Time to die

>>85096467
>i feel bored all the fucking time
Why don't you do something intellectually stimulating like solving a Rubik's cube by yourself, working on a project, reading a book, volunteering, helping out your friends/family or getting a job or watching anime or reading manga or cleaning up your room?
>i got nothing to live for
Unlucky!
>nothing gives me enjoyment
Have you tried being more thankful for what you have?
>i'm too much of a pussy to kill myself
I would've killed myself by now if I didn't have factors making it hard to do so.
>i have no energy to go to college
Then drop out if you aren't taking your education seriously, normalfag.
>under pressure all the time,
Why? You can sit here and complain while going to college, how could you have any form of pressure whatsoever? It's not like your going homeless or something.
>i just wish i can die in my sleep
You are too young for that to ever happen.

>>85096467
it's okay anon... things get better, you're just going through a slump right now

>>85097217
iit's been like that for three years at least it doesn't feel like there is a way out

>>85096467
wanna talk about it? what major?

lainposters don't deserve being depressed..

>>85097217
you just need something else to focus on than the anxiety, when I was at my lowest, I got my pet snails & aquarium and those sparked my neurons just enough so i didn't go insane. hell, even doing something like drawing, cooking practice or walking at a nature reserve can give you the kick you need, you just gotta get those idle hands/feet doing something

>>85096492
>I didn't have factors making it hard to do so.
Not OP but what are those factors?

>>85097389
NTA, but probably family members and/or friends

happy knowing you're still alive but def don't kill yourself

there's someone out there that cares for you

>>85097437
>here's someone out there that cares for you
knowing that still doesn't solve anything at all, i just don't care honestly
>>85097373
i didn't decide yet, i took a gap year because i don't know and don't have energy for anything

>>85097437
>there's someone out there that cares for you
Where do people get off in writing this bullshit? You don't know the op personally, you're feeding them lies.

>>85097389
Can't drive, online retailers banned my card and phone number for some goddamn reason so I can't order equipment/rope online, and guns are locked up. It's impossible for me to kill myself unless I take a kitchen knife and slice my throat, which I don't have the balls to endure. Sorry.

>>85097397
Also family members, but that's self explanatory. My mom would be devastated and I couldn't do that to her. She's already neurotic and emotionally tense.

>>85097444
>knowing that still doesn't solve anything at all
i understand. but knowing has never helped anyone. action
finding them, spending time with people
might not mean to you anything now, but we're wired for social interaction. unfortunately

>>85097444
>didn't decide yet, i took a gap year because i don't know and don't have energy for anything
do you go outside often? how does your nutrition / eating look like? workouts? might sound silly. but i felt the same until i took a blood test and found out i was like in the bottom percentile for literally every vitamin in existence
not knowing what to do is another thing though

why specifically 3 years? has anything happened?

>>85097484
>finding them, spending time with people
i hate most people desu i get really bored, maybe if i find some friends with the same interests and playing together might be cool
>do you go outside often?
not at all
>why specifically 3 years? has anything happened?
i was most of the time bored but these three years since i left religion i've been hit with a big existential crisis that left me anxious and nihilistic, my dad died too and i've been getting worse at education and now i don't have the energy to go to college or interact with people

>>85097570
>i hate most people desu
same honestly, i don't have anyone either. i used to though, which is why i know it can be better. the hard part is finding someone equally messed up you can relate to. what are your interests, anon? what games do you play?

>not at all
we're suffering from zoochosis if we stay inside all the time you know, its not what we're made for
you're not getting any vitamin d too

>since i left religion i've been hit with a big existential crisis that left me anxious and nihilistic, my dad died too
i'm sorry to hear. your point about religion is interesting, it happened a long time ago for me but it was the exact tipping point in my mental health looking back. i'm not sure how to fill that hole either, i've looked at the major religions again since to try and find something but i don't know. it does leave you nihilistic

while i love giving advice i suffer from the same problems. but making slow progress is possible. while i only go out for walks like once a week i for example used to be a complete shut in for a long time. its too early to give up

>>85097630
>>85097630
>the hard part is finding someone equally messed up you can relate to
i agree, it's more hard tho when you can't be friends with them or make them talk to you
>we're suffering from zoochosis if we stay inside all the time you know, its not what we're made for
yeah i know, i really don't have energy to even play but i will try your advice and take a walk
> it does leave you nihilistic
yeah, especially for someone like me who overthinks a lot about death, meaning etc it's tiring
>its too early to give up
thanks anon, your words made me a little better

>>85097660
>it's more hard tho when you can't be friends with them or make them talk to you
:')
>thanks anon, your words made me a little better
i'm happy to hear!
>yeah i know, i really don't have energy to even play but i will try your advice and take a walk
make sure to enjoy it, look at the scenery and take breaks to sit down at places. if possible try to be somewhat grateful, even if its hard in your position
i'd gladly read how it went but i'll head to sleep for now, post about how it was if you feel like it

>>85096492
>You are too young for that to ever happen.
My brother-in-law had a nephew who caught pneumonia and died in his sleep at age 21.
It can happen at any age.

>>85098134
He's more likely to win the lottery, so idk.