shirt off for them for regular checkups. I didnt want to mention it in my original post since im only going to be mocked for being a male rape victim.
>>85091577honestly figured this was a shit post (still kinda do). but like if you got a genuine issue you shouldn't be afraid to address it because your doctors kinda mean. its your life a single humiliating experience isnt going to ruin it.
>>85091616I know i shouldnt be afriad to bring up an issue but i cant help it. i already have extreme social anxiety that has left me a NEET unable to function in society, (and that anxiety is only worsened by my doctor being mean) but ontop of that, as a result of my trauma im physically unable to bring myself to talk about my genitals to a doctor, let alone get a genital exam which would definitely be needed if i did open up about it. Suicide might genuinely be preferrable to me than to let someone else touch my gentalia again even in a non-sexual context. My lifes already fucked up enough anyways.
>>85091682yeah yk i actually kinda get it. im not the most masculine looking dude. had a thing with hemroids and had to get it checked out. was really terrified of checking it out at one of those walk in clinics (their was a lot of blood) and wouldve rather taken the risk of waiting for my family doctor (not an asshole). id recommend talking about it with someone you trust who might be able to stand up for you in that situation or be present.
stop vagueposting and just tell us whats wrong with your balls
>>85091708Thank you for understanding>id recommend talking about it with someone you trust who might be able to stand up for you in that situation or be present.Unfortunately i dont have anyone like that in my life. I barely talk to my family and dont have any friends. My set of circumstances are truly fucked>>85091735I highly doubt it matters since its only curable through medical intervention, but im pretty sure i have varicocele since ive noticed deep red purplish veins on the bottom of my balls.
>>85091756everyone has visible veins in their balls loljust go to a different doctor and get a second opinion if they're still saying its fine you just have medical OCD
>>85091756also you should be feeling pain or discomfort if you really had it. not just seeing a vein
>>85091756you've just gotta power through it then, do whatever methods you gotta do to go there and tell them. Write it down in advanced. i dont really get the impression you want to die to be totally honest. i think you can work through it and at least let them know whats going on. try to not castrophize it to much and go into it acknowledging it as is and the situation around it. could go to emergency aswell the money is a better price then death
>>85091804>>85091801I dont have any pain or discomfort but im pretty sure the veins on the underside of my balls arent supposed to be visibly much more apparent and redder in color than all my other veins.>>85091818Maybe i could try writing it down but idk im worried the doctor is gonna look at me as even more of a freak for not being able to speak to him to directly. I just dont know what im gonna do. I dont want to die but i dont want to live the rest of my life with a freakish medical condition either and i especially dont wan to have to be vulnerable and expose myself to a doctor either.
