Starting to realize that I have been raped, abused, assaulted, manipulated so many times that there's no going back for me. From the age of 14 my life changed and it just kept going downhill. Now I'm gonna start hrt and be a trooned out slot for the rest of my life cuz there isn't too much for me anymore.
>>85093784You will never look like that, though. You will just look like the average grotesque troon.
Why not get a job and try to live a normal life like most abuse victims? Or maybe advocate against abuse? No, you're gonna be a slave to your desires and perpetuate the cycle. Faggot ass nigger
>>85093815I look decently like that desu tho. The big differences are that I have curly hair, im 6"2 and 140 pounds with some more muscle on my arms. And im Hispanic so my face isn't as small. And I have a 6.5 inch penis. Other than that the body shape and legs and stuff is pretty close
i hate being trans and crying every night about it and optic nuke fetish threads like this exist alongside my experience please stop god i hate wishing i was a girl every waking moment
>>85093859>I look decently like that desu tho. The big differences are that I have curly hair, im 6"2 and 140 pounds with some more muscle on my arms.Fucking LOL. You will never be a cute twink.
>>85093784Look into trauma processing. Would probably help you more than this would.
>>85093874based trutrans nona ygmi
>>85093874Would sticking my tongue in your throat and penis in your ass cure your dysphoria?
>>85093827I have a job and im living a decently normal life i would say. I just do t think I will ever FEEL normal yk. Or get over it. I have gone to therapy but idk things never seem to help>>85093874I'm so sorry, I have struggled with gender dysphoria for a while but I also don't know what I am because I don't know if the way I feel is because of my past or because that's who I truly am. It's been hard for me but for almost 10 years now I have been trying to decide what I am but I'm finally ready take the leap>>85093875Hate all you want but im pretty confident in who I am
>>85093784I genuinely despise you tranny freaks and how you turned this board into your grooming outpost. Fuck you and join the 41%.
>>85093927>Hate all you want but im pretty confident in who I amLet's see how you look like bro
>>85093895if u were handsome and loving and saw me as a real girl it mightare u straight? my dream is to have a straight boyfriend that i can feel safe with and lay my head on his chest and feel his arm muscles>>85093927im sorry i have a similar past put the way u phrase it paired with the weird images leads me to not be trustworthy of u >>85093890thank u im trying
>>85093883Been, I have made progress in my life and am no longer self harming but the urges still happen. >>85093895Probably not. Been happening for me concensually and unconcensually for almost a decade now and it hast been cured yet
>>85093927>I just do t think I will ever FEEL normal yk. Or get over it. I have gone to therapy but idk things never seem to helpApologies for my outburst and false accusations but you shouldn't be worried about feeling "normal". You're have gender dysphoria, you're not gonna be normal if you're tried, accept what you are instead of chasing an unrealistic standard for yourself you would be a lot happier. Learn to live with it without destroying your body is all I can say.
>>85093874I wish more trannies were like you. But you still need to fuck off back to your home board.
>>85093950I am not posting myself on here lmao. I used too but it was a bad habit for me and im trying to get over it.>>85093952I see that, feel free to not trust me im just here venting and talking cuz im bored. And the weird images are cuz im high key just a gooner fag bitch.
>>85093952I'm bi insofar as I'm not repulsed by dick, other than that I have no sexual interest in men. I would call you the prettiest girlie ever if it'd make you happy, I'd also buy you dresses and flowers and shit if we really hit it off and fell in love. Also I have been working out for the past few months so I do actually have some muscles now, still a bit of stomach pudge to get off unfortunately but I'm working on it.
>>85094002yeah I bet a 6'2 hispanic man looks just like link
>>85093972Yea your right desu. I want to do it tho. I have spent so long dreaming of how my life would be different if I were a girl or how happy I would be if I would just wake up one. Ik that's not the most Trans stuff ever but it's been something I have dreamed of for more than half my life. Idk it's a tough issue
>>85094018I'm pretty pale cuz im half white as well and im anemic so that helps a bit.
>>85094009that sounds rly endearing i yearn to be someones prettiest girlie i like how u put it and to love and be lovedthe gym is great for u its always nice to see men looking after their bodies bc the male form has so much divinity attached to iti super love men and ur stomach fat is probably a nice touch obv if u dont like it that is finemen tend to fine me cute but i struggle to see it in myself and also i wonder if we have spoken before bc i get that vibeeither way i belong in the shower now thanks for speaking with me handsome
>>85094065Fuck you sound cute, nta but disc?
>>85094065Maybe we have, I find transes far more pleasant to speak to than women generally, and you're certainly no exception. Like your outspoken love for the male form just makes me giddy inside, you never get that kinda unabashed appreciation from bio girls. You sound adorable frankly so I don't doubt your body aligns with your mind on that, and thank you for the worlds of encouragement anonette (although I don't actually go to the gym, I just use dumbbells and a pull-up bar at home), enjoy your shower.
>>85093784What happened when you were 16?
>>85094275Long story but when I was 14 in my freshman year of high school I really wanted to be cool. At I was also kinda struggling with my sexuality and a bit of gender dysphoria because I had long hair at the time and people called me a girl and I kinda liked it but the internalized homophobia got to me and I was really bitter and angry with people. That doesn't matter sorry. But when I was 14 I was on vacation with my family and some cousins in the Dominican Republic. Me and my cousins went out clubbing and they knew all the bouncers and club owners so no one gave me a hard time at getting in. Later in the night as I was drunk my cousins started talking to one of their friends they met at the club. Me not caring I didn't pay it any mind. Until the friend spilled his drink on me ruining my shirt and pants. And the only change of clothes he had was his girlfriends crop top and some shorts. I put it on hating it but I didn't care too much since we were there to have a good time until I eventually kinda black out. My memory is foggy but we went from place to place until heading back to a hotel. All I remember is walking into the room and basically falling on the floor and black out. I wake up in the morning to the friend sleeping next to me. A sharp pain in my ass and some bruises on my body. I'm really confused and out of it so I wash up and the friend calls out to me not to take too long. I ask him what happened last night and if i hurt myself and then he reveals the truth that we had sex. I was really confused and angry until he showed me the video that I dont remember of him fucking me in doggy. He told me he will send it to my whole family if i tell anyone.
>>85094749Pt.2I later learn that the friend was in with alot of strippers and night life people and my cousins said he can do whatever to me for 500 usd. For the rest of the vacation I saw him around every now and then but he never did anything other than stare at me and make slightly flirty remarks. From then it all kinda spiraled with drug addiction, self harm, pron addiction, sex work underage, multiple suicide attempts. And a lot of other stuff
yea this is such a gross mockery of gender dysphoria no wonder ppl think i transitioned for a fetish i wish ppl like u would stop idk why i even botherur gross smut story abt sexual assault is disgusting and it makes ppl w real issues seem insane and u make trans ppl look insane i hate u bc u will never understand what it is like to rly be trans yet u will optics nuke us to eternity just to get offfuck u i really mean it
Is this the anon with the gf?Your experiences sound horrible, idk any advice for recovering from rapes like that. Sounds like you are giving in to other people's desires by wanting to start hormones instead of standing up for yourself in other ways
>>85094861You should not be getting worked up over larp. There are larp posts like these every day here. Maybe log off bc youre not going to change the space lol
>>85094861Awwww poor baby, I wish I could cuddle you and tell you everything's gonna be okay.
Everyone is gay for Fugtrups Link
>>85093927>>85093958>>85094769They robbed you from your innocence, from your free will and from your identity. Now the enemy is using your situation to influence you, it is whispering that you should give in, you should let what they did to you define you.Taking the leap shall make things easier, but it will not leade to true hapyness , nor to peace of mind.Your soul needs Christ anon, they took you physically, but they might never hurt your soul if you receive the Divine Spirit, accept the love of God and let his teachings guide you, it is a hard path, but you shall not walk it alone. You don't need to deny any feelings or struggle to not have any sin, you just need to accept his love, repent, and study his words. You will turn into a better person, with peace of mind, not by our own merit, but by the orientation of Christ itself, who will transform you
>>85095409>Everyone is gay for Fugtrups LinkAnd Cloud.
>>85093784>i am a fag who got molested as a kid and as such i will continue to be a fagYou ever just thought about NOT being a fag anon??
>>85095091yes i should bc this larp is dangerous and it feeds into the never ending attitude of oh troons are so sexually depraved and are only trans bc they were touched as a kid and that they r dangerous and gross when my experience of being a fucking tranny has been crying every night hoping i can wake up a girl not getting off to made up fantasies that harm the optics of trans pplit is all so tiresome and yea i keep coming back and rage baiting myself its whatever im a fucking moron >>85095387that sounds rly nice but im having a massive crashout day so on a better day i would be sweeter and kinder but thank u and im lonely so i would accept ur warmth but only if ur a man i would cuddle u back too u deserve affection as well
>>85095844>im lonely so i would accept ur warmth but only if ur a manYou gotta accept the warmth of God in your soul anon. Your sadness and your crashouts are comming from what Satan has whispered in your head. Even thought the church might not accept you due to being trans, God love every one of us, he will accept you, study the Bible and open your heart for him, he shall transform your lifeI will pray for you to find the peace that God want's for you
