I clearly don't have the traits of psychopathy because I'm receptive and I adapt to other people's emotions, but I often find myself enjoying hurting others especially during sex within limits. There have been many awkward moments where I couldn't get a hard on with regular sex but whenever the girl would be in a position that looks weak or I would put my hands around their neck or hold them in a certain way I would get hard immediatly this has costed me some relationships because they saw me as shifty and couldn't understandWhenever I try to be nice for too long I fall in a terrible depression lose interest in art and work to a debilitating effect. Then I stard doing sports and all reading again, start feeling superior to everyone fantasize about hurting them, think mean stuff and then my body feels great again.I'm sorry that being what I am hurts people but there is nothing worse than depression its either them or me its about survival
>>85105793Have you been diagnosed with a disorder by a professional with experience in the field?
>>85105820come on man you and I both know he's just humblebragging about being le epic patrick bateman
>>85105820No I know this sounds unserious but I do have an experiencable disorder since it affects my sexual life with very clear behaviours
My experience is that a lot of women really like it if you are upfront about it. I had my belt around my gf's neck on our second date and fucked her in the yard in the dirt. She told all her friends about it, lol. My ex didn't like that and just wanted to have "intense" sex as in athletic. No. Boring. That relationship was terrible.
>>85105793Why are you so self-conscious about it?Plenty of guys are into some degree of BDSM during sex, plenty of girls are at least somewhat sadistic or masochist. Just be open with it - this is what I'm into, you down with that?Sometimes it will be a problem, like, my ex was uncomfortable with acting out any sort of rapeplay and a lot of girls are okay with being slapped or choked but don't want you to break the skin or choke them out. Just cross those bridges when you come to it.I've never met a girl who objected to being held down or lightly choked.
>>85105793https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aWQnf2PF_8o
