Honestly i am just reaching out here out of desperation, i turned 25 this year and feel like shit, i have tried the whole feel good about yourself and go to the gym/outside etc, but i am so fucking lost man, i have no one i love anymore, i have the emotional issues of a child and have become suicidal again, should i just take the easy way out like my dad? I cant be fucked like this for the rest of my life, or can i still be saved
how did your dad do it?
>>85095027He slit his throat(i assume), since the woman from the funeral agency made me and my brother choose scarf to cover hid neck, never read his suicide note (working on mine), but i stutterd like a faggot when i asked the police woman for a copy
>>85094998I never post, I lurk 99% time. Do martial arts, I'm not joking. Join your loca bjj/mma gym. Saved me from religion, depression and isolation. I started as old as 29.
>>85094998Feeling like you're in a group of people is the way to feel like your life is worth something, imo. This site is a really shit place to be that group, so find pretty much any group, doesn't really matter what, that you can be a part of. They'l care for you and you'll care for them. At the end of the day though, I care for you, Anon. I hope things get better for you.
>>85095279I have tried that, but everytime i fuck it up (irl),i have no stability at work since i work at 4 diffrent depts and dont know many even after working there for almost 3 years, they are great people but i am the issue, my dad is/was the issue.
>>85095333Meeting people outside of work is kinda difficult, but my personal experience with social groups put together by in my case the city is that there's a bunch of really nice people. There'll be people in shitty spots and very rarely some somewhat antisocial people, but since you're 25, chances are there's a program with people like you in mind with almost exclusively decent people. Might feel like shit to go for some program for socially inept people, but, you're here, on this board. I haven't really made long terms friends with people in those groups, but it's made life a lot more tolerable in the here and now and added a lot of meaning to my everyday.
>>85095400I was supposed to take part in a program to help me (even if i was one year to old), but when i got a part time job i lost the ability to partake since ur fixed now, there is not as far as i know, i dont use this board to often but started reading here/posting after a mental episode, the last few days gave me hope that things would be come better since they where great, i wont kill myself (probaly) but dont worry about me.
>>85095478Sounds difficult, there's a lot of assumptions that someone having a job mean that there's no reason to give them support. It does seem like from this thread people should be worried about you. Things can get better, and they're likely to get a lot better than where you're at right now. Nothing is ever gonna be perfect, but hey, you've dealt with things for as long as you have, what's a while more? Especially if you put in the effort to meet new people or get actually get into the social circles of the people around you now.
