Day 6 of waiting for my shit I ordered to arrive. I'm literally doing nothing all day just waiting for it because I need my stuff to be productive (I'm that addicted). USPS needs to hurry the FUCK up.

>>85100216
i like depressants because they help me stop overthinking everything, but stimulants with a good social setting is a far more satisfying experience

>>85100237
What stuff would that be foo

>>85100216
Is there any drug that meets the following critera:
>Not illegal
>Makes me forget my existence
>Doesn't cause neurological impairment/increased dementia risk
>Doesn't make me smell
>Doesn't have long-term effects/addiction issues
I don't think a drug like that exists but somebody let me know.

Popping painkillers in the morning anons,

>>85100216
I discovered the best way to smoke marijuana is by taking snuff afterwards. It clears your head allowing you to be productive and coherent while high. Snuff is also great for sobering up if you drank too much alcohol. I don't know why more people don't praise this stuff, it's a hundred times better than cigarettes.

>>85100354
>>Doesn't cause neurological impairment/increased dementia risk
Already a tough criteria to meet.
>Doesn't have long-term effects/addiction issues
Doesn't exist.
I'd say what you need is a good month long drinking binge. It's not enough time to become addicted or cause any issues. After you quit you'll realize drugs suck and being sober is easier.

no fucking clue how much 2cb i'm taking the scale just says 0.000g even after i add a decent amount
let's see what kind of ride i'm in for
and no i won't do volumetric dosing

i dont understand why they havent given me my medication. i crashed out a little bit but now i feel really weak, pathetic and hopeless. dont even feel like reaching out now, just ignored, rejected, lied to...
sorry, i was struggling to accept my diagnosis and now u punish me by kicking me whilst im down?

how im treated is gross, im not perfect but not pure malevolent evil ffs.

>>85101253
how are they treating you

>>85101338
so i have a schizo diagnosis and obvs i have struggled to accept that, with a lot of denial.

stop taking meds cos i think im not schizo plus want to do lsd.

social workers knock on door with fucking injections ready. just say want oral meds only (pills) and to go away. they go away. they knock on my door like 6 times with drs and stuff over 2 month period. ignore them like nobody is home, takes 5 mins for them to leave.

good lsd trip, have gained lots of insight but now im struggling with rotting. oh shit i think i am actually schizo it makes sense, should go back on meds.

I call the psych center 3 days ago, tuesday, cos my designated social worker is on holiday for a whole month (they connect you with drs). the receptionist tells me they will email drs. wait 2 days. no response of dr appointment confirmation to discuss restarting meds. call them again, rude receptionist, hang up. go gym. decide i should recall psych center. ring 2 times, no answer. panicking now feel like total dogshit. calling loads of medical services to find out if anyone can help, no one can help.

so i call psych center again, they tell me i have to wait till next Tuesday (21st). thats ridiculous. i just want haloperidal. haloperidal takes 30 mins for it to work...

go in person yesterday. duty worker says he will call me today. no call. call again. today wait till next week. do the dr even know im waiting to be seen? yes apparently.

im fuckign schizo asking for help and just being spat in face. if i was to behave like a low iq retard i could totally have a public meltdown and get medicated but im not gonna do that cos im not even having a mental health crisis, literally just want my meds. they take 30 mins to work...

>>85101425
are you the anon who tried to get legal involvement against the diagnosis?
you don't sound that stable right now tbqhwu

>>85100216
depressants, I'm trying to get closer to death, not life.

psychedelics and weed
a recipe for disaster
felt best for a month where i didn't have anything

>>85101463
>are you the anon who tried to get legal involvement against the diagnosis?
i mean like 7 years ago when im first sectioned they provide solicitors and i might have been very insistent that im not schizo.

but i have since learnt that when u get the schizo stamp nobody really takes you very seriously whenever you mention your mental health problems. if they work in law or medicine they just go another complaining schizo and tune you out.

as long as the risk assessment gets filled out social workers couldn't give a shit about me.

>>85100354
Do a week long opiate binge while having enough on you to last a week, not more.

i stink everything stinks i can't breathe this shitty air

>Turns out having actual schizophrenia isn't a free pass in life
Shit there go my beautiful plans. Ok, plan B, late onset adult tourettes kek

>>85101526
Are you trying to get disabilitybux or something?

>>85101485
it can be pretty good if you're hedonistic about it
I avoid all negative feelings even if they don't seem that bad, so I don't spiral into even worse territory and I have an emergency lamp I turn on if I get spooky visuals

>>85101644
hasn't been about visuals or anything for me for a long time
just a personal hell of my thoughts about the past present and future

>>85101591
Lord no, I have a job, thank you. Just looking for new and fun ways to excuse my awful behavior and impulses. Nigger.

>>85101690
inb4 "this ^ anon is racist", he has tourettes.

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thinking about trying datura this weekend. I got nothing to lose

>>85101813
really your "ticks" cause you to TYPE OUT things

>>85102158
I can't help it man, Nigger. my ticks cause me to hit ctrl Nigger. v and I have that on my clipboard :( Nigger.

Was gonna order a bunch more pregabalin off jeetmart but I'm sketching out over my country's customs checks. I could order more next month or wait until September so it "looks" like a 3 monthly order which they apparently don't scrutinise that hard on. Don't see any reason to set up a dnm when i literally have a guy on whatsapp I can send money to in a couple of taps and have it shipped in a week, yet I also wanna get geeked tf out instead of just coasting on my usual low dose. Quite the conundrum.

>>85102521 < \
How do y'all think they're | doing rn?

Where do you actually get anything from i dont get it

>>85102039
Lmao take it slow bro, don't lose your mind

>>85100216
Has using drugs ever made anyone here gay? Just curious to see if anyone had the experience i had and if anyone knows what drugs do to cause this, I was never bisexual ever before i started doing drugs, ive used stimulants weed psychedelics and more

>>85103011
How much is a good dose for edibles? I've only smoked before and 12-15 hits of 28% is enough to get me high. If I smoke the entire joint which is about 35 hits it feels like being high on benadryl which is a very terrible experience. Weed is so overrated. Too little and there's no difference between being sober, too much and extreme paranoia.

>>85103046
maybe but it's probably other things as well

how do i get away from all this shit
the internet it's all just sickness

>>85103092
>Extreme paranoia
Have you tried weed with benzos? I got lit while on xanax once and they complemented each other perfectly, like peanut butter and jelly that type of cool shit ykyk.

My shrooms came in >w<
I look forward to consooming them when the right time comes.

>>85103092
agree with you it's a great drug when you're still innocent and without worry and you look at everything with wonder, but when older it seems to be mostly negatives. i can witness how it makes me spiral within a week of using

stims because there is just so many

I am so fucking baked and I have no idea why, I smoke everyday but I'm lowk tripping

Would pseudoindoxyl be unlikely to show up on a drug test?

Why not stims and downers... at the same time?

>Dead

Oh

>>85103046
opiods always make me crave being feminized, I don't even jack off I just juliamaxx