My mom used to always tell me "I wish I could light a fire under your ass" because of how lazy I am, insisting that the only way I would ever be able to make it through life is grinding out a valuable skillset or working countless hours to secure the validation and presence of a woman. I became manipulative enough profitable enough to shareholders to earn my place between the legs of many women since those days, and my greatest regret is that I didn't just spend all of that time maximizing my true passion, which is to exist as a hedonistic digital slug that swims in meaningless distractions until expiration. I don't care about sex, and the only reward for hard work is more work. I followed a normie blueprint and won normie prizes. If my life is to be a miasma of hollowed out experiences and burdensome encounters, let it be my choice which type of disappointment I farm.ambition is a meme.
You could've just listened to your father instead. He -was- part of your household, right?
>>85092616I can't believe I read all of this. I thought it was going to be about you lighting a physical fire under your ass.
>>85092616I'm the inverse of yourself in that I my mother was absent, and I just had a lazy hippie dad that didn't really care one way or another; so I've just been a hedonistic digital slug for the last couple decades.S'alright
>>85092616I had a lot of ambition even in the worst of times [insert story about bullying and isolation] but after getting a permanent disease and developing a personality disorder I learned that it doesn't matter how much effort you put into something, it doesn't matter how much drive you have, if life wants to kick you square in the nuts, it will and you'll learn your place by force. Hedonism is what I swear by now, I'll have sex, do drugs, pirate vidya and anime and at the end of it all, my only wish would be to do it all again, chasing companionship and success only made me miserable.
