found out today my bf tried to kill himself last night while I was sleeping, its left me absolutely crushed. hes on a vacation right now with his family in orlando so i cant physically see him or comfort him, horrible feeling. On the other hand I was on the brink of homelessness (him and I come from entirely different backgrounds) cause I got laid off my job a month ago but I got a job at a local pizza place today making dough just in time in order for me to get a check right when rent is due. Im not sure how to feel, a lot more happened, im leaving out details. it was a mixed bag, happy I have a job but devastated all the same, feel like I failed him. just wish I wasnt broke rn so he could come live with me and get away from his shit family, but i can barely support myself. going to save every penny I can. Just turned 20 a couple days ago and this is what im dealing with. Picrel is a mango I bought today
>>85116351I gotta stop coming on this board, you guys are just too pathetic
>>85116351>found out today my bfthread hidden
>>85116351I would also kms if my "girl" friend was so fat, I think once someone tries to commit while you're together the relationship should be over, just move on
>>85116381Tbf I never said I was a girl
Would *your* girlfriend stay by your side if you failed suicide in another state, anon?
stay close to him but also let him know that you are still there, someone who loves him and tries to be better. you cannot control his actions, neither he can control yours, so try to find a way to tell him that a way to show love its to take care of yourself trying to become better, although sometimes its tuff nobody is perfect
>>85116406To be honest I just came here cause I got nobody else to tell, im just talking into the void
>>85116351that's a tiny mango, anoni suggest you peel it then cut the seed out, blend it with a bit of water + sugar to taste, and have a nice mango juice cup or twobut eh... i get that you might feel like that, i really do, but it's not your faultif anything i'm pretty sure you're a big reason he wouldn't try it anywhere as often as he would without you aroundthere's no shame in that, his environment doesn't favor it and we can lose sight of what's important to us in key moments and try something stupid during those timesinstead of just saving up, work out details with him, how/if it'd be possible for you two to move in together and start a life with each other, away from that bullshit he's dealing withmaybe you won't be able to afford a life of luxuries, but maybe you can afford a life near each otheri think that'd be plenty
>>85116422I try to talk to him but I never get anything other than im fine, when I pry he just gets angry or shuts down, feel like my hands are tied, I mean he is gonna be okay for now, but idk what will happen in the future, he needs help that he wont get. I dont know why I posted this honestly.
>>85116351>tries to an hero>fails>"whelp, cya later gf im going on vacation with my family to the beach :>)"Nigga wtf is this world
>>85116450It would definitely be plenty, he is more than enough to keep me happy, I love him, and ive already planned everything out with him, but its like hes given up on living, he doesnt believe that his life has any purpose, i dont know how to get him to understand how much he matters to me, ive told him and told him we just have to wait a little while longer and ik how difficult it is for him, I just wish he could stick it out, I want him to WANT to live.
>>85116454my ex gf tried to od with her meds after i visited her house, she was going trought deep mental problems and i tried to help her with all of that. the key thing i could share with her as a person who tried this before its hope, its the only thing thats left when you lose everything, its hard to make someone believe that tomorrow could be better but if you stay close to him emotionaly its our only tool to help him. maybe you could talk this out with him, and if he stills dont listen maybe you should take a step back and analyse the situation, sometimes people dont want to be aided or push people like this for other reasons.i think its a really selfish act trying to kys idk if he is the kind of person to be really selfish, but yea try to convice him that its important to find a way to connect emotionally both and hope for a better future together.
>>85116518how is kysing selfish you moralfag its their life not yours
>>85116351are you looking for sympathy or more lethal methods?
>>85116476>I want him to WANT to live.yeah, that's the difficult part, anoni don't really have an answer to that, it's very very personal (mine is a good future simply put, and curiosity)did you get the chance to spend a few days together? isolated from everyone else, like going to an airbnb for a week or two and just living life next to each other without having much plannedmaybe showing him how good things can be might begin to motivate him, it won't do the trick outright but it'd be a first step, i hope
>>85116518When I met him he was completely alone, no support system nobody who actually gave a shit about him or his wellbeing, he was abused for a very long time and he still lives with the person who did it to him, yet he has to pretend like it never happened. He doesnt have the courage to tell anyone. Ive kept my mouth shut because hes threatened in the past to kill himself if he found out I told anybody. He is completely and entirely dependent upon me. God, I just want him to see his life has worth in and of itself, his value isnt dependent on me, IM not what makes his life worth living but that his life had objective value from the very start. He is a great artist and I started drawing just to be able to connect with him on what hes passionate about. I try and do everything I can in order to gain his trust, to show him that im safe and that he can talk to me. I dont know. I knew he had really deep issues but this honestly just kind of came out of nowhere, from my perspective he was doing alright. I try to give him hope, I try and tell him that hes got his entire life ahead of him, that soon we can leave the past in the past and live a happier life together, I mean it wont be perfect but it will be better than this. But I cant undo what was done to him, and im not sure if hes able to move on from it. I dont even know if thats entirely why cause like I said before he doesnt talk about his feelings, this is just my guess.
>>85116547An outside perspective, our relationship is horribly imbalanced and idk how can he ever be okay when hes living with the person who hurt them. I know I cant fix his problems but I want to help him, maybe I just have a fucked up saviour complex idk, Im not sure whats right and wrong in this situation. I just wanna do the right thing honestly
>>85116351The hard truth is, if he's done it once, he'll likely do it again. He can't handle hardship, and he's not going to be there for you when you need him. You deserve better. Dump his ass and never speak to him again, before he ruins your life.
>>85116351why the fuck do women write here about their bfs constantly, you have the entire rest of the internet
>>85116545leaving someone its a personal choice, if someone really close to you killed themselves, would you be in peace?all those times where you tried to be close to them and help them would mean nothing, because that person would take that decision. its selfish because they stop thinking about the people around them.maybe you should try to think again what a selfish act is.
>>85116626im not a woman oml
>>85116633Wait... op is a gay man?
im going to bed thank you guys who actually gave me some solid advice, I dont have anyone else to ask
>>85116351>hes on a vacation right now with his family in orlandoWhat "shit" family would go on vacation together? Is he spoilt rotten? Does he not know how good he has it?
>>85116639The handsome one...Gay, yes?
>>85116646good night anondon't forget your mango juice whenever the mango is ripe enough
>>85116639Yeah, pretty cooky crazy silly wild
>>85116651Suicide fags are almost always spoiled rotten, yet convinced they have the hardest lives ever
>>85116653Tbh I just ate it like an apple, ill have to try that out next time! c:
>>85116620idk as someone planning to kill myself. if he does do it, don't blame youself or spend time trying to understand the why.
>>85116583i think its good that you recognize you are not his whole life now, why doesnt he tries to leave his original home? not saying that you need to live together but maybe finding a way to be happy its what hes seeking right now, you could convince him to persue a plan to get away of the source a lot of his problems.i know its not easy but thats why it should be planned and budgeted. Joy its really hard to achieve but at least trying to find something similar to peace or a neutral position of emotions its better than nothing.planning with him could be some kind of hope and way to make him start persuing art and his peace
>>85116351Flee while you can, they never get better like the movies tell you. They just stew in their own deluded thoughts and if they dont do it for real, they'll just stick around and be fucking miserable. Sorry dude but some people just werent meant for this world.
>>85116651His dad is a legit millionaire but he fucking sucks as a person, you couldnt even really call him a father, don't wanna say what he did but some pretty vile shit, and I see the way he treats him. I used to envy him until I found out how shit his life actually is, his dad just hoards that shit, my bf gets the bare minimum.
>>85116663Fuck off and die faggot nobody's giving you the attention you're begging for here
>>85116665he doesnt because hes completely unprepared for the world, no license, no car, hes too afraid to get a job cause he can barely speak to people, he didnt even know what TF taxes were until a week ago when I explained what a w2 is. his parents like actually failed him, they completely isolated him from the world until about a year ago. Its just a difficult shit situation
>>85116681I rescind my niceties I didn't know you were two fags. Tell him to Elliot Rogers before he goes lel
>>85116666I dont know I know sunk cost fallacy or wtv but its hard to abandon another living breathing person who has feelings like I do
>>85116691Why does that matter anyways?? I dont see how that changes shit but wtv, this board is full of fags
>>85116706>this board is full of fagsYes and I hope they all rope
>>85116663Heavy fucking shit, idk whats happened to you in your life but I wish you peace man
>>85116711Damn cant believe people still give a shit about this in 2026, theres worse things in the world than people just living their lives, im just a normal ass dude, u wouldnt be able to tell me apart from any straight guy unless I told you
>>85116730Idgaf about you people, hence why I retracted my empathetic statements. I live my life as if you don't exist. Good day
Nah but anyways I didnt expect anyone to actually give a shit thank you guys who actually took the time to empathize with me and give me some advice, gn fr this time
>>85116740Fucking based and chadded out the wazoo. Absolute sigma dunking on the faggots. Get fucked homosexuals! Well you already do... and probably got HIV too I suppose.
>>85116676thanks for the attention
